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"Hey. You MellowSoul? I'm your Uber driver."

"Can you just drive? I had a long day."

Jumped into my Uber ride. Knowing I can't drive due to me reminiscing about how we met till now where we don't even say "Hey, how was your day?" anymore.

It's raining outside. We used to call each other when it's raining to be together till we slept on the phone laughing, smiling, imagining one other sleeping next to each other, venting, finessing and having the best time of our lives.

I miss singing songs and messing up the lyrics in the park where we meet. Our first kiss in the church while Jesus looks at us as we become one energy. Walking down the side with your ice-cream in your hands and I'm talking about how beautiful it is being in a relationship with you. Sitting in the living room while I read you a book, you in my pink hoodie that touched your body more than mine. Miss enjoying the silence while listening to good soulful music. Telling you the dreams I have and had since I was a young poet, the best thing is that I involved you in each and every dream. Seeing you there, not behind me having my back, not in front of me as if you're leading the way but next to me sharing the pain, happiness, peace and love. I felt each and every heartbeat pounding through my chest like a cartoon character when I just smell your perfume on my clothing or looking at you on my lock screen while temptation keeps on calling a married man knowing his place with his wife, his queen. Repeating the memory of you saying to me that you loved me over and over again.

(I smile while I shed a tear)

"Where are you going too?"

"Have you ever been in love and it broke your heart?"

The Uber man looks at me in the rear view mirror seeing the pain in my heart.

"Yes, I have. Recently actually. Something that you're going through but don't lose faith. Have hope. Keep on going. I won't say There's plenty of fish in the sea. In reality there's no more fish, just sharks and craps. All those weird, creepy shit. But when you get your mermaid, hold on tight, hold on right. She might be the one to spark your heart with the light of love."

We might be in a situation that we can't control right now but I need you and you need me. So fuck pride, ego and thinking we know better. I don't mind being vulnerable with you. I want to be happy but with you by my side, I'll be more than joyful. You gave me great memories but I want to make more with you and not anyone else I tried to replace you with.

"Take me to this address."

I'm standing outside your door. The last time I saw your beautiful face, filled with tears in your eyes.

(Knock, knock, knock)

You opened the door. All those memories came rushing through my mind the second I saw you and my eyes were filled with tears ready to run down to the emptiness of my heart one's filled by you. I looked into your eyes. I hugged you just like the way you hug that teddy bear I won for you at the carnival on your Birthday.

"I'm sorry."

-@MellowSoul 🥀