9 Chapter seven

Pearl's p.o.v

Few days after Jeff left my house, I went through the topics we did when a thought of him came to my mind.

**flashback***

"What else are we going to do after we are done studying?". He asked as I paid no attention to him, flipping the pages of the book.

After moments of silence, I decided to tease him a little. "What do you mean 'what else'? you're going to your mother's house of course". I knew how shocked he was but I find it really fun teasing him.

**reality**

I really do want him to spend time with me. I could use a little company but I just don't want to keep him to myself. He's been taking care of me for few weeks now. I don't want to be a burden to him. When he told me he has a girl he is meeting tomorrow, I felt a string of jealousy arising from the deepest part of my heart but who am I to feel jealous. I don't even have feelings for him and even if I think I do, I don't think he feels the same way for me. He sees me as a sister who is going through a tough time and he just wants to be available.

That's all I'll ever be to him - a sister.

I sighed at the thought of it, making me remember my parents. I couldn't take away their pictures so I stared at it and got lost in my thoughts.

***flashback***

"Sweetheart, I can feel it that our daughter will be the best psychologist ever in the whole universe". My dad said as mom smiled, holding a fruit jar in her hand.

"Dad". I said I stopped my research on my laptop, facing my family. "That's so not true. There alot of psychologist out there that are contesting to be the best and I don't think I can beat them on that". I said with a frown on my face. I wasn't really lying. There are students that goes to big schools and the learn from the best but all I do is get home schooled by myself. How am I suppose to achieve the best when I'm not learning from anyone?

It seems my parents got the picture because they didn't say a single word. "Pearl come here". My mom gestured as I went to join her and dad, sitting on her lap. "Listen, I believe that one day you'll get to go to a very big school and you'll learn from the best but since you don't have that opportunity right now, you might in the future but you have to prepare yourself first and that is by studying here at home". Mom said and she's right. Although I can't go to big school now, I can equip myself with every knowledge I can gather. I gave her a big hug as she gave me hope to carry on.

***reality***

"Mom, dad, you both were right....I did get the opportunity to go to a big school and a very big school at that. How i wish...". I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. "...How I wish you both were here with me".

"Boo!!!". I heard a voice yell as I almost stumbled.

"Oh my God! Jeff, you really scared me". I said, turning to see it was Jeff who almost made my heart fly out of my mouth.

Jeff chuckled as he pecked my cheek. "Didn't you know I was coming over?". he asked as I shrugged.

"You went MIA for three days so how was I supposed to know you'd be coming over today?? I'm sure you had lots of fun with her that you lost track of time I guess". I said folding my arms as he smiled, getting a chair and sitting right in front of me.

"Don't tell me you're jealous?". He asked as I gave a sarcastic laugh.

"What? me?? jealous? of you??". I said in between laughs, but Jeff was giving me a dissatisfied look as he studied me.

"Come on Pearl, I know you and trust me I know when you're lying". He said as I bit my fingernail. "When you're lying, you start laughing like you just did and to sum it up, you start biting your nails like you are now" he said making me look at the finger I was chewing.

Fine he caught me alright. Maybe I am a little bit jealous...just a little bit.

"well, what do you intend doing with the information?". I said grabbing a seat as I sat facing him with full focus, my eyes not leaving is.

"Nothing...maybe tease you about it in school??? it would be really fun". he said laughing.

I just sat there, staring at him as he enjoys himself mocking me. I could see how handsome he looks. The way his hair covers a little portion of his eyes. The way his nose is pointed and his v-shaped pink lips, what's not to love about this boy? I thought.

Jefferson's p.o.v

I saw how intense Pearl's eyes were burning into mine. How she stared at my hair to my lips. I can't imagine what kind of thought must be going through her mind.

"Hello o..down to earth Pearl". I said as I waved my hand in front of her but she was definitely lost in whatever planet she's in.

I decided it would be fun to do something so I moved closer to her and kissed her lips, making her jump out of her seat. The look on her face was so hilarious that I couldn't stop laughing.

"What did you do that for?" she asked touching her lips.

"Come on, you look like the princess who has been asleep for so many years and needs the kiss of the prince to wake you up. I had no choice sweetheart". I said still laughing but she just stood there, sad, holding her lips. "Why are you aren't like it's your first kiss?". I asked and she still kept quiet. That could only mean one thing; it's her first kiss.

I really didn't know what to say I just sat there waiting for her to say something but she still kept quiet. " Listen Pearl, I'm sorry I didn't mean to". I apologized because honestly I didn't mean.

"You can't just steal kisses from people like that Jeff it's wrong". She said as she ran to her room and I just sat down there looking like I was having a hard time processing everything that just happened.

I don't know why I love messing things up with Pearl, I don't know why. How exactly am I supposed to deal with this?? I asked myself as I decided to go to her room and apologize.

"Pearl, open the door". I said as I knocked.

"Leave me alone Jeff... everything is fun to you....messing people's head... people's feelings. I don't even understand you anymore". she said and I could tell from the sound of her voice that she has been crying.

"Well, if you open the door, I promise to explain things to you".

"How sure am I you won't just come and steal more kisses?" she asked as I smiled.

"I won't" only if you want I said as she opened the door, gesturing me in.

"Well, I'm listening". she said as she sat down on her bed.

I sat down next to her on her bed as I took hold of her hand. "The truth is Pearl...I..." just then, my phone rang, making me stop the words I was about to say. It was a call from mom. I looked at Pearl and she shrugged.

I went downstairs to pick up the call."Hello mom".

After few minutes of conversing with my mom, I knew my mom needed me at home but what am I to do with my feelings.

I looked at her room and sent her a text that I'll come see her tonight. Thankfully she replied yes. I ran out of the house to meet my mom.