1 Poems and Songs

Poem 1

watching as the night draws near

just know I am here. I have not left your side.

So much time has gone by.Your fate is intertwined

with mine and the darkness will soon

be close behind.

Love shines through the darkest of times.

Know that I am always inside your mind.

Know how much time has gone by.

Remember that your never alone.

Remember you always have a home.

Be here frozen in time. Forever be mine.

The souls will be a lined. Remember your soul is

mine. Though my time is done.

Remember the hope is still there.

Remember I am everywhere.

the pain will pass. But the love

will last. Never forget the person you once knew.

Forever be in your heart that will never be gone.

The soul of love will never be undone.

poem 2

As the snow falls on me.

The more my heart grows empty

No one left to help me.

As I hold myself tight to keep warm.

As the cold is getting to me.

Will anyone come save me.

From this loneliness with in my heart.

Or be left here to die in the dark.

Will I forever be alone.

Once my heart has turn cold.

Forever to be alone.

When the heart stopped beating.

Finally be free from this cold world.

Never to be seen.

poem 3

as blood drips from my hands.

Cause no one understands.

The pain that I am going through.

God I am lost with out you.

With no time to wast.

I know I am just a wast of space.

calling for death to come.

God it wont belong.

Until my life is gone.

This body is getting colder.

As my life has grown older.

As much time that has past.

I will not be able to last.

My heart is slowly dying.

I got tried of your lying.

My vision goes dark.

there not much longer

My breathing is shallow.

So this is no tomorrow

Here comes good bye.

Just know its my time.

poem 4

The stairs shine bright in the sky

as my heart slowly dies.

I lost myself and drown in my sorrows

watching as time goes by.

I know I will be soon saying good bye

the time we had i will Charis forever

hopping things will get better.

fading away with my broken heart

I know that is just the start.

Of the pain going though my vain

as my soul is being eaten away.

with no hope for being alive

I may as well die. Cause there is

no more time. Lost everything

in my soul. There is no place to call home

Wandering the darkness with more sorrow.

God let me go tomorrow.

poem 5

telling thing that are true.

Even though they hurt you.

As I lay here crying tonight

I know nothing will be alright.

Cry my soul out knowing I'm to blame.

Soon I will be fading away.

Nothing left to save my soul.

Knowing that I got nothing to hold.

Here the pain is real.

wish I never had to feel.

Be empty inside hoping I will die.

Nothing left to say in my heart

now my hole world has gone dark.

finally free form the pain of my sorrows.

Not going to be here tomorrow.

Now I am gone at last.

as my body is laying in the grass.

Wont be a burden to you any more.

Now my world had been torn.

As I was from the sky.

You forgetting that i have died.

As My soul was left behind.

poem 6

I hide it all be hind a mask.

Has my soul turn in to glass?

Hide the pain and sorrows of my past.

Giving Just a fake smile.

Though the tears will fallow.

At night when your a lone.

Why your soul has turn cold

Knowing I cant trust anyone.

Doubting My own sanity.

Looking my mind day by day.

Everything is just fading away.

Falling deeper in to the shadow

of the night. That when the nightmare

has there hold on you.

Waking up screaming in pain.

Knowing that help will never come.

Along with nothing to lose.

My do i refuse?

Take the fall of nothingness

Just ending the soul

Just when there is no more hope.

poem 7

I lay here crying my heart out.

Knowing that no one cares.That I am here.

But my scream echo through the house.

Everyone just sits on the couch not

moving.Like emotionless dolls.

With out care in the world.

Just suffering alone.With nothing

else to lose.Cut after cut the blade

goes a cross my arm.

Watching the blood drip on to the floor.

Crying trying to relieve the pain in my soul.

Wishing there was still Hope.

Day after day I bleed and hurt more.

Year after year my screams for help

Died down along with my soul,

I have nothing else to hold,

Let my body be drowned in pain.

I knowing every thing will never change.

Wishing the day someone stop me.

Someone to show me that there is

still hope for a life.But there is no one

Left to care. To show the love,Kindness.

They have them self's to blame for what.

They did to me as i lay here dying.

poem 8

Falling deeper to where you can't

See anything but darkness. Shadows

move around you saying things you

can't understand what they say.

Falling forever to nowhere.

Falling in the lost hope you have.

Drowning in your own tears of

sorrow. The heart that is dying will

never beat again.

You lost all senses of what has happen.

You see a blade on your stand that shines

in the moonlight.Picking it up and putting

it to your skin.

Slowly cutting the flesh and blood soon fallows.

As it drips on to the floor.You feel the pain that

comes with each cut.

You had lost your heart to darkness and

soon to be losing your life to the blade you

hold in your hand.

poem 9

You see broken shards

On the floor of whats left

of your soul.

It has fallen to peaces.

Crushed by the ones you

loved and cared about

Pushing you aside not

caring on what happens

to you not caring if you lived

or died by your own hand.

No one there to help you.

No one there to save you.

No one to protect you.

No one there to love you.

They Left you in the darkness.

All a lone with only your thoughts

to keep you company.

No words are said.

As your heart fills with dread.

No hope to come in it again.

Bit by bit it slowly chips away.

Bit by bit it will go away.

Everyone says pain will pass

in do time.

But it was all a lie.

You wish was never born.

You wished that you had died.

the darkness takes hole of every

ones mind.You put it in a shell to

protect whats left of your poor soul.

Deep down you wish things get better.

But they never do.

They just get worsen and darker.

poem 10

I tired of being sad

Tired of being broken inside

What is there left for me

The dark shadows of despair

pull me in more and more.

I feel I am losing my self each day

Death waits before me as i hold this

knife in my hand trying to choice

To end it all and be free from this

Pain that draws me to suffer and

Be more dark then my soul already is.

No one there to save me no one to stop

Me from taking this Knife in to my soul.

I wanted someone to save me.

Someone to stop me.

But no one cares.

No one wants a broken soul

Like mine to be around.

No one cares . No one will cry

Over the grave of someone that

The world forgot.Nothing left to say.

Nothing to do anymore.

So I took the knife and behold.

The Knife goes though my soul like

It was nothing now I lay here bleeding.

with my finale words I cry out in pain.

I am finally free from This land of hate.

poem 11

Night falls but the storm in my soul

rages on. I had no control i have no fate.

nothing left to grab a hold on to, What's left

of this life It must end to night.

The darkness that has turn in to hate

I have done in that past.

No where to go no where to hide.

My sorrow will never leave.

I will never be the same .

I see nothing but darkness

and hate. Nothing will save this day

No one to care.

Fate has ways of changing things.

But not for one who has falling to fair

that is beyond saving.

The shadows are around me.

No one coming, no one cared.

Will there every be light to my darkness.

poem 12

how darkness surrounds one mind

they try to hurt you fill you with doubt

you put your self in a bubble so they cant hurt you.

Shadow hands try to break that bubble

you try so hard to hid what you

know might be true.

That your not strong enough

in this world its be strong or

die with regret of not doing more

The place this world....

nothing can save a soul

no matter how much you try

it just cant be saved.

They are just to far gone

there souls have shattered

There no more Determination left.

It drained from them as there soul loses

its glow. It has stopped the fight with in.

The will to stay alive is gone now.

The hope of wanting more in life.

Will never come true.

That is way things are in humans.

there souls are so fragile yet.

They keep on living.

Whats is left of a beast like you.

One that lived for more then others.

Now turned against humanity.

The shadows draw near and closer.

Wanting you to just suffer.

With a endless night.

poem 13

What Makes us human.

We all make mistakes but others just don't

see it.We all break rules cause there are

just fools. No one talks things out

Why with out about. We are not gods

we are not perfect. Though other's

believe they are better then other.

When its all lies that no one is better

then anyone.There are others that

suffer and are in great pain.

But we all ignore them and go on with out day

Other don't have lives.Cause they cant deny.

Of ones voice of ones words.No one ask nicely.

To though they have hurt.Do they care.

Do they thing that other do though things out

of shear amusement.

Us humans all make mistakes and learn.

others don't cause they chose to be jerks.

The truth of all humans of all of us is.

No one truly cares about others

No one learns from there mistakes

No one ask kindly or talk about what

they have done wrong.

They don't have hearts.

cause they have all gone.

Everyone are forced to do

what others say when.

They can see how hurtful

They cause every day.

There no peaces in this world

No one have hearts to show there

is still hope that they do care.

poem 14

I lost my soul

I lost the will to fight.

I lost wanting to live.

I hear nothing but lies.

no matter how much time.

Has gone by.

My blood has frozen in time.

I am a soulless corps.With

no life and happiness.

I can keep portending that I'm

happy. I can't keep up the will

to hid the tears.

Is this what is means to be broken.

is this the fate I suffer.No one truly cares.

No one wants to let me go on with my life.

All that is life is a empty soul.

That had died long ago.

No where left to hid.

As the scares never die.

I keep wanting to die.

I keep wanting to hid.

I keep seeing my life ending.

Will anyone berry me ones i have

finally take my own life.

Or suffer for the rest of my renaming years.

Just to die and be forgotten.

poem 15

Time after time

all I do is cry and

be broken inside.

Day after Day

I lose my way

is anyone really there.

nothing is going to be okay

nothing going to be there to stop the tears.

not able to find the answer to what I'm looking for.

Letting my self go in to the dark hole of my soul.

Have nothing left to live for nothing to look

foreword to.

Should I just fade away letting the wind carry me

through the night as the dust of who I am be destroyed by

the pain of being hurt by others.

I am nothing but a monster.

A freak that does not belong in this world

Should I just end it all and just be forgotten?

poem 16

I'm not okay its will never be alright

I sit here crying when others think I

am Dummy leaving my heart in peaces.

I am tired of being put down and

Mentally hurt by others who don't give

a shit about me.

Wishing I just die and be a memory of others

who have hurt me and cause me so much pain.

I am tired of living I'm tired of trying of them

Being happy like nothing has fucken happen

let me drown in my tears of sorrow and pain.

Let me die and be forgotten by the ones have

done this to me.

A flower falls and dies on the grave stone of mine.

As i watch this world as a spirit that would be free from

this pain.I dont want to feel any more.I dont want

to have to wear the mask of happiness that is not real.

Let the angel of death take my life and take me somewhere

I can be happy and not have others treat me like I am nothing but

a dum and will help me when i need it. Just end me and let me be free.

poem 17

i am dying inside my heart

bleeds of shame and despair

crying my heart out hurting

myself being more broken

then the heart is drowning

in my broken dreams

never to smile

never to laugh

never be happy

forever to be in despair

feeling the darkness around

me hurting braking down

losing my self in never

ending pain wanting

to die and leave this

life never to be heard

never to be seen

always hid the pain

put on a show to

inter tamed thoughts

around you as your heart

bleeds and bleeds till there is nothing left

poem 18

tired of being the way i am

i try so hard to change

but i get put down for things

I did in past being crushed

by the ones i love and

hurt by them.

my heart breaks cause

of them not trusting me

hurt by the past i had

crush by the pain of

being locked up in

this please i call home

in a prison of being controlled

dying slowly in pain of what i

diverse from everything i have done

wanting to just fade away in to nothing

and have things forgotten and die down

i can never be free never do things

I wish i could do have nothing more then

dream that will never come true. Crying

out the sorrows that i hold in me.

They know they need to let me go but

they dont let me be the one who wants

to be free. I am the dark sheep that does

not belong in this world

a world that i will not be able to take anymore

a world that will beat me down until i die and be

forgotten with nothing to my name

nothing to keep me going anymore

nothing to make me feel i have

more to do. When all i see is darkness

and broken shards of me. I take

the shard of what used to be

the person i once was

now just bleeding out

with fresh broken pieces of

that i was and be crush under

the weight of family and

life. What life do i have?

the life of being in a bird cage

for the remands of my life

now i shatter of the dark of night.

poem 19

slowly give up who you hare

slowly give up its not that hard

give up on the heart

give up on the words

give up on this life

give up on the fight

give up on the tears

be empty inside

no one will care

you have said goodbye

give up knowing no one cares

give up cause no one wants

you their.

give up on dreams that will never come true

give up on the soul that beats in you.

give up on everything you try to do

They have turned on you

song 1

You left me in the dark

left me here to rot

you was never there for me

you destroyed everything

I love and cared

you had broken

the trust I had in you

you left me in the dark

left me here to rot

in the shadows I begin to start

the fight for the life you took from me

I will be the one to win the light

you will be the one that fades away

in to the dark

I will not take no more

No more

you left me in the dark

left me here to rot

left me here to brake away

Never again will it be this way

i will find my own way

to brake free from your shadow

I will brake free from the dark

song 2

hurting drowning in the pain

broken shattered empty inside

crying, erasing everything i am

i am no longer wanted here

no one really cares

crying my eyes out with despair

no one to want you around

you better off not being there

better off dead

drowning in shadows in the world

of madness my heart is

shattering beyond repair

I will just die along with my soul

that has been crush in this world

no one care no one see the pain

that is there Being ignored

being excluded from everything

hurting drowning in the pain

broken shattered empty inside

crying, erasing everything i am

song 3

fighting, crying, bleeding, dying

was it worth the fighting

cheating, stealing, screaming

Things are here to be fearing

hiding, falling, lying

dreams are fading away

we just keep on this

torture's looping path

of despair

you look in the mirror

to see the face of terror

that has haunt you

broke you, chased you

trying to hurt you

you try to escape

the flow of time but

it wont help the

soul that is left behind

fighting, crying, bleeding, dying

was it worth the fighting

burning the anything in your way

crushing the one who hurt you

broken you to shards or glass

fighting on to where you can see

the light of day to be free

from this loop of pain

song 4

There was a time

where we all was free

from the heartache and the pain

the tear that had follow

are still the same

they left you to be forgotten

they broke you beyond repair

nothing left to lose

nothing left to do

but cry your pain

away so you thought

but its never true

the pain will never go

it will always remain

to remind you

you are the one to hate

the time where we was happy

have all gone

now all that is there

Is hell to pay

you lost the heart to remain

in this world of hate

no longer smiling

no reason to go

with the past

but what else can you do

with no one to be there for you

There was a time

where we all was free

from the heartache and the pain

the tear that had follow

with no more dreams

to dream only to have

nightmare that

will never flee

they haunt you

they pray on you

they don't care

the feelings you had share

so why even bother

why even care

about the broken heart

that is there

left to die

left to hide

no one to save

nothing to gain

lost all hope

lost all faith

in yourself

no one care

no one is there

you are left

a lone to stare

in to darkness

that you can't bear

There was a time where

we all was happy

and had cared