Is it call love?

I woke up that morning in tears. I was feeling ambivalent, I was happy and broken. So many feelings in one heart that I can't express to anyone. I can't even express them to myself. I can only express them to him. I'm Heather 18 years old high school student and this isn't some shitty normal high school love story, It's the story about how a person can change your life.

I was sitting alone in the classroom after everyone left, looking outside the window. My dad became and alcoholic after mom died a month ago. I didn't liked to go home, seeing dad depressed and drinking. I prefer to be alone I miss mom too and I know for a fact that dad misses her more when he sees me. I was in my thoughts when i first saw him. Brown hair, blue eyes, smile on his face. I thought he was cute but he changed my opinion in 00000.1 sec, He insulted the girl who came up to him to confess her love. He thinks that he's the main character of a movie. I thought to myself, I hate such types of guys. I packed my stuff and decided to go to park. When I go to park I relive my childhood, I think about how mom brought me here whenever I cried or how we spent time here laughing and playing. And now look at me sitting alone on a swing mom would not be proud of this. "Hey!" I heard a voice as I was about to cry. "You are in my school, right!?" I looked up and there he was Mr. Playboy "and how am I suppose to know which school you go to?" I answered in a rude tone probably because I don't like him. "No, I saw you walking out of the class" He said "So, you decided to stalk me!?" I said. "Okay, Don't be so rude Ms. Bitch!" He said in a high pitched voice "I have a name fyi it's HEATHER! Mr. Playboy" , "I have a name too ,HARRY!". Then the moment came when we both started hating each other. "Yeah harry spelled as Mr. playboy!". Omg I can't believe I could hate someone this much! I came here to return your stupid diary you dropped and you, You're such a bitch!. He left after saying this. Did I overreacted? Maybe I'm wrong, He didn't do anything. I will apologize tomorrow. Or i thought so.

Next day, He was standing in the hallway. I should go and apologize to him right now. I went up to him and he was taking to his friend. He smirked and said "Good morning, Ms. Bitch". Believe me when I say I really controlled myself from punching him in front of the whole school. "Let me introduce you to my friend, Mark this is Ms. bitch!" He said pretty confidently. "Hey mark what are you doing with Mr. Playboy" I smiled and said. That was my moment. "Anyway why are you here?" He asked "I wanted to apologize for yesterday!". "Every girl regrets distancing them self from me!". I slapped him. I did, he really was the person I thought he was. "I don't mind distancing myself from a crap bag like you, it will be better for me anyways" . The thing that pissed me off so much was that this guy was smiling he was freaking smiling!. I left before I would slap him again.

Mark- Harry I never saw that type of smile on your face, especially after getting slapped by a girl.

Harry- She's different. I hate her. Let's play this game, dear heather.

I knew I didn't do the right thing, slapping someone in from of everyone is not something anyone would like but he lowkey deserves that he already should've seen it coming. I will never talk to that guy again. And in the next period I got paired with him for history project.

I was sitting on my desk thinking what did I do to deserve an Harry came up to me and said "In the end you came to me", I wanted to punch him once again but I controlled myself an answered ''Technically you came to me you rascal. I wouldn't do the project if it wasn't worth 20% of our final grade. So stay out of my way let me do it alone". "Woah woah woah I'm your partner you can't leave me alone!" , "Fine then don't ruin the project" I answered and left the class.

I've always wondered what it feels like to be love. To be honest I've never been loved by my parents. My mom and dad always were busy in working , it's not there fault they just anted me to have a good life but somewhere down that road they forgot that the most important thing I need is love. Although I never said anything to them they wanted best for me. But now everything became even more darker and I just wish that someday I will experience the feeling of love. Just then I heard his voice, "So what is the topic for our project?" I turned around and saw Harry this time I saw him differently, His hand was behind is head kind of shy pose. His blue eyes stared at the ground his brown hair swinging by the wind, His voice was deep yet sweet. "Hey I'm talking to you, geez at least don't ignore me." He said, "I'm sorry I'm just not in the mood to talk right now" I said and turned around to walk back home, He suddenly grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to him.

"It'll be much harder to stay away from me, You're gonna have to try harder then this Ms. Heather." I heard this and my heart stopped beating for a second, so many new things happening at once. I've never been touched by a guy, never been so close to a guy, no one ever flirted with me. "What, now you love me or something?" He smiled and said. I pushed myself away from him "listen you brat I don't like this! don't you dare do this again" I said rudely. "Geez calm down, I was kidding! don't take everything so seriously!.". He's right, for the first time but he's right. I always tend to make things bigger and more complicated. I wish I wasn't like this. "It's okay I'll accept you as who you are!" I literally screamed "Wait, what!?" "As my project partner of course!" He said, "girls like you aren't my type" , "Well boys like you aren't any ones type". We stared at each other for a second with serious face and then started laughing.

Maybe that was the moment when it all started.