1 Chapter 1: The Day Where I Die

it was a good morning so i sit up from my bed and yawn i look at the curtain covering the window for a while then i proceed to open them up to greet the sunshine it was pretty refreshing if i must say

i look outside to see the beautiful view of Tokyo from my hospital bed i was hospitalized for about 6 months now i was placed in a private room beside a window im pretty much alone to be honest

except when the nurse and the doctors came and check my condition...to be honest i cant even walk im bedridden i know it sucks but my parents got it worse they always cry and begged the doctors for my health

i know im the one who's suffering and the one who felt most of the pain from this goddamn sickness but my heart always broke when i see my mother and father crying hopelessly and pray for my recovery and my big brother too he worked hard to pay my hospital bills

and take care of me when mom and dad is busy...why do i have to suffer this? why am i the one who must suffer this? it's already 2020 but they still dont have a cure for the deseases

i just sighed and look once more outside to see the amazing view outside until....i felt a pain in my heart...an UNBEARABLE PAIN!!!! it hurts so much that i couldnt scream i struggled so hard to reach the emergency button *BEEP* He-Help...It hurts...*COUGH* *COUGH* URGH!!!

it was so painful that i wanted to die so bad just to end the pain i want to scream to relieve it out but i couldnt i want to rip myself apart so that the pain will end but i couldnt move

it hurts so much to the point i blacked out and went unconscious

when i wake up i couldnt open my eyes i couldnt move and i couldnt speak a single thing but i can hear....i can hear the doctor and my parents with my big brother talking

"im so sorry Mr. and Mrs.Okami but we did our best but it's no use she is destined to die and to suffer but it is up to all of you whether you let her suffer or let her take her final rest" the doctor said i can hear my mother started crying and so did my father "bu-but she...she still can l-live a long life right? right??" my brother asked desperately "yes she can but the longer she live the more painful and the more she will suffer from her sickness" the doctor said bitterly"..."my big brother said nothing but i can hear him sobs

suddenly i felt my body can move so i slowly open my eyes and blinked a few times to regain my eyesight and then i looked where my family and the doctor was

my family was suprised ofcourse so they quickly come and sit beside my bed...they were crying my mother held my hand to her cheeks and cry my father is trying his best to hold back his tears and smile while my brother is facing the floor and crying quietly....It...It was truly heartbreaking seeing how they try their best to make my sickness go away but couldnt

i want to stop them from crying buty throat were so dry that i couldnt speak even if i wanted to i wantbto cry but i couldnt brcause it will only break their heart all i could do is to listen and look at them helplessly

"im...im..im so sorry my baby girl mommy failed you i...i cant even..." my mother couldnt even finish what she was saying because she broke down immidiately "We will always love you alright? remember that okay?" my father said with a fake smile on his face you can literaly see that he's trying his best to hold back tears

"My princess im sorry your big brother isnt good enough for you" my brother said while sobbing it broke my heart hearing all those words i want to speak when it happen...again...my eyelids widen from the pain i was feeling i put my hands in my chest and pinch it i cant breath properly my eyes started tearing up while its only focused on the ceiling

"DOCTORS HELP HELP MY DAUGHTER!" thats the only thing ive heard before the doctors and the nurses came into my room...i want to listen to what their saying but i couldnt understand a thing its like a mummble the only thing ive recognized "shes going to" i didnt heard what the next phrase is

but that thought goes away the moment i felt my body numb and my conciousness was fading i cant breath its suffocating...is this the doctors meant? that im going to...die? what about my family? they are going to be sad if they hear that im dead i still want to live i dont want to fade into nothingness but is this really the day where i die? is this really it? that thought was gone the moment my eyes shut