30 How to wake up

So this gets me to where I am today. Used and abused because I made a choice of a wrong guy. Through out time women are abused. Even in these days it's not a lot better, guys learned how to get out of responsibility and how to put the work load onto there counter parts. We should be equals but even to the Dawn of time god would punish women for not listening. I am not talking about Eve. that's another story. I am talking about Lilith, the first woman god created, she was made of the same things as Adam, but she would not lie beneath Adam and God banished her and that's when he made Eve. But nobody but old Jewish religion talks about it.

Why can't I just have the same rights as a man?

All the thoughts and memories came pouring in. I wish I were gone so I wouldn't have to feel all this over and over again.

And that's when he appeared I looked still like Allis, but I didn't feel like her much after all the memories. My mind felt different then my head and I was trapped in my mind. He grabbed onto me and sat me down in a chair and then pulled up one infront of me. So is Steven worth it?

Unless you came to sell to me, wiping me out of existence then you still have nothing I want.

What if I can get you out of the curse and let you live your life with Steven, even have children with him and I'll deal with my son and you all can be happy, then you can join my collection.

I rolled my eyes and said kill me now.

He smirked, I can do that but you'll just start all over again.

I don't care, do it for all I care. I don't want to be a token, item to collect, I don't want to be another woman to be used and abused. I want to be an equal. You guys have no problem using women throughout time.

That's where your wrong.

Excuse you?

I am excused. Us "guys" use everyone, guys just deal with it a different way. I have a male in the harem you should talk to.

Oh great someone's bitch boy.

You are a very angry person now.

I am not a person I am a being.

What ever you are, you are angry and from this rage is where most of your powers are coming out of. Your not using any of the powers you need to get out of this but the one, I am not here to teach you, or tell you about any this, I am trying to get you before you break, because that would be such a waste. your like an angry scared animal in a cage, all you know is anger, fear, confusion Doomed to repeat itself over and over. Why don't you try to find a way out instead of just biting anyone who comes to the cage.

Why would you help me with this?

I didn't help, all I did was give you a different point of view.

I didn't get where I am by having a penis, though it can be useful sometimes, I did it through my power, and cunning, deceitful, and other things as well, you can't be the nice person when you climb to the top. Women tend to notice and care more then us "men" it's why it easy for women to be taken advantage of.

I have to stop caring to get where I want to be?

maybe? it's what I had to do.

Please leave, I want time to myself to think.

He gave a smile and leaned in, my words aren't free, nor is my time he grinned as hard as he could.

I didn't ask for it, you just showed up.

But you went on to ask me, you owe me. You can pay me now, or I'll take it later he winked.

I am not sleeping with you!

He frowned I didn't want to have you in sex, that's another time, all I require Is a kiss and I'll leave you alone.

This doesn't sound right.

Just a kiss he smirked.

He started to lean in.

I can't ! I just can't!

and before I could protest any more his lips were on mine, my eyes widen and the everything started to turn bright.... what trick is this.

I gasped under his lips and woke up with all the lights in room blaring on me. Steven's head laid right next to my hand.

He got me outta this dream? no! I needed more time to figure out my past, that bastard!

But my heart went soft when I saw Steven. the man had always had a goatee but now it was a full-blown beard. his hair was long curly and messy, if I didn't seem his frame id think I was looking at a cave woman, his hair was long.

they have tubes all over, I started to pull them out gently but to be honest even being gentle hurt. I cough a little and with a croaky voice I said should a manager really look like a homeless dude?

Steven lifted his head in shock, tears started to run down his face.

I laid there stunned it was just a joke, you don't need to cry over it.

He shouted doctor! nurses! please someone she's awake! he grabbed onto me and held me tight.

Things didn't feel right though. I didn't feel like me.