the person I loved

no, im not 18 or above, I'm gonna turn 15 this april. but according to me, ages does not matter for falling in love. you know what? when we're kids and we fall in love with someone, that's love but when we grow up, we find money, comfort and lots of things which we won't be finding when we're kids, to love someone. also, I had a bestfriend, Arka. he was 2years older than me. but still we're closer than ever. time passed, and you know what? 2nd love is stronger than the first. he was my second love. i was 13 and because of some problems, I was sad and he cared, he kept asking me what happened and made me laugh at the last. I realised I loved him. my password was his birth date 2608( 26/08/02). he knew that my password was my crush's birthday but never knew who was my crush.. it was 8th of April, and he saw my password, it's my birthday tho, but he didn't tell me about it.. after 1month and 8 days, it was 16th of may, 2018, he said, he knows my password. he asked me if I loved him, I said yes, I have feelings for you, I was scared, I cried, like everything is falling apart, like I'm losing everything but no, he said yes, he said he loves me, I was happy I was speechless and I loved him unconditionally!! it was a real cheesy relationship huh, I never liked late night chats, but I was awaked just to talk to him, it was 3:35 AM but we're still talking. first monthsary, second monthsary and boom! he said that a girl from her school likes him,one week later he said she proposed him but he rejected and one more week later, he said she's his bestfriend. it made me tensed, like he never was that close to me while taking pictures as he was with her, I was jealous, I was sad but no, I've hidden all of my pain, I had fear to lose him, I stopped.. I remember his lips when it touched my cheeks softy and I got goosebumps like I've never had before. I still Remember the touch of his hand and the warmth of his hugs, and the cheeks that I used to kiss. we enjoyed every moment when we're together but, everything stopped one day.. one day he told me that he wants to say something and told me not to get depressed or sad.. he said, it was just an infatuation, it wasn't love, he realised he loves someone else, *CAN WE BE JUST FRIENDS?* I was broken, I had nothing to say, I felt like someone took my everything away from me, I've lost my very own thing and now I'm just a lost kid who has no way to even move. I asked him, why, when, who, what, why again? everything is dizzy to me, that girl never proposed him, he looks to be depressed now, I don't understand if he ever loved me or still loves me or anything but I don't give a fuck, I just only know that I, I, loved him, I love him and i will love him till the day I die as I said on the first day of our relationship, he was my everything, he is my everything and he will remain, I know he does not give a fuck, he do not loves me, I'm no one to him but he's my everything, i will love him for ever but, I would never go back to him cause the person who leaves you for someone else, just say to them, FUCK YOU

------- YOUR TRUE UNCONDITIONAL LOVER, NEMO