Hello Torture, My Old Friend. 《1》

Blowing fan, "semi-bright" ambience, it's not the coldest compared to around 3 am. "Urgh..." I groaned to the pillow. I realized that I was actually conscious again just a tad bit too early. Then I rolled my body till I was facing the ceiling.

Then I heard the next room's door screech "Urgh..." I groaned then I closed my eyes again. "Aunt's gonna turn the lights on." "Flick!" I heard as the ambience turned really bright since both of our rooms are connected with an exhaust fan pointing towards me and the light went through its fans. "Then Aunt's gonna turn the AC off." I thought. "Beep" I heard as the AC next door was turned off and it started getting warmer and warmer.

"Then she'll come in here and turn the lights on." I said then turned back from the ceiling and onto the pillow, face first. Sighing. "Another day. Another story." I thought. Then I just waited for Aunt to wake me up. Then screech went the door. "Nathan! Wake up and take a bath!" Aunt said.

Then I get up and covered my left hand inmediately with the blanket and started to put my slippers on then Aunt went out. Then I stood up and took the towel behind my door and hanged it around my left arm and went straight towards the bathroom.

As I opened the door, I immediately hung my towel behind the door and took off my clothes and turned the shower on. I love showering. It gives me a lot of time to think about what I did, what others do, what I need to do, what others need to do, and to just explore the deep corners in my mind.

I stepped in and let out a groan. "Urgh..." I said as I felt the coldness of the water penetrate to my soul in a good way. Yes, the water is cold because we don't use heaters. "Hello, we meet again my old friend." I thought to myself as the drops ran down from my head to my face, neck, shoulders, body until it reach the ends of my toes. "Just what I need the most." I said.

Then I took a moment to just stand there and think about the worlds in my mind as the cold water embraced my body. Then I could feel that my soul was just relaxing and my mind roamed around me. I was slowly falling into the paradise I own.

Then there I was, in the world I own, I rule, by myself without no one else. Well, my "world" is basically just a world filled with so much "colors" and by that I mean like emotions.

I like to think about it like sort of a painting, where different colors are present that represent different emotions.

So I was there, alone. In the middle of complete silence, I was the only one that can be heard. "Nice to see you again." A said as I stood up from a kneeling position and went straight up to my Tree of Thoughts that was on top of the hill that was in front me.

My Tree of Thoughts is basically my food source, like literally. Well, in this world it is. Whenever I go here, I start out starving but whenever I go under the Tree of Thoughts and starting roaming the caves in my mind, I get fuller and fuller.

So there I was, under the tree, sitting down and just ran my fingers through the colorful grass that brushes through. I stared into the sun and and put my hand above my eyes and I just played with its silhouette. "Hmmm..." I said as I changed into a more comfortable sitting position amd put my hand down. "I wonder if they studied for the exam, I mean I didn't." I said. The first exam day was actually today. But that's me, the "chill" man when it comes to exams. And by chill I mean the "no-study" man.

Though the fourth quarter has really been tough on me, actually also the third, but I don't know how I ended up being an honor student in the class. In the first grading, I got the same average as the top 1, and in the second grading, I dropped to the 2nd spot and 4th in the third.

"I'm falling apart and I know that" I said to myself as I looked at the scars on my left wrist that I wounded. Then an apple fell down. "What is it this time?" I said as I smiled and grabbed it afterwards, I took a bite. I looked at its inside and then letters started to appear one by one.

"But is this what she really would have wanted?"

It read. Then I put the apple down along with my hand on the grass and let out a sigh. "I know that she wouldn't like this and I really try to stop myself but it's been tough recently, I guess?" I said to myself. But deep inside I thought "Does that matter? She's gone anyways, she won't see this." Then this time, an orange fell.

I peeled it and started eating the orange but as I finished it, I couldn't see any letters or marks or symbols. Then I felt confused and scared for a second. "Where did you put it?!" I said to the tree as I searched around me. Afterwards, I felt something hit my head that bounced on my lap. A grape. I quickly took a bite and found a message.

"Dumbo, you didn't even check the peel." It read through letters so small.

I hurriedly stood up and took the orange peel and read the message.

"Stop thinking so negative and stop spoiling yourself. Why do you think you're falling apart?" It read.

And then it hit me, not a thought but a pear. "Thud!" the pear made a sound "Ah!" I said from pain right after. Then I felt light headed so I laid on the grass. I saw a pear broken into 2 halves with the other one saying

"Wake up."

Then I could feel my soul spiraling into a world of torture but no worries, just a normal playground for me.