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I turn the camera on, all the while staring at the setting sun on a cliff. "What's not to love about changing the world? Hell, I couldn't think of a better reason to do it other than to help." I stood amongst a line of shoes against the cliff, seven pairs, with empty holders. We had one by one disappeared, one by one gone into the dark and never to talk again. "I just wish they could see this, my friends. Wish I could fix the damage I've done, the pain I've wrought on others. For a wise man said "Let the past be the past, only look towards the future and what you can do to brighten not just yourself, but others around you!" And I was like wow, he must really know a lot. And what did you know. He knew a lot." I had finally looked to the ground around me, seeing the shoes with decay and dust coating them like mold would to any product that expires. "I...I'm broken y'all. Writing this story, trying to make all the others. It's not overwhelming, as much as a failure I feel like. This is a message to any who read. That most things I say are spontaneous, the stories I write and the one about my little mind adventures with my amazing friends and me are just crazy. I just really wanted to make a better life for myself in a world I knew didn't truly exist. Not saying that it doesn't exist in our universe, but somewhere we haven't been able to reach for a very long time." I look back to the setting sun, visually seeing it lower under the horizon I call home. "I hope you can forgive me, that I haven't published in months, but I'm trying real hard. My motivation right now is in recovery and my favorite sport: Track! I hope you can really understand, because I feel like I let people down wherever I go. Sometimes I feel my shame staining my feet. Dragging me down to who knows where. For I believe I'm good, and I'm sorry for the oversexualized tension and whatnot in the other stories. I just can't find a reason to make a real story, a legitimate, story. I feel pain every time I think on my mistakes, which I find good. But every time I go deep, deep into my old wounds. I keep finding things I'm unhappy with, because I know I was in the wrong the entire time. I just hope I can give you all the material y'all want, the good material a writer of any type should be able to give. Because I want you to enjoy the book, not get high of it like I do with other writers stories. And I'm sorry for being honest, I just can't hide myself anymore, the pain of being a writer with sexualized content, and never advancing the plot because I can't see it. Can't feel it. I just don't want to fail my fans, my viewers. Who are you, and what I'm grateful for is someone is seeing what I right. But if you don't mind, please message me. Criticize me, constructive that is!" I laugh to myself, my life a mess. "The OCs you see in my stories, at least this one and alternate ones to this one are mine. All made from the spawn of my friends, because I felt like they deserved more, a personality of theirs that showed them as strong, independent, powerful people. For the people in my stories are meant to be Guardians. Showing that I just want to help, and also visualizing the deep pain I bear because I feel failure creeping through me. I'm sorry for ranting on and on, I just had to be open, to someone, if not anyone I feel like I'd break, hurt someone somehow, be mean to a closer friend. That doesn't mean I want to hurt y'all, not one bit. I just want to be helpful, but also needing help to advance myself. Because in the years I've lived, I feel like I'll be lonely forever in that "special" companionship. But I got you, my friends, and whoever else I meet in the future. So please, if you don't think you have helpful information for me. Send a nice summary of my chapter, maybe even tell me if I got heavy Plot-holes. Because I want my stories to be realistic when their based in a set universe with specific rules. I just don't want to make a mistake, and ruin the realism I might be able to give in my books. So thanks for reading, and see ya soon! I hope in my best interest to get to these chapters soon. All my stories as well. For now, take care, stay beautiful, vibrant, and most of all, be a fan of yourself. Support yourself! Don't fall like I did please, because it hurts when you depend on others. Sure it's a good thing, but treat yourself. And now, goodbye..." The camera shuts off, and I vanish with my friends into a world I call my own with them.