7 Chapter Seven: New Face (Phase)

Dark. It was dark.

Too dark for me to handle.

My breathing sped up and my heartbeat raced with anxiety.

The aura of everything around me was mixed with a certain feeling of need.

I didn't know what feeling this was...

… But it felt familiar to me, like I'd been through this chaos before.

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(Kim Yeol's P.O.V)

Min Jinu, I am so glad that you survived, I really am. I miss you so much.

I want to be in your arms. I want to cuddle with you. I want you to come back to me.

I want you, Min Jinu.

I didn't care if I sounded crazy, because he meant so much to me and made my life colorful once again. He was my everything.

"You know what- Jinu, you remind me of my boyfriend. You two are completely similar," I suddenly said, with a confusion to my voice that made me sound interested, to make everything not so obvious.

"How come?" he asked, his eyes full of curiosity as I suddenly said something that a stranger would never ever say. It was strange, really strange.

"I know it's weird, but you two really are similar. You could be the same person," I said, still trying to sound confused. He scratched his nose and smiled in disbelief.

"You're kidding me right?" He chuckled as his eyes stared into mine, filled with doubts and worries.

"No, do I look like I'm kidding?" I said, rolling my eyes at him.

He let out a low chuckle and leaned in closer to my face. "Yes, actually." He stayed there for a moment as butterflies started to tickle my insides. He leaned away from me with a smirk plastered on his face. I stared into his penetrating gaze, my heart fluttering.

"Fine then. I almost forgot Jinu... Who is Yol Sang Kim?" I asked. His expression was blank as his eyes welled with tears. He abruptly looked away to hide his face.

"She was my happy pill, no matter how bad my day had gotten." It felt like a dagger had poked at my heart, leaving a stinging pain. I couldn't find the words to explain what I was feeling at that moment.

"I-I have to go now. Take care, Jinu," I said quickly as a tear fell from my eyes. I quickly wiped it and walked towards the exit, leaving him.

"O-okay! See you tomorrow!" Jinu called out with a wave. I gave him a quick thumbs up before rushing out of the room.

"Jeez, he really is something." I sighed in relief.

I don't know what I would do without him. My mind went blank as I could only think of Jinu's words and face. What am I feeling?

~×~

A girl was hit by a car and was rushed to the hospital. No one knew who she was or who her relatives were.

It was then that everything changed.

Every single memory.

~×~

(Min Jinu's P.O.V)

Do you know what it's like to feel the urge to follow someone you've fallen in love with? It bugged me so much that I couldn't stop thinking about her.

I think I'm in love with her.

She's my happy pill.

~×~

(Kim Yeol's P.O.V)

Is this heaven? Where am I?

"You're awake!" A blonde guy exclaimed before hugging me. I don't know who he is or what this feeling was?

"Who are you?" He was taken aback. I didn't know how to react when his eyes got watery.

"Uh, you… You don't remember me?" he asked, his droopy and watery eyes staring at my questioning ones.

I shook my head. "No." I paused. "D-Do you know who I am?" I asked, and curiosity filled his eyes.

"Your name is Yeol Kim," he said. Tears started to stream down his face.

"Really? All I remember is that my name is Yol Sang Kim."

~×~

(Min Jinu's P.O.V)

Everything... everything changes now...

All along...

I don't understand...

Who is she really? What is she saying?

Is it time? Is this when I lose her again?

Why does this keep happening to me?

What did I do to deserve this?

~×~

(Kim Yeol's P.O.V)

I didn't know who he was... I really didn't.

I didn't know anything… I don't know how to live in this confusing world.

But I'm glad I forgot everything. Maybe I just didn't have a good memory from my past.

~×~

(Min Jinu's P.O.V)

After she left, I couldn't get her out of my mind. She was somehow connected to me.

It was a privilege to know someone like her, like the last girl I loved. They were so similar, just with different faces.

And I couldn't stop thinking… That she might have a new phase in life, without me. I hated to think that she could break my heart in one day so easily.

I fished my earbuds out of my pocket and pushed them into my ear, listening to the music I used to sing...

The very first stage, named as BTS

Remind the mind three years ago I had

Still I was a hick but

I became a pro, no more amateur

When I'm on stage rapping and dancing which I wanted so badly

I feel alive although it's hard and tough

I can handle it cause you're supporting me

I can stand the pain cause I can hear shouting my name

I'm in a boundary between idol and rapper

Still my notes are full of rhymes

I write down the lyrics between on and off stage

Do I look something different I used to be?

Damn shit I am still who I am

Something changed? Go tell them

Nothing changed. I'm still a rapper man

I still rap and sing as 3 years ago. I'm out

I never thought I'd sing this again.