1 Prologue
Hello everyone.
This is my second work, which will come out even slower than Epic of the Apostate: The Heretic.
Cause?
Well, this is a mixture of different anime and I need to watch them all, and then think over the plot plan.
All in all, I hope you enjoy it.
Ask questions if they appear.
Enjoy reading.
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Instant pain that quickly passed ... and then .... then is only darkness.
It was as if I fell asleep ... But I don't have a dream and I don't see the nightmares that often torment me. No. I. I do not feel anything and I see only darkness.
And, in general, do I see?
Everything is so strange.
...
Turning on the spot and looking around, I saw only darkness, I also tried to pinch myself, but I could not feel my hands and ... I could not feel my body at all.
_This is a dream?_
I tried to speak, but I didn't hear my own voice, I didn't even understand if I was speaking at all.
[This is definitely not a dream ... heh ... Looking back at the last moment, I'm probably in a coma or already dead.]
The last thing I saw and remembered, albeit vaguely, but I approximately realize what it was.
As usual, I came home from school, wanted to eat, take some photos of the plants that recently bloomed in my garden. When I was walking along the usual route in the city, I felt something strange, I turned my head, reacting unconsciously, noticed something of a metallic color ... and then ... there was darkness...
[… Heh. I definitely died.]
Weird. Assuming my death, I do not feel anything, I did not show a single emotion at all. Just calm. Such a peaceful calmness is pleasant, I have long dreamed of such silence.
Looking into the darkness in complete silence, I enjoyed it, and my body has now become so pleasant and light without unnecessary pressure or heaviness, as if I had thrown off a load pressing on my shoulders.
I just stared for a long time, while time passed, without thoughts, without worries ... But I am an unlucky person, so even this wonderful time someone will interrupt me, it was always like this when I wanted to relax.
This "someone" was a spot of light that shone in the darkness and approached me, from the beginning it was a small dot, but when it got closer, it increased in size.
I could not figure it out, it was not clear to me whether it was me who was moving towards the light or it was approaching me.
[Is this what they call "The Light at the End of the Tunnel"?]
Only such a thought can slip through anyone, seeing it.
But not only the approach of the light was strange, but it was also strange the warmth that is emitted as if I was enveloped in a pleasant blanket, only this warmth was not physical, this warmth seemed to warm my very soul.
When the light approached, I seemed to be frozen, unable to move. The light blinded me.
...
When my vision returned to normal, after a moment of loss of vision, I found myself in a completely white space.
The earth, the sky, my surroundings, everything was white.
Although I do not understand where is the earth and where is the sky.
"Hm? Soul? ... How unexpected. Souls rarely enter the abode of the gods. "
A voice rang out from behind me, it was so close and at the same time so far, the voice was gentle and soft, bearing feminine and masculine features.
But when I heard the voice, I froze.
[I didn't feel someone behind my back? With my reaction? ]
I was not in a panic and could not even feel surprise, it was just an empty question of interest.
"Of course you will not feel, you are in my abode. Everything here is in my power. "
Hearing a beautiful voice again and realizing where I was approximate, I decided to turn to the owner of this space.
And what I saw when I turned around made me freeze, unable to think or try to say anything.
About two meters away from me there was a creature like a human and it looked like a human, but I clearly understand that this is God, this has already been saying.
The creature looks like a young woman, wearing the clothes of the ancient Romans that covered her body with perfect proportions. Her face was beautiful, like a work of art, but it was not beautiful like the faces of beautiful women with pronounced features, the woman's face in front of me had masculine and feminine features, merging in harmony to create a masterpiece. It is strange and difficult to describe, but her face is so beautiful as if it is an ideal that the universe is only capable of. Also, this picture was adorned with her long hair, reaching half of her thighs, which had an iridescent white-pink color. It looked mystical and irresistible, eye-catching. And also her eyes ... her eyes were more beautiful than any jewelry or gem, looking in them, I understand that there is nothing more brilliant and magnificent in this world except them.
Looking into her blue eyes with pink pupils, I realized that the beauty of the world is insignificant in front of them.
Standing in a frozen state, I enjoyed the beauty of a woman.
Why do I think this is a woman, although her face does not have a pronounced definition of her gender?
She has a third size breast that is covered by her clothes. Although everything is possible in the modern world, I do not feel false from her.
[How beautiful.]
Only such a thought flashed involuntarily, while I looked at her, her beauty made me spiritually saturate, I received aesthetic pleasure.
I wanted to look at her forever ... but something unexpected happened, a calm and gentle face with a soft smile on its lips flushed sharply and her eyes began to quickly run across the white space, trying to avoid looking at me, and her lips began to tremble.
And then, unexpectedly, as I watched this harsh change, she whispered:
'I-I am bea… bea… beautiful ???'
Although she uttered it in a whisper, her words still echoed across the white space, carrying her embarrassment.
And I ... I did not understand such an action on her part.
… After a moment.
Realizing that her words were audible to me, the goddess blushed more and fell silent, tightly clutching her clothes.
We stood like that, in silence, for a long time ... as I can tell,... I did not feel the passage of time.
But this silence was interrupted by several deep breaths of the goddess.
Catching her breath, she sharply looked into my eyes, continuing to blush, and asked:
"D-do you re-r-really think m-me bea-beautiful?"
"Yes. Your beauty is perfect, it touched my soul, your image will never leave my memory. "
It makes no sense to hide my opinion. Everything I have said is my true impression of her.
"Uva-va-yuyu."
After my words, the goddess blushed again and sat down, hiding her face in her knees, constantly making strange sounds.
I didn't understand what I should do in such a situation, there were no options at all. It is not every day that I meet goddesses and I don't know their habits.
Standing in silence, I just looked at the beauty who, sitting, hiding her face in her knees, makes cute and panicky sounds.
While I was looking at such a sweet and strange sight, a sharp wave of vibration passed sharply across the white space, and a gentle ringing of a bell rang out.
And the goddess got up and stopped blushing, regaining her former, calm, gentle, and soft look.
[Everything is so strange.]
I have ceased to understand what is happening altogether.
"There is nothing strange about that. It's just that soon you will need to be sent for rebirth, and this was a signal to souls about their imminent rebirth. "
[Signal? Rebirth? ... So I'm dead.]
How easily I accepted my death.
And the goddess was also surprised, even her beautiful eyes widened.
"Aren't you surprised to learn about death? Usually, everyone panics and begins to ask for a return, and some ask to go to other worlds for their own purposes. And you don't ... Oh ... F-forgive me, you are still in the form of a "detached soul", even with the absence of feelings and emotions. The color of your soul was so interesting, so I completely forgot to return feelings and emotions to you right away. Sorry. "
Listening to her, I just now noticed a strange part in her speech. When she talks about herself, this moment is duplicated and the word is spoken simultaneously from a masculine and feminine point of view. I was so absorbed in her beauty that I did not pay attention to it before.
(The goddess speaks in a split voice like a man and a woman at the same time.)
Having finished apologizing, she waved her hand and it was like a wave covered me. After the wave, I instantly felt pain all over my body. I felt: fear, sadness, relief, excitement, lust, anger, spite, rage, hatred, desire to kill, happiness, peace, joy.
A full spectrum of different feelings and emotions filled me in the chaos, but after a second of pain, everything disappeared. I was surprised by this course of events.
And immediately I discovered that I was able to wonder, which I could not before.
Realizing this, my surprise knew no bounds.
I fell into a prostration from the shock of constant surprise.
"I returned your emotions, now need to shape you."
[Stop !!!]
Hearing a gentle voice, I immediately returned to normal and being eaten by curiosity, quickly stopped her (him?).
"A?"
Again I was able to see the surprised cute face.
[Let me see how I look now. I beg.]
"D-good."
Still not understanding what was happening, she (-he?) nevertheless decided to agree to my request, and after a wave of her (his?) white tender hand, a mirror appeared in front of me. And in the mirror, I saw WHAT I am now.
I was a pink ball of light. Yes. I. Pink. Ball. Light.
I froze again, looking at myself in surprise. It just defied common sense, my mind wasn't working from shock.
"A-are you okay?"
Again, like a wave, a pleasant, gentle, restless voice brought me back to reality.
[Yes. I was just surprised at this unexpected discovery.]
"So can I go on?"
Looking at me with cute eyes full of concern, she asked. It was cute.
"Well then, let's get started."
The wave of the hand and my body took on the appearance of a human instead of a ball. There were arms, legs, only the facial features disappeared completely, there was only a mouth ... I was also bald.
"Kx. Kh ... Hello? "
Having a chance, I immediately decided to speak. My voice finally sounded, only it was empty, without the coarseness inherent in my previous voice.
And as if foreseeing my thoughts, the goddess said:
"Souls have no vocal cords or individual attributes other than color. Therefore, the voice of all souls is the same. "
Well here, I did not pay attention to her for a few seconds, and she again returned to a calm image.
"Our time is limited, so let me go through the procedure quickly. All questions later. "
I just nodded.
"You are probably wondering what this place is? ... This is my abode of God, my home, my world, or is it like my "study ". Everything is mine here. "
Opening her arms, she (he?) showed their possessions.
"Sometimes there are situations, like yours, that souls were not assigned to Heaven or Hell, or were not assigned to rebirth. Such souls, we, the gods, call "Non-standard". "Non-standard" have average karma with an admixture of sins and mercy, therefore these souls do not accept karmic rebirth, due to the inability to determine their future life, but these souls also did not commit sins for the path to Hell and are not clean for the path to Paradise. And it is here that the opinion of the gods is required, we decide what will happen next to the soul. It all depends on our choice and our desires."
When she stopped speaking, she (he?) looked at me strangely.
"Of course, as I said, it all depends on the wishes of the gods, and some, for the sake of entertainment, send souls to terrible worlds, turn them into monsters, beasts, or make their life miserable without even giving them the opportunity to kill themselves."
So. Now I realized what kind of ass I am in. I even felt somehow uneasy.
"But I'm not that Goddess (God). I am Eliya (El) Goddess (God) of mercy, love, and peace. I will never make my Darling suffer ... This concludes all the explanations. I can't tell you more."
Huh. The gods decide my fate. It's unpleasant ...
So…!!!
Stop…
Darling!?
As soon as I realized her words, she disappeared from the place where she had stood and was next to me, gently hugging my body with one hand, and with the other holding my chin.
"A?"
"Darling. I could not resist. I wanted to hug you so badly. Therefore, everything else necessary for rebirth, I will tell you this way. "
[What's happening?]
She ran her finger along my cheek and tightened the hug. Looking at me, she licked her sensual lips and, answering my thoughts, she said with excitement:
"You are the first who truly admired me. All the others without emotions saw in me only an object, but with emotions, they longed for me, there was no sincerity in them. "
As she spoke, she looked at my face, gradually changes began to occur in her beautiful eyes, her unusual pink pupils gradually took on the shape of a heart and seemed to be lit with an unusual shine, which was a little frightening. I froze in surprise looking at this
"I was so lonely, although I am the Goddess (God) of love. To be alone, trying to bring love to the world, it saddened me very much, but now you appeared... "
She continued to stroke my cheek with excitement on her face.
"... You are the one who will dispel my loneliness."
"Why me? You are beautiful. Aren't there other gods suitable for you? "
I am losing the thread of the meaning of what is happening. She says that I will "dispel her loneliness" and I understand that this is an expression of her feelings. But I don't understand how it came to this.
"Hee-hee. Mortals are so simple... But unlike you mortals, we, the Gods are eccentric, we like everything that can relieve boredom, so a partner in our immortal life is chosen according to our tastes and interests ... "
After a pause, she slowly moved away from me, about two meters, until the last she did not let go of her hand from my cheek.
"... The interests of the gods are different, someone loves romance, someone fights, and someone prefers silence and many other interests and desires distinguish each god. In this we are similar to you mortals, only we differ a little from mortals, this difference is - fanaticism according to one idea... "
Grasping her flushed cheeks, she seemed to be in a trance, her heart-shaped pupils glowing pink. This scene looked a little crazy.
"... This fanaticism, it is like a drug that drives us, we want to get a full range of feelings, so every god is looking for a partner who will relieve his boredom ... Among the gods there are few couples who found joy in each other, most of the gods chose as partners mortals or demigods because they are funny. "
"And ... what is the meaning you want to convey to me?"
The thread of the beginning of the question is lost, I feel like an idiot.
"Fu-Fu ... Honey, I said that the gods are fanatical and they are driven by desires. Of course, the gods have a desire to have an ideal partner in order to make perfect offspring ... "
I nodded. Even people have always strived for a perfect bloodline, and even more so the gods could not allow their proud blood to be stained ... But this is not the answer to my question.
"… The gods who fell in love with each other have an ideal connection with each other, so their offspring will be ideal, as well as the gods who have chosen special mortals. But not all go smoothly, not all gods find the happiness of love ... "
All joy and excitement disappeared from her face, she looked sad.
"... This especially happens with gods like me, the Gods of the Void ..."
The more she talked, the sadder she became. I even wanted to calm her down, but something stopped me, insisted not to approach, and I did not move, following the instructions of my instinct.
"... Gods are divided into several types:
Dream Gods - They were born from the worship and prayers of mortals, assuming the form, appearance, and gender represented by their pilgrims.
Those who became Gods are the kind of gods who gained strength and broke through the mortal shell, they have the appearance that they had when they were still mortal. The weakest among the gods.
The Desire Gods are the gods born of the desires and aspirations of people, their appearance depends on the desire that gave rise to them.
Gods of Legends and Myths - were born from legends and myths. (This moment is not related to the Fate universe)
The Old Gods are those who were born from the basic laws of the universe, appearance, form, and gender are taken from their whims and are always constant.
The Gods of the World are the gods born from the elements, forces of nature, and the concepts of the worlds, they have a form, appearance, and gender depending on the environment and are usually constant.
And ... also ... the Gods of the Void are gods who were born from the void at different intervals of time from strong vibrations of spiritual forms, the strongest among the gods ... and ... and ... "
Her eyes darkened, as if she had lost the meaning of life, her face was like a person in despair, and she was biting her lip with force.
"... Why are you telling me this?"
I had a bad feeling.
Looking at me with empty eyes, she continued:
"... and the Gods of the Void have no form, appearance or gender ... * Cry* ..."
Tears flowed from her eyes. She grabbed her clothes and immediately ripped them off, exposing her body.
"... The Gods of the Void are sexless, WE ARE AS IF CURSED ..."
Looking at her naked body, which is in excellent proportions, I was shocked. Her ideal large breasts, where nipples should have been present, were empty, the breasts were just two round balls of flesh without "flowers of dreams and desires", it was also with a "secret garden", she did not have female genitals. (Standard ecchi censorship)
"... HE-HE ..."
Looking at me, she began to laugh terribly, tears flowed from her eyes as if it were a stream, but her pupils were still in the shape of a heart and flickered terribly.
It made me flinch.
"... He-he. Also, this body, which you call "beautiful", is just how you imagine me ... "
As she spoke, her voice rose to a scream.
"... I TAKE A APPEARANCE FIT FOR YOU, THIS IS THE PERFECT BEAUTY OF YOUR RACE, EVERYTHING IS DESIGNED FOR YOUR "TASTE" !!! "
When she screamed, my body vibrated, and it felt like I was falling apart.
"* Sighs * Heee. Heeeee. As I said before ... Gods take the choice of partners very seriously, so sexless Gods, like me, are not a priority, and the gods of emptiness themselves love peace and loneliness .... but BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT I AM THE GODDESS (GOD) OF LOVE,
I BEGIN TO FEEL ENVY, BITTERNESS, AND SADNESS LIKE THE GODDESS (GOD) OF LOVE, I SHOULD NOT FEEL IT ... BUT ... BUT ... "
The vibration passed again, my body almost shattered into pieces, I felt like a "Sound wave jumps detector."
"… Oooh. * Cry * I ... felt ... I was so unnecessary ... "
She spoke, rubbing her tears and face with her hands, and when her hands were removed, everything disappeared, all signs of her sadness were erased.
"... that was before I met you ... now I have you and I don't need to be sad anymore."
* Gulp *
A second ago, she was crying and was in despair, and now she is again calm, restrained with a slight blush on her cheeks and with a sweet smile on her lips from which, for some reason, I felt a little madness and fanaticism.
This abrupt change in her mood made me swallow in fright. I've seen a lot in my life, from murder to dismemberment, but this is the first time I've encountered this, and it makes me tense up a little. I, of course, have seen and heard about women who quickly change their character, behavior, and emotions, but so that all together and at once, at the same time so quickly, I have never encountered such a thing. Such her behavior will alert and scare anyone off, no matter how cute she looks.
Ignoring my surprise and tension, she slowly approached, clung to my body, slowly moved her hands, examining me, and then, just as slowly, she began to go around my body, without stopping the touch.
"You, dear, are my light in the dark. For your sake, I will become whoever you want, I will take any form for your hidden "tastes". I will be a beast-man or a creature with a thousand tentacles. Depending on your preferences, I will be a woman or... "
When she finished walking behind me, she stopped on the left side and whispered softly:
'... Or I'll become a man if you like them.'
* Gentle sigh ~ *
The goddess had changed, now she took the form of a man, and, resting his head on my shoulder, he breathed hot breath into my ear, while pressing his naked body against me.
I almost got a heart attack from this, and goosebumps unconsciously ran through my body.
I am not homophobic and have no other disgust, but when you are "straight" and you are so tenderly embraced by another man without clothes, you will definitely feel uncomfortable.
So I quickly said:
"I prefer women."
"Hee-hee ~. I know ~. I just wanted to see the reaction. "
Once again accepting the female version, she slowly walked away from me with a cheerful smile on her lips, purring only in a female tone, at that moment she was in the same dress in which she met me. I didn't even notice when she ended up in it.
Taking a sweet pose, she put her hands behind her back and bent forward a little, and for some unknown reason her hair began to gently develop in the air and, opening her beautiful lips, she said:
"I want…"
* Ding-Ding *
But she was interrupted when she was about to say something, the sound of a bell rang out in space, and again a vibration passed through the white world.
From this, the goddess puffed out her cheeks and said irritably:
"How not on time, I only wanted to spend our first night! Okay, let's get by with a kiss. "
Once near me, she grabbed my head and kissed me. During the kiss, I felt only a gentle touch without original feelings at the time of this process.
After finishing a short, gentle kiss, she pulled away from me, licking her lips.
"It's sad to dwell on this moment, but our time is limited. Ehh. It's time to start the process of rebirth, the third "warning bell" has sounded, and we have very little time left to be together. "
Standing up straight, she assumed a calm air and began to explain:
"As much as I would not want to leave you by my side, I cannot, otherwise I will violate the Code of the Universe, in case of its violation, we will never see each other again. Therefore, you will have to be reborn, but do not miss me, I use workarounds and will sometimes be with you, my dear ~ "
* Smack *
When she finished explaining, she blew a kiss at me in the form of a pink heart, which landed on my lips.
"Hee-hee ..."
Cute covering her lips with her hand, she laughed, and then instantly returned to "business look".
"... The world that you will go to, dear, is not known to me, it could be hell or a world full of pleasure and happiness, so please do not think badly of me."
Her concern and concern were read in her voice.
"Honestly, I don't care where I go, even to hell, even to heaven. The main thing is to be interesting there. "
This was not said to calm her down, I really do not care where I go, even if it is purgatory or a torture chamber, the main thing is that there are things that will interest me. During my short 19 years, I have experienced enough painful and joyful moments, to such an extent that everything bored me, there was a time when I thought about death, but in the end, I began to be interested in nature and its tranquility, I just want to observe the plants and the environment world away from the bustle of the city.
"Once this is sorted out, then let's start giving you abilities."
"Abilities? Something like a system, magic, or superpower? "
I sometimes read similar novels, trying to avoid idiotic ones, so I understand where this is going.
" Almost. Gods can give different powers, those that you named are also there, but each god has a different algorithm for empowering. For example, some gods give systems, others the ability to travel around the worlds, or abilities are given through a lottery. In general, all gods act in different ways, but each god can use one method, there is even a god who gives abilities only after hearing a joke, these are such limitations. So I can give the ability only focusing on the peak of the emotional background of the deceased during his life, that is, I give a random ability depending on the strong emotion in the life of the creature, which is imprinted in the soul and this ability can be weak or strong, regardless of the strength of the emotion itself. As an example, suppose that there is a person, he experienced great happiness, then he lived his life and died, but got here like you, focusing on this happiness, an ability is selected, for example, "Light of Happiness" - this strong ability dispels darkness, both physical and moral, also the owner is more pleasant for everyone, making himself closer to them, attracts good luck, the owner can also calm the undead. This is a very strong ability, but not everyone will be so lucky, another person who has experienced great happiness can get something completely different, he can get the "Merry Song" skill, the user needs to sing a song from the skill, and then several people ten meters away from him will experience happiness within 5 minutes. A weak skill, isn't it? Even worse, the Confident Smile skill just puts a smile on the face, making the wearer look more confident to enemies. "
After hearing the abilities and actions of the last two skills, I could only say one thing:
"Really useless skills."
"Exactly, that's what I'm talking about... But don't worry, you will definitely get lucky honey ~ "
Her statement of support, for some reason, sounded very reliable.
"Since time is limited, I'll start."
She waved her hand lightly and between us, in the air, a row of azure letters appeared in a language unknown to me, which for some reason I understood.
The letters danced in the air until they lined up in intelligible words.
The letters lined up formed the three words: "All-Consuming Cold Fury."
And then, as if resonating with me, the words burst into a blue flame and engulfed me in this flame, when they flew into my body. Being enveloped in a flame of a shade of lapis lazuli, I remembered a long-forgotten moment in my life, which I hated with all my soul.
I remembered the old years of my childhood, I was then only two years old, but I could already understand the world, you can say I was a genius because I learned to speak at 6 months and to walk at 1 year, I also learned to read at 16 months.
But geniuses ... also unlucky ... my mother died a year after my birth from weakening after pregnancy, and my father slowly began to fall into despair from shock, every day sinking deeper into the depths of despair, he became worse and worse but tried to take care of me as a memory, a wife. My father plunged into work trying to forget about sadness, he left me to a neighbor, and he went to work until late at night.
As I remember, at that time I was approximately aware of my father's pain and wanted to help him by doing what a 17-month-old child is capable of. But ... everything was useless, the father lost the last bit of will and began to smoke and drink, began to miss work and, ultimately, was fired.
But alcohol and smoking were not enough for my father to dull the pain. He ... switched to heavier "painkillers", drugs, he spent the last money on this rubbish, plunging into his world, leaving reality.
As time went on, the house turned into a trash can filled with beer bottles and bags of rubbish, there was no money left either, at this time the moment came that turned my life upside down, making it a field of death.
When I was 2 years and 1 month old, I was sold ... yes ... just sold on the black market of the underground world to an unknown man. The last words that I heard from my father are: "Do not forgive me ... I am a bad father ... and I will remain so until the end." Then he turned around and walked away holding a suitcase full of money.
I was put in a black van and taken out of town into the woods to a villa. All the way I sat on the lap of the stranger who bought me and looked out the window with an empty gaze, then I did not cry like an ordinary child and was not hysterical, I just coldly asked myself the questions: "Why?", "For what?". And all this time, in me, something was growing, something strong, unknown, making me hate. Then I realized the first real conscious emotion, it was rage, but I did not know what it was then and did not understand how to react, so I just looked into the tinted glass and thought about my father.
I felt like I was burning from the inside.
So my first emotion in life was rage, after which I became less emotional, and my further life only supported this.
Remembering now, further, when the van arrived at the villa and the moment came when I met my true owner, who was called Aratoni Gret, he was a 31-year-old Spaniard with Mexican roots and developed in an underground business, buying fighters and betting on the underground arena ...
As it turned out, Artoni decided to raise his fighter, at least try, for this he bought ten children from 1 to 5 years of different races and decided to train them for the battle.
Being without the right to refuse, my days were spent in constant training with a trainer (I note that there were no large-scale loads on the children, everything was done normally, without overloading the child's body for healthy growth) and in proper nutrition. It seems that everything sounds good, but Artoni should not be considered an angel, he was a man who always cared about profit. Artoni sought to earn money and always tried to increase his wealth, therefore, he refused from everything that goes to him at a loss. Thus, out of 10 children, only 2 are left, me and another guy.
We were able to meet Artoni's standards, we became fighters who mastered many martial arts on the brink of death, all for the sake of the demands and desires of one person. And then ... we entered the underground arena, then I was only 12 years old and then, for the first time, I beat a man half to death, under the joyful and disgruntled screams of the crowd.
And time passed, without stopping my run, I was constantly in the arena, stuffing Artoni's pocket with "greens", participated in fights for exhaustion against the old masters, beaten beyond recognition. But then there were two of us, and then I was left alone, another guy decided to redeem his life from the clutches of Artoni and secretly from everyone signed up for "Suicide fight" for the sake of large payments, he believed in his strength but forgot about the rule of the underground world "While the enemy busy, hit in the back. " So the guy was stabbed in the heart, due to a fleeting gap in the defense. (Suicide fights are fights without rules, where all types of weapons are allowed, except for firearms, the fight ends only after the death of the opponent.)
After the death of the guy, another turning point in my life began, Artoni was furious, having lost the invested resources so stupidly, he began to spend much more money to increase my strength, he began to hire a whole bunch of combat masters for this, all to take revenge and return the lost money ... He decided to make me a killing machine ... And he succeeded, at the age of 18 I became the one who was feared in the underground arena, the perfect killing machine, bringing Artoni a lot of money.
This was my life.
Yes ... I had a hard life, however, one cannot say that there was only sadness in it, there were also good moments. One of these moments is a lot of freedom of action in your free time. I could freely pursue my hobbies and calmly play games or go to school like ordinary children. You can say that I led the life of an ordinary teenager, well, except for the time when I had to beat people in the arena.
And for this freedom of action, I can thank Artoni, he bought me the things I wanted and enrolled me in school so that I could get knowledge. In this, I am grateful to him.
Of course, Artoni did it for a reason, I know that perfectly well because, in fact, I am his slave. Although looking at what the other slaves of the underground world look like, I cannot be called that.
And in this regard, towards me, it is not Artoni's kindness that plays a role, but his business policy. He is a loyal and ardent follower of equal exchange in business. Artoni believed that if he did not give credit to those who worked for him, then he would have losses. Although his beliefs about an equal exchange also worked on his enemies, and they cried tears of blood.
While the azure flame burned on my body, memories constantly appeared in my head, picture after picture, until they reached the last thing that I saw in my life, as if in slow motion I saw how a metal beam that had come from nowhere flew into me and tore my head off.
To be honest, seeing the last moment of your life and feeling death slowly occurring is creepy, especially when you feel the beam splitting and crushing your skull. Although in reality it was a millisecond of pain and we can say that it was instant death.
The flame slowly began to extinguish and eventually disappeared into my body. I just stood there, frozen, immersed in my thoughts, but until a gentle voice brought me out of this state:
"F-forgive me."
Panic and excitement were clearly read in her voice.
"Forgive? What are you talking about?"
"Well… I didn't support you at such a moment. As I know, a girl should support her man in such situations, but I do not know the feelings of mortals and their significance, for me the feelings of mortals are just a picture that you look at and do not understand the meaning inherent in it. Therefore, I ask you to forgive me, because I could not take care of you. "
She has strange worries, but:
"Pfft. Ha-ha-ha. Do not worry about such trifles, I also do not understand the feelings of people, otherwise, I would not have ended up in the underground arena. "
For some reason, her words made me laugh.
Support? I do not need it. I've been on my own all my life.
Care? What is it? Can it be crumbled by hand?
Groundless delirium, which I do not understand.
Yet the goddess did not give up:
"But…."
"Stop talking about this."
By publishing "Uh." she became like an offended and oppressed kitten.
I understand that it was rude, but it was pointless to continue this topic, everything would have gone into constant goddess apology and my complete ignorance of the topic.
I'm already dead, why would I care about the past?
Should I continue to hate my father? What for? He's already dead. My father got drunk after my sale and died at my mother's grave.
Hate Artoni and the underworld? I admit that Artoni is not a good person and forcibly forced me to train in order to make more money, but I do not hold a grudge against him, because, in the end, he freed me.
And being angry at the underground world is useless because this is a wild world where the weak will be devoured by the strong, there is no black and white, only the desire for profit reigns there, this is savagery that cannot be erased. And as a part of this world of cruelty, I cannot judge it, because, after all, I myself was the one who fought for profit and, in killing, enjoyed it.
Therefore, there is no point in getting angry and venting your rage on others, this is just avoiding your weakness and incompetence.
"Em. Goddess, Eliya, let's continue. "
"Eh? Yes! ... Ahem... Let's continue. "
Returning quickly to a calm state, the goddess said:
"You understand what kind of skill you got?"
"Yes. Although I understood all the techniques from there, can you tell more about this skill? "
"Not yet. Now is not the time. You probably didn't notice, but while you were immersed in memories, another bell rang. And soon you will be moved. And the skill is strong, I can say that with confidence. Hee-hee. "
Approaching me, she stroked my head and, looking at me, said:
"But this skill has one thing that will get in the way, so I broke one rule and gave you an extra skill."
"Eh?"
Quickly moving away from me, before I had time to ask anything, she smiled sweetly and said:
"Honey, I broke the rules and there will be punishment, but don't worry, it won't be serious, I'll just be locked in my world and weakened. And because of a violation of the rule, you will be moved faster than expected. "
As soon as she finished speaking, a gigantic gate of light appeared behind me, which began to pull me in with an unknown force. And before I could say anything, I was pulled inside.
"See you, beloved."
It was the only thing I heard before my consciousness plunged into darkness.
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(POV 3rd person)
When our hero was pulled into the gates of light, silver chains appeared in the white space, as if they squeezed the edges of the world and forged them with a lock.
"Uvv. Nasty laws. As not on time, I so wanted to give Sweet a kiss goodbye. "
Elia puffed out her cheeks in annoyance, but then her expression changed to the excitement with a measure of pleasure.
Hugging herself, her body shook with excitement.
"Ahhh ~ Favorite ~ Favorite ~ Favorite ~…. Even a second of parting drives me crazy. How I want to taste your mouth again. "
A little saliva flowed from the goddess's mouth.
"Just remembering this moment, my body stabs with the desire for your warmth."
Looking into the distance of white space, she spoke to herself.
"Our short time together was great, the several trillion years of waiting was worth it. My "Thread of Love" energy, which I have been saving all my years of existence, has finally given me an ideal lover. Ahhh ~ Sumptuously ~ How thrilling ~ "
The face of the goddess was full of pleasure, and the pink pupils in the shape of a heart seemed to be burning with flame, or rather, they were burning with a flame of passion.
"But the sight of your death saddens me, but this is a price for the sake of our love, but the "threads" chose such a barbaric way for our meeting, although the red color of the dear's insides was also beautiful, the beloved is beautiful even when he is dead and with his head torn off. Uh ~ I miss him already. "
Speaking with emptiness, Elia created a bed and lay down on it, stretching her hand up, she said with a smile:
"It was also a surprise that he would gain such a skill, although I transferred some divinity to boost his luck, such a strong skill was a surprise to me. Eh-. Because of this, I even had to break the rules to give the second skill and remove the negative impact of the first. Uwu. "
Raising her second hand, the goddess connected it to the first, making a heart with her fingers.
"All for the sake of our love, for this I am ready to destroy the entire universe and lose all strength. Only love is important, everything else is insignificant. Darling, we will always be together, our connection is eternal. "
Having finished speaking, the goddess closed her eyes and fell asleep, dreaming of her love.
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So what do you think?
I must say right away that the goddess is not a yandere, she is just a lonely girl who wants love.
I hope you enjoyed it. Thank you for reading.
