7 C7: Left Alone

{Reign's POV}

Reign 12:19 pm.

"Sis is lesbian?"

Cindy 12:20 pm.

"Yes, I have been for a long time."

I stared at her message and bit down on my lip. My heart was beating fast for something - she easily admitted to her being lesbian.

I repeated her words in my head, "I am lesbian."

Can I say it? Should I tell her? She doesn't know how I look or what my name is - can I?

I hesitated while my thumb hovered over my mobile. I typed it out "I am gay."

Cindy 12:27 pm.

"Naughty boy."

What does she mean by this? I text her a question mark to explain her meaning.

Cindy 12:27 pm.

"?"

She replied with a question mark confusing me.

Reign 12:28 pm.

"Sis, what do you mean by calling me naughty?"

Cindy 12:28 pm.

"Don't you have a girlfriend?"

Reign 12:28 pm.

"I do."

Cindy 12:28 pm.

"Shouldn't you have a boyfriend instead?"

I read her reply and sighed, I wanted one, but I don't have to courage to come out.

Reign 12:29 pm.

"Nah"

Cindy 12:29 pm.

"Why not?"

Reign 12:29 pm.

"No reason."

Cindy 12:29 pm.

"Still hiding?"

Reign 12:30 pm.

"Hiding?"

Cindy 12:30 pm.

"Still in the closet."

Ah, so that's what she meant.

I put my mobile down beside me on the bed and covered my eyes with my left hand, I wish I could tell my parents and come out, also tell the world that I'm gay, but I don't have the courage too - even the guy I like.

A heaved heavily and picked up my mobile again and unlocked my mobile, looking at the recent message she sent.

Cindy 12:32 pm.

"Come out when you are comfortable with yourself."

I smiled but wanted to cry at the same time. I looked at my hand holding my mobile and it was shaking, I tried replying but my mobile dropped on to my face - It hurt like crap, my poor nose.

My mom called from the kitchen. I typed a quick text to sis that it was time for lunch and got up from my bed.

I headed downstairs and met my elder sister Stellar, she grinned at me and called me short. Shaking my head I chuckled and we both walked to the kitchen.

Lunch was the same as usual and we all spoke about nonsense and I made sure to sit properly.

After lunch I got dressed and headed out to the mall, I went to watch the movie alone but got distracted because of what sis said, I ended up leaving the cinema and during the movie and went window shopping.

I stopped at the FashionNova store and walked in. I looked through all the men's clothes and made my way to the womens section.

There were many things that caught my eye and I wanted to buy them - I have the money but…

I left the store after browsing around and as I exited I walked into my sister and her friends at the entrance.

My sister looked at me strangely and asked, "Reign, what are you doing here?"

I hesitated in answering her - I don't know what to say.

Telling her a lie, saying that I'm here to buy Chloe a present was what I was about to say, "I-i'm here," I trailed, but was cut off by one of her friends who walked past me and went in.

My sister soon followed suit and I was left alone at the entrance. I felt like I was being suffocated and just wanted to leave, but decided to stay and wait for my sister.

I never left the exit and stood by the door frame waiting for them. I tried calming down, but I wanted to clarify my reason for being here with Stellar - I don't want to be questioned later.

They came out of the store twenty minutes later with shopping bags in their hands. Stellar looked at me with a confused gaze and asked, "Why are you still here?"

I looked up at her meeting her curious gaze and shrank back, I looked down at the tiled floor and mumbled, "I was waiting for you."

She had to strain her hearing in order to hear me and said, "Why? Do you want to go home with me?."

I nodded my head in agreement. I heard a sigh and looked up; my sister said goodbye to her friends and looked at me.

"Reign, why didn't you just go home without me?" she asked while handing her bags to me to carry. I shrugged after taking the bags and we left the mall.

My sister could drive, we got into her lime green Ford Ka and drove off.

It was pretty awkward, I wanted to say something but couldn't muster up the courage to start speaking.

I fidgeted with my finger and for a while before Stellar started speaking.

"How did you get to the mall?" she asked while looking at the road in front of us. I turned to look at her, "I came by bus, Chloe and I were supposed to go with her father, but they are having problems again so I came alone."

"Oh," was all she said. My sister wasn't as socially awkward as I was, but we were family and had the same way of responding.

A few more minutes passed.

"What were you doing in that shop?" she asked with a strange tone in her voice. Her sudden change of tone made me nervous and I started sweating.

My hands began to tremble to the point where it was visible, but I answered her, "I-i-i w-want-ed to-to get Chl-chloe so-something."

Tears started welling up in my waterline as I looked down at my trembling hands. I kept my hands balled so that Stellar couldn't see them trembled.

I shut my eyes tightly closed then opened them quick and swallowed the saliva I had stuck in my throat. My body started sweating and I don't think I can blink back my tears any longer.

"Ah, I see," it seemed as if she wasn't bothered, but I doubt that.

We arrived home and I couldn't wait to get out of the car, I felt so suffocated. My tears wanted to pour out.

I walked into the house and greeted everyone and rushed to the bathroom. Locking the door behind me I hit back against the door and slowly slid down with my hands against the back of my head.

My breathing became heavy and my tears started falling. I bit down onto my bottom lip while keeping my yell back.

I stayed in the bathroom and cried for a while. At first, I was worried that someone would come after me or someone would want to use the bathroom, but nothing.

I returned to my room and fell asleep - I want to be left alone.

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