Fatigue

Hard, harsh, heavy.

This world is.

Cruel, sad, disappointing.

These humans are.

Unnecessary, useless, worthless.

This existence is.

I- the one looking outside the window - searching for a place truly calling "home".

The me-who is searching for a place to belong to.

My mind-which seems not to be able to reach my fellows.

All of this. Not more and not less.

That´s all of what I am and all of what I am made off.

That´s me and it´s annoying to live as myself.

Not wishing to trade places with anyone, not wanting to evade any further, not wanting to remain any longer.

Fatigue has gotten hold of me for many years - struggling with me in this world-My fatigue and me.

We are great compulsory comrades-I, getting depressions and fatigue, getting my will to live.

Both take and get. How strong my bond is.

It´s so damn tiring. I´m so sleepy, but who turned off the lights?

Oh well, fatigue has once again rolled over me, yawning and relaxing myself feels actually good.

It´s been a long time since I have been able to actually finally sleep.

But why is it so damn dark here? I´m freezing, so cold. Why is it so damn cold?

NO! I don´t wanna sleep anymore. My fatigue isn´t so strong that I have to sleep.

I don´t wanna! Please, don´t let me sleep.

NO! Why do I get even more tired? Can´t close my eyes! NO, I REFUSE!

I refuse profoundly.

Everything I told was a lie. I am a liar. I admit it so please do not take me with you. It is still too soon. Too early. Too fast.

Please, I beg you. Let me be. Let me be here. Let me live!!!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can´t stop it. It´s too late. I give up.

Just let me rest. I´m too damn tired.

Why? Why do I have to sleep? Why?

Ha, this world is as unfair as always.

OK! I´m ready, please take me.

Wait! I need some time after all.

Wait!!!------- Why you???!!!

How could you??????

Suddenly, I have no energy left. Why? How?

I know, we all know.

I am just soooo cold and sleepy.

Good night.

Fatigue finally has gotten me in the end.

LOL.