3 Chapter 3

It's been 15 days since the accident happened and his life change, everyday he came and spend hours in hospital sitting in the room where her bed is and on the bed she's laying unconsciously— her whole body paralyzed and there's nothing she can do nor speak. Doctors out pipes in her mouth to put some food and water in her system so she can breathe and not die. Shivaye already contacts major doctors and a team of doctors visit week before and told him that she'll start breathing normally and will eat like normal people but it will take time, in weeks she'll able to sit and talk but her legs because totally damaged so they're afraid she might not able to walk for the lifetime.

He must be happy that she'll be fine and can live a life but nothing is good now, the guilt was so huge that it make him cripple from heart and whole night he spend thinking what just he did. One moment and someone's life change forever.

What if he just not attending phone or try text back?

What if only he focus on drive?

What if only he follow the rules of not using phone while driving.

There's a lot of what but not a single answer he had or have. All of his family members request him to stop going hospital but he was determined.

"Please don't stop me because that's the least I can do for her."

Whenever someone ask him that's what the answer he had. He isn't a good boy who can feel the pain of a stranger nor an angel who's busy showing what the humanity is but he was doing and will continue out of the guilt he had. It was painful and enough to not let him live normally from two weeks.

Chelsea try talk to him and make him agree on staying home and their managers will handle everything, after all there's some days left in wedding and having him here will affect their such precious days of life. But he refuse any idea and focus on one thing that he have to do this duty and have to look after her and her brother.

The other day still fresh in his memory when he first time met that young boy, Sahel. Kid think he's some kind of angel who save his sister but if only he knew the fact that he was the one by whose car his sister got hit and he's the one who left her on road and ran like a coward and he's the one who let someone innocent take out all the blame of situation to save him.

Sahel came everyday for some time, Shivaye talk to him and make his mood good by telling him different stories and when Sahel try to cry after seen his sister in bed quiet without talking to him, his heart start sinking and obviously he's not an adult who can handle such things. He's a young boy who own a small heart and seen his most beloved person of life so dead on bed give him pain. Shivaye try his best to divert his attention and for that he start teaching him what he learned from school.

Shivaye help him doing homework and whatever his teachers announce the topic to discuss in class. Talking to Sahel make Shivaye calm somehow.

Today he came and silently sit on the couch where he use to sit everyday from fifteen days. Sometime her hand move and he lift it on normal position and cane back again and busy reading some books for motivation and reading on her condition.

The door opens and Sahel came in holding his school bag on shoulders, he already change into casual outfit. On shivaye's demand a nanny for 24/7 hire to look after the young kid. He was smiling when entered, Shivaye didn't get the point why the boy every time smile so big when his eyes meet his.

"Hey so how was the day in school?" Shivaye question Taking off his bag from shoulder and making him sit next to him.

"It was amazing today I learn so many things angel even my teacher give me a topic for tomorrow." He was telling him gesturing through his small hands as something very big he's explaining. His voice was low as he knew his sister is resting and will disturb if they speak loudly. From day one he never call Shivaye anything else but angel. The name he, himself choose for him.

"Really that's great so what's the topic?"

Shivaye said and Sahel take out a notebook from bag and pass him, opening the page.

"Always stands for truth." Sahel said and he feel someone squeeze all the power from his body and left him good for nothing. Now how he'll help him on such topic which he totally neglect and did nothing but say lies to everyone.

"My teacher was saying— there's nothing beautiful in the world but truth, a person who speaks truth dearest to god very much..." the young boy was telling him but his senses lost. He need some time and fresh air.

"Sahel I'll be right back." Saying this he stood and walk out of the room. Sahel saw his back and then saw the person on bed. He put the notebook aside and walk near the bed.

"Anni come on wake up, I miss you... you promise me and now you're sleeping please wake up now." He was whispering standing near her and try holding her hand who's cold totally.

"Last night I saw a dream Anni...  mama and papa were home and they take you from me... please don't go anywhere, I want you please anni come back... I promise never ask you for anything... please wake up."

Saying this the eyes of boy turned wet and layer of tears start coming out of his eyes. He was sniffling now and kissing her hand, there's no movement he find in her. So many minute pass him crying and talking to his sister but his angel not came to handle him, to give him strength him, to give him hope no matter false or right of his sister talking to him sooner.

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On other side when Shivaye leave the room and came in the lawn area and start taking long breaths and letting the stressed come out from his heart.

"Shivaye." He was busy in procedure when someone call his name, he remember the voice after all that's the voice he heard whole his life.

He turned and find Chelsea standing some feet far from him, she's looking so fresh and as always beautiful.

Print top, orange rochas skirt, black sunglasses, stylish yellow handbag and the yellow Le-Silla pumps, open hairs waving on both sides and perfect shaped lips doom in natural color of gloss, in every mean she's beautiful one of the woman who don't need a thing to show themselves beautiful because they already are.

"Chels you here this time?" Shivaye was confused seen her in hospital, she hate the place and even more now since he start coming here and spending most of his time. But today she's here without any text or call.

"Can't I have rights to meet my fiancé when I want? Or should I need to call before Huh." Taking steps to him she said and he smile, shook his head and she who pass her hands stood near him. Her hands were in his and now there's smile on mouth.

"I'm glad you came thank you, i was really disturbed and your presence give me relief." He said rubbing hand on her back side of hand. She smile and take out the sunglasses on head showing her beautiful eyes to him.

"You know I'm always here for you? It's just you who lost now a days somewhere deep." Her tone hold a lot of sadness for him, he sigh and tight his grip around her hands.

"I know and I'm sorry for everything Chels, but believe me if I stop doing all this my condition will be more worst. Please at least you try to understand."

"Shivaye you've to get yourself out of this guilt baby, it wasn't your fault the girl came in front of your car... you always drive like this but nothing happened ever." She try to make him cheer up but it caused different thing, Shivaye leave her hands and take step back from her.

"How could you say that chels? It wasn't my fault? A girl's life ruined because of me and still you guys not consider it my mistake? But you're too not wrong, I deserve this pain after all if anyone try making me understand that what's right and wrong so this thing will never happens—

He was saying and her face expressions Changes gradually, she try to take step near him but he stopped her waving hand in air.

"If someone admonished me from start so right now the situation will be different... I never care for laws and always did what I want and see my stupidity took me where, because of me chels a girl is paralyzed laying on hospital bed unconscious from fifteen days... his brother call me angel, can you believe? He consider me angel who save his sister..."

Tears starts coming out of his eyes and it was so painful that he blink several times, she just saw him stunned on her position, it was the first time she saw Shivaye crying for someone else. How could he cry for a stranger?

She remembered when his dog died four years before, everyone thought he'll be in grief or will cry a lot but nothing happened, two years before when his grandfather died that time he don't let out a single tear came and here he's crying like a child scolding himself.

She exhale deeply and shook her head taking step near him and grab him through neck and give him hug, her hands moving on his back and trying to calm him.

"I'm not a saint but I never wish to be such cruel person either chels, it was my fault that a person ruined her life... and that's why it's my responsibility to look after her... she don't have anyone on her back, her brother is too young to handle anything... please let me stay here or you'll loose me." 

He was saying putting chin on her shoulders and crossing hands against her back, she let him throw all the frustration and stress out. He's in pain and that's the best thing she can do to let him cry for sometime maybe after this his mind work more nicely.

But that was just assumption, and assumptions are made to proven wrong.

"It's ok babe relax please... you're not a bad person Shivaye you're the best, we're human and we sometimes stressed out it's ok just relax don't be so hard on yourself... relax."

For some minutes she given him words and try to handle him, minutes passed and now he feel much better. The fog which had on his mind wave off and he can see the world from other angel now.

"I just know one thing, I owe my life to her and never going away until she start walking on her own feet— that's all." He said in s determined voice and stood from bench where they both were seated from Hour. She want to say something but deep down she knew it wasn't the right time.

"Ok we'll talk about it later but now come with me I'm here to take you and please no excuses."

"Chels how could I go with you this time—" His word's cut off in middle when she out her finger on his lips.

"No excuses for once just do what I say, I won't stop you to come here but you've to come with me right now." She was pleasing and he didn't reject him for long, I mean how could he?

"Ok I'll go but we have to come back sooner, because Sahel will leave in two hours." He said and she nodded. She drove off the car while he was on passenger seat, they arrived at hotel which own by Chelsea's dad and when he reached on roof top his eyes saw the scene where on chairs both families seated and eyeing them.

"What is this?" He's surprised to see all this, this time they all at where it's very unnatural thing.

"I think you forget, it's your birthday stupid, happy birthday babe." She chirped and give him a warm hug. He was shocked, how could he forget such important day?

Last year a week before she start Seen designers and start tasting cakes for birthday party and now he don't even have idea about it.

She took him near table where the cake is placed and everyone respectively wish him given gifts and their blessings.

"Make a wish." Chelsea said passing him knife to cut the cake and someone lighten up the cake by two candles. He smile and close his eyes.

'Dear god please give her a life please'

He think Seen heavenwards and blow the candles, whole roof beam with applause and birthday song. He take the piece of cake and move to Chelsea, just then his phone ring. He excuse and grab the phone from pocket, there's a name which was enough to make him anxious.

"Yes Doctor, everything alright?" Swiping the screen quickly he said and everyone eyeing him as what the matter.

"Mr. Shivaye as per your orders we call you on first hand to let you know— Miss. Annika open her eyes just now."

Those were the words and his phone fall on ground, along the piece of cake he was holding in other hand. His shoulder quiver by Chelsea who's seen him with concern in eyes.

"I've to go... I'm sorry for everything chels." All he said and ran for the exit door of roof top. Letting them confused and shocked on back.