1 Cheese cake

It not something every fifteen year old girl wanted to think about, it not something I chose and it definitely not something I dreamt of. I was three when it first started, my dad came in to my room, drunk like normal, thinking I was asleep. He would slip then to the side and touch the outer shell of my innocent life, the life where I didn't fear the next night, I would lay there quit and I wouldn't say a single word, make a slight movement. I just wanted it to stop, but it just continued.

When I turn five he started waking me up, he would slide them down to my ankles, separate my legs and slip his fingers in to the hole, slipping it in and out, no matter how much it hurt and how bad I scream, no one came to help, and after he would tell me if I tell he would only make it worse.

My tenth birthday he took my innocents away, he began by kissing in between the gate of safety, then he slide his pant down and force it in me, I scream more and cry, but he only went hard and hard.

My thirteenth birthday he had his friend take turns and that is when I had enough I ran down stairs to my mother in the kitchen and cry to her, all she could do is yell,"You dumb bitch, you think I didn't know my husband snuck off to your room and pleased you while I waited for his attention you stole my husband, and expect me to care, get out or take it!"

The world I knew was a lie, my mother who loved me hated me and blamed me for evrything, and I was so young and I didn't even understand.

I stand that try to clear my thoughts, look at the cheese cake through the window of the local baker, holding my stomach, I havnt had cheese cake in two years, before I ran away to my older brother house and he took me away from that life.

"Lilly, Lilly, Lilith Rose Marcran," My Brother and his Wife Suesan holler, to get me to tag along. I turn my head and smile, as I run to catch up to them.

"What was it you was so interested in Lilly,"Suesan question.

"Oh, uh nothing, just the cheese cake in the case,"I answer try to hide the though of my past.

"I see, why don't i ask your uncle, if we can get it for you, it is your birthday and you Therapist says we should try celebrating this year."

"I mean if you want, I just don't want you guys wasting your money on a day that just, is scaring."

" Lilly, you know you should have never gone through that and your birthday is not about that it about cherishing you. Please let me try and give you better memory."

"I already said we can try it just hard."

"I know hun, I know."