50 Interlude - An ocean of clouds?

Please don't do this alone! Seria, it's stupid to fight a council member one on one!" Lada preaches to me. 

I am sitting on the highest peak of the biggest mountain. I like this nameless world, there is always snow here. "It's really not a big problem Lada. It will turn out good. I promise. Besides, what would you want to do if you were there? Fight him with me?" 

"I could at least protect you!" Lada looks at me with an angry face. 

"If he gets away and tells the rest of the Council about you, you will be in deep shit Lada. I don't want that. I need you where you are now. You will be able to do much more from inside the Council. Though I never thought that I would get a trump-card like you. 

I think my plan would work without you, but you can reduce the resulting destruction by a great deal." The wind blows nicely up here. And the sky is so wonderful blue. 

"The council isn't what it was any more. We... at least I had something else in mind when it was founded." Lada looks sadly at the ground while she is floating beside me. 

"I couldn't tell you everything Lada, but I promise I planned everything. I did this for so long, I actually don't even remember when I started this. If I am truthful, I was always afraid to go from preparations to the actual execution." I smile at her. 

"If Tjenemit wouldn't have acted, I would have continued for another eternity. It doesn't matter any more if I win this fight or lose it. This is out of my control since long ago, like I said." I stand up and take a look around. The view is wonderful, though there are just clouds to see. Kukuku it's an ocean of clouds. Kind of cool. 

Lada grabs my shoulder. "That sounds like you actually expect to die!" 

"Bwahaha! Don't be ridiculous. Of course I would prefer it if I don't die. But it will be a fight between gods and one of us will die. All I am saying is that my plan will go on without me. You just need to play the nice little Council member. Harmony and peace for everyone. And when my friends come and knock on the Council's door, you will have to decide if they are better than the Council or not." I pinch her cheek. "Smile a little more, that grim expression doesn't fit you." 

"I searched all the records and I actually know how many gods, angels, demons, half-gods and so on you hid from the council. I don't know how you did it, because Amaru's Sphere of Sight can detect any divinity within the multiverse. 

But I know that it will be really a gamble to unleash them all at once. 

Who knows how many more you found without any record of it? We just know of those you got your hands on during the hunts. Who ever said that you didn't find many more who were just on the brink of turning into gods? You obviously have a little more knowledge and power than the Council in some areas." -Lada 

"Oh, it seems I really can't hide it all from you. But that's fine." -Me 

"Just tell me, is it really worth it?" Lada asks me with a serious face. 

I turn silent and think about my answer. "You know..... when I came out of the void, it felt like I was dead. I always had ideals and a conviction to keep me going. I think during that time in the void some of my feelings died and I became a little like a machine. I came out and found the Council. 

You guys were against the freedom I always believed in. So I started my plan. But it wasn't out of passion or hate. I just did it because I thought it is my duty. Then over time I talked to the other older gods and I found out that they are dead. Not in a physical sense but in a more spiritual one. 

They lived so long, too long and lost their feelings. The same happened to me, though I realised that I still had some. I am surprised that you aren't like them, though you are pretty old too." 

"I was always the emotional type." Lada smiles at me. 

I continue, "... however. Then I talked to some of the younger gods and I realised that they still had life in them! They weren't so far removed from the cycle of life and death. 

They still have power and passion, but they are suppressed by the old ones. I thought to myself, if we old ones were allowed to die, wouldn't we be able to get our life back? So I took a little vacation and tried to live a life again. It wasn't long. Just fifty or sixty years I think." 

"You reincarnated? How? The Council should have noticed!" Lada stares at me with big eyes. 

"I hid myself during that time. The same way I am hiding the other gods. Well, I lived a nice little life. I had parents again and could play my pranks on them. Can you imagine that?" I grin at her. 

"I feel bad for your parents..." -Lada 

"Well, that's when I decided that my actions are the right ones. I think every god should be allowed to return to the cycle of life and death if he or she wishes for it. Actually I believe it's the natural order of things. 

Think about it! A soul continues the circle until it becomes strong enough to ascend to godhood. And with it the circle just ends! Are we really supposed to endlessly walk into the same direction from that point onwards? 

Or is it just a chance to explore the multiverse and yourself until you become bored of it and decide to return to the circle as a new soul? I like my view much better than the Council's if you ask me." 

Lada smiles wryly at me. "The problem with it is that a god has to return to the flow out of his own free will. Otherwise he would just be reborn as a god. When the ancient war ended, we had much too many foes, who would have continued to fight. We had no other choice than to seal them and to forbid everyone else from reincarnating. 

If everyone would reincarnate, we wouldn't be able to find the new gods with the Sphere of Sight any more. The old gods who are reincarnating would appear as new gods and we would loose track of everything." 

I nod. "I think I found a better solution. It will be okay Lada. I am sure of it." 

Suddenly I feel something rip the space, which belonged only to me for such a long time and flinch. 

"Is everything ok?" -Lada 

"It is. The dice are finally falling. I have to go now. And you should be at that Council chair and put on an innocent smile." I hug Lada and step onto a path which leads me to a familiar place. 

I almost don't hear the weak "Goodbye." from Lada.