11 Chapter 11:

"You're in a foul mood." Sevetha simply says when I remain in control, driving the truck with Getha and Sevetha in the back seat. Valrun caught a ride with the demon and the girls, keeping him calm when it was me who she should be calming.

I was pissed.

I was hurt.

And I hated these feelings. He caused this.

"You want a treat Sevetha?" I growl at her as she rose her hands and looked out the window. Tension filled the car we were in while a car passed by us. My eyes strained against the rainy roads in front of me, making it hard to see that they were behind us.

Not like I really cared.

I'd rather leave them in the dust, but Millie-Mae and her child were inside that car. They were so lucky because I would have stayed at that casino with Claus if it weren't for them. At least Claus was kind and sensitive to me, unlike that bastard Proximo.

Then Proximo had one of his temper tantrums. First, he wants to make me believe that there is something and when I start to believe what he says. He goes back and says that this is nothing! Was this his way of getting off or something?!

Then he gets angry at me for speaking with another man when not even hours before he told me we were nothing! Claus and I didn't even do anything! The most we did was an innocent kiss to the cheek because I respected him enough to!

He was so kind and sweet that I prayed to Freya to change mates! Claus had made the sadness go away even if that was for a few hours.

Then Proximo has the nerve to get angry at me when I am okay with him being around Millie-Mae all the time. Hell, Proximo calls her Millie! Since when did they get to nickname and all the goggly shit?!

I haven't even been offered to call her Millie! I saved her ass from being slaughter by the Valkyries and the vampire! Everyone was after her and her daughter!

What was worse was that they were so nice so it was hard to hate her!

Have they already done it?!

Is this why it's so easy for him to stick his dick in something?!

Is this why he doesn't want anything real now?!

Because Millie-Mae already pleasured him enough so now he's fed up with whatever is between us?!

Was this the gods' way of punishing me for centuries of bad deeds?!

By giving me someone who is supposed to cherish, but in reality, is no better than my father!

At the thought of my father, I slammed on the brakes feeling everything in the car lurch forward including the twins. They braced themselves as another car hit the front of our car, sending us in the opposite direction and off the road.

The motion of the opposite car hitting us, forced me to hit the seat hard enough to knock the wind out of me. I shoved my foot on the brakes trying to control the car in any way, but since it was pouring rain, there was no way to stop the car from tossing into the air.

The road we were on tumbled away when the car flipped over and landed upside down in the small ditch on the side of the road. I yelped at the contact of the steering wheel and my head, feeling my vision blur in an assortment of colors.

It was another minute until the car finally stopped when I shook my head and turned my head to see the twins. Getha was on the roof of the truck, groaning with her arm torn open from a piece of glass that came from the window.

I turned and saw Sevetha still buckled into her seat, her hair covering her face. But from the trail of blood that ran down her left arm, I knew that she was knocked out. Letting gravity take over, I hung from the driver's seat and concentrated on getting my senses back.

"What the fuck, Hrudra?!" Getha shrieked, pushing herself off the ground and unbuckling her passed out sister. I closed my eyes, trying to get my sight back in order while I saw the car we hit stop midway in the road.

The headlights illuminated the truck we were in, making it easier for Getha to check her sister. I heard her trying to wake her up but failed when she growled and cursed my name once again.

Getha caught her sister before she could hit the ground, leaving the car with her sister on her back. I winced at the bruise on my head, knowing it would heal but the lightning brewing above was not going to help. Hopefully, the lightning won't strike the car or else it would explode.

Great.

I let my emotions out of hand.

It's been almost sixteen centuries since that happened, yet it's never been nearly this bad.

"Hrudra!" Proximo tore the driver's door open and knelt down to me. I looked at him with pained eyes as he looked around and nodded. "I'm going to get you out. Just give me a moment." He processed what he was looking at before reaching up and trying to unbuckle me but it was caught by something.

"I don't want you... Fucking touching me." I snarled under my breath, trying to lift my arms but failing. The feeling in my arms felt like lead as he leaned up and let my head rest on his shoulder.

He didn't say anything, snapping the seat belt around me and pulling me from the car. The rain poured around us when he carried me away from the wreckage and back onto the road.

I felt my anger brewing within me as I breathed in to keep it in check. The storm above us darkening and growing louder when I shook my head and snapped my gaze to him.

Fuck this.

"I don't want you touching me!" I scream, getting out of his hold and shoving him away. He stared at me for a long moment as if he was trying to figure me out. "Why did you come?! Did you want to torture me?!" I screamed again, shaking my head with tears filling up in my eyes. "You've achieved your life mission! You fucked up all the chances we ever had!" I swiped at the rain and tears on my face, trying to control my anger.

"You told me we had no chance! You told me that you never wanted to meet me! Never wanted a mate!" He bellowed back, the darkness within his eyes pissing me off more. It was as if he didn't even care.

"That was at first! But you saved me! No one saves Hrudra the cold beast! Those who have has won a place within me and yet you used this to fuck this shit out of me!" I snarl, shoving him hard. He remained on his feet even though I wished he fell as he closed to the distance between us.

"Not like you had a problem with me doing that! You wanted me just as bad as I wanted you!" He roars past the rain, standing his ground.

"I didn't! I wanted you too but you said that this was nothing! Nothing more than casual sex!" I shout.

"You said that yourself! Are you calling yourself a hypocrite?!" He yells back hysterically, waving his hands wildly in the air.

"I thought you would disagree! Give me hope that you felt differently! But no! You wanted nothing but my body! I should send you to the pits of hell!" I scream back, memories of my past life resurfacing.

"I've fought you long enough! I can't be the only one fighting for this mate bond! You need to meet me halfway!" He snaps, grabbing my shoulders and giving me a hard shake. "What do you want?! I can't love you when all you do is hate me! You accuse me of all that I've done, but you're no better than me!" Proximo barks, thundering booming above us when I narrowed my eyes at him.

"You're right. I am a fucked up person. I'm sorry my father raised me this way. I am sorry he was a slaveholder, I am sorry he sold me into slavery, I am sorry that I was raped whe I was younger, and I am dreadfully sorry for killing him. I am so fucking sorry for not believing in love due to what happened at a young age! But I was only taught to survive!" I scream, throwing his hands away from me and feeling my shift come alive.

He stared at me with a mixture of shock and horror, the look I expected making me shake my head and shift into my beast form. The shift has never taken over so rapidly like this yet I couldn't help myself from running from this battle.

I can't face the truth.

"You're right, Proximo. I am sorry for everything. But you are the worst fucking mate to ever live." I confess, feeling the pain of wings breaking through my skin before I flew into the air.

〰 Proximo 〰

It'd been hours since she stood in front of me since the truth of her past was revealed. The Valkyries had dealt with the car accident and wiped the man's mind clean from what he had witnessed with Hrudra.

None of them had bothered me, each of them still shocked about her words from the previous night.

My clothes were still damp from the rain as I felt the warmth of the sun hit my face. I didn't move though, I didn't want to face the fact that I made her get into an accident and that she ran from me.

Now, none of us knew where she was.

"Proximo," Valrun spoke up from behind me, her voice low and soothing. "We need to find a place to sleep. I've already sent the twins after her and they have a satellite phone to contact me once they find her. There's nothing else we can do other than wait." She says in a soft tone when I shook my head and stared down at my hands.

"I can't leave. Not yet." I whisper in a defeated tone, hating myself for the trouble and pain I caused her.

How can I live with myself...?

Valrun sighed, walking away from me and returning to the others while I ran my hands through my hair and struggled to remain stable. The thought of her being out there, alone, cold, injured... It's killing me from within.

My demon won't speak with me until she has returned and I can't even blame him.

I caused all of this to happen because of my selfishness.

I've destroyed all my chances with her.

There was a small thump in front of me as I open my eyes and saw a small form in between my hands. I heard a soft humming when a small stuff animal was thrust in my face forcing me to pull my hands away.

"Jamie always makes me feel better when I feel sad." Rialta says with an innocent smile, smoothing my pain and misery. "You can hold onto her for now! Mommy says you are sad and that you need someone. Maybe Jamie can help you as she helped me!" She giggles with a wide smile making me smile painfully and grab the animal from her.

I stared at the stuffed bear for a long moment, not saying anything while Rialta stood up and grasped me in a tight hug.

"Don't worry! Jamie will help bring the sadness away!" She says in a cheery voice as I hugged her back and held the child as if she was Hrudra.