C26: Who Am I Kidding

"So?"

"What do you mean so?"

"You did say we were going to date openly, why are you suddenly nervous?"

"Theo, I just returned home, I was bitchy in front of them towards Chloe. I walked out of the house with my stomach showing and we just got caught making out by my mother who is narrow-minded – when my dad comes home, I still have to tell them I'm gay."

"And your point is?"

"Just hurry up and leave, I thought that you being here would lessen my nervousness but you're not helping at all, not to mention I have to tell them that we are dating!"

He sighed behind me. "Just take it easy, I'll call you later mn?" he nudged me with his nose.

Glaring at him I asked, "Does your parents…"

"Yeah they know, they know that I'm head over heels for you . . . they were the ones who comforted me when I almost lost it – I bet my mother is going to want you to come over so that she can get to know you after I tell her that you and I are dating."

Scrunching my nose I looked away. He kissed my forehead and hit my ass. I groaned at the ache it left; hearing him all the way from here, he greeted my mother goodnight.

Stripping I got into my pj's and under my blanket. I was still thinking of what a strange day I had while I unconsciously fell asleep.

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I woke up because I felt a cold body hugging me. Not familiar with this person's hold, I got up to see who it was. It was Sturgeon . . . when did he get here? His snoring was deep due to his sinuous, I estimated that it should be well over an hour now.

I slowly got up because I needed to urinate. Closing him I grabbed my phone off charge heading to the bathroom. I stopped in my tracks hearing voices from my parent's room, just before the bathroom.

Leaning against the wall the door wasn't closed properly that's why I could hear them. "I don't know what's going on, why is he suddenly like this, what happened to our son Michael?" she asked crying into his hug.

Patting her back he said, "Let's just wait and hear what he has to say tomorrow, even if he is gay and dating that boy, we should be open to accepting it whether we like it or not Layla. Reign's been missing for two months and only contacted us twice. Remember what the social worker said and shouldn't we be happy that he decided to come home?"

"But, but, I can't accept this if he really is this thing, then why did he date that girl?" she argued back.

Pulling her away at arm's length I could see that he was shaken up too at what she probably said… I wonder why they consulted a social worker. I didn't want to hear them any longer and headed for the bathroom.

Done! I headed downstairs with my laptop and phone because I didn't want to wake my brother up. Seated on the couch I switched my laptop on plugging in my earphones so the sound couldn't be heard.

The house was dark but warm. Unlocking my phone I saw five missed calls from two numbers, Cindy and Thee.

Clicking on Cindy's number the phone dialled. I hope it's not too late but I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't answer my call, it is one in the morning.

She immediately answered after the first ring, "Hey sexy." She greeted, I couldn't help but smile from ear to ear, "Do you know how much I miss you?"

Cindy, "I'm sure you died three times because of it that's why you're only contacting me now," she sarcastically remarked.

"No shit!"

Cindy, "Hahahaha~ I knew it . . . So how're things going?"

"Very eventful, I'm quite scared."

Cindy, "Really… what happened?"

"Well firstly, my mother and siblings didn't want to leave me alone and I had to threaten them with me leaving again."

Cindy, "You're really are horrible Reign."

"I know… Reegon didn't let me out of his sight, I have this instinctive need to tell him that I'm going here and there and reporting my return."

Cindy, "I bet he is the most affected after you left since you are the one who he relied on most, not to mention he could feel that you were going to disappear."

"Mn, I'm feeling pretty shit about it, I wanna make it up to him. I was thinking now that since my elder brother is back the five of us could go out but I'd have to confirm first because he and my dad returned not too long ago."

Cindy, "Have you spoken to them yet?"

"Na, I'll do that tomorrow."

Cindy, "Will you be alright… your case is a pretty hectic one and I'm afraid they might take it badly."

"I don't know, I just plan on doing it, I'll let you know tomorrow okay?"

Cindy, "I'll be waiting then… what else made your life eventful?"

"Oh right, my mother lost her composure when I called my ex a bitch in front of them… it was that and she couldn't believe that I could swear. Also when I went out earlier on, I walked out in a crop top and she looked petrified but didn't say anything."

Cindy, "Really… hahaha!! Did you take pics… don't forget to send me pictures of you every day."

"Yes yes, btw will it be okay with you if I come over this weekend… I really miss you."

Cindy, "You have a bad case of withdrawal symptoms Reign."

"Yeah yeah, you have to send me sexy pictures of you too!"

Cindy, "Yes sir."

"Good girl."

Cindy, "Whatever! Tell me more…"

"I have a boyfriend."

Cindy, "What the fuck? H-how did this happen?"

"I know right, well remember my group of friends there was another guy in it? It's him."

Cindy, "The handsome Theo guy with those sexy green eyes of his?"

"Yes him! I thought you were speaking bullshit when you called him handsome after I showed you how he looked. Today I stared at him for so long and I can literally kick myself for not opening my mind to him before."

Cindy, "Well it is like that when you are trying hard to hideaway… so what about your crush?"

"Fuck him, my man is sexier!"

Cindy, "Oh, your man~"

"Yes, my man… it's quite pitiful actually, he cried then confessed that he'd been watching me from the sidelines all these years and our friendship was just a farce so that he could be near me."

Cindy, "So you are pitying him and decided to date him."

"No… it's not like that. My feelings jumped at him and I am willing to give him a chance… I want to experience love as you suggested and I feel that it would be better with him."

Cindy, "Do you mind me giving an honest opinion about this?"

"Please tell."

"Your decision to date him… you made the correct choice." Hearing these words made my heart feel at ease, I was so afraid that she wouldn't approve.

The tears started falling from my eyes as my emotions took over me. I put my laptop aside, sniffing into the phone I asked, "Really?"

Cindy, "Love, I did say before that the one you like might not like you in return and the one closest to you is that one you are meant to be with." I nodded my head forgetting that she wasn't in front of me.

Cindy, "Are you still there?"

"You can obviously hear me sobbing yet you are asking me that."

Cindy, "Well… I can't see you nod your head."

Laughing I said, "His parents know that he is gay."

Cindy, "Well isn't that perfect?"

"Mn… After I tell mine we'll be dating openly."

Cindy, "Yassss bitch! What made you decide that?"

"I just asked him and he agreed, but I'm afraid that he'll suffer because he is Mr Popularity after all."

Cindy, "Reign, your man has been coveting you for who knows how long and is willing to openly date you, he probably loves you to the moon and back. If he does experience problems, be a good boyfriend and be by his side, he already has parents that accepted him – you need to accept him and be the person he is proud of to the point where it'll make others wish that their relationship was like yours."

"Will you help me?"

Cindy, "Yes but remember that you need to speak to him as well; being in a relationship with someone is the best thing but it can also be the worst if there is no communication between the two parties."

"I understand."

Cindy, "That's good… what else happened?"

"He's a great kisser…"

Cindy, "Oh my soul… just don't let him fuck you, it's still too early… jerking each other off is fine but nothing further."

"Mn, I know… I also noticed that he is arrogant and likes to mock me… he wasn't like this before."

Cindy, "I bet it's because he is so happy that you two are dating now and can't hide his affection anymore."

"That's no joke! It felt like he was going to eat me up!"

Cindy, "I want pictures of you and my boyfriend-in-law."

"We took many, I'll send them over hangouts."

Cindy, "You better… oh, and when you come, we're going shopping for baby stuff."

"We should get the spare room ready too… my minds already been going over a colour scheme, I want to paint the room myself… I'll work on a design and bring it with."

Cindy, "As long as I don't do it, I don't mind."

"I also want a tattoo… a huge one going up my left leg dedicated to my siblings, you and the baby."

Cindy, "… do you know how painful that shit is?"

"No, but I will find out… we should have three parties for the baby. An announcement party, gender reveal and a baby shower."

Cindy, "So you want free stuff?"

"It won't hurt…"

Cindy, "Well, I'll leave everything to you."

"Good! I want to phone Theo too. I fell asleep earlier on after he left and never picked up his calls."

Cindy, "Ditching me now for your man – I see."

"Don't be like that! Oh, guess what?"

Cindy, "Mn?"

"My mother caught us making out." I don't know why I told her this because she laughed so hard into my ear. Rolling my eyes I said, "Bye!"

"Nnnno wait!" she called stopping me.

"What?"

"What was her reaction?"

"She freaked out and froze but did not make a scene… she scared Theo though because he left straight after."

"I'd freak out too if I was either of them."

"… sleep well."

"I will, after such a great conversation."

"I hope you do… love you."

"I love you too." She ended and switched the phone off.

Wiping my soaked cheeks I dialled Theo's number but he didn't pick up… he must be asleep it really is late – I kind of miss him especially that warm hug he owns.

Placing my mobile to the side I logged into Facebook. My face instantly fell as I saw all the notifications. Shaking my head I scrolled down my feed, looking at all the snobby posts. I came to Theo's last post and my heart sank!

He posted it five hours ago, so that must have been not long after he got home. His message showed "In a relationship." And his profile picture was one of many that we took while we were together.

Clicking on it his profile page came up. His cover image was of me laying on my stomach on the grass facing the setting sun – a picture he must have sneakily taken while I wasn't looking, who am I kidding, I wasn't looking.