10 Chapter 9-Her Innermost Desires

"Wow,that was so beautiful! This is absolutely amazing,Fumiko!"Aiyana exclaimed in awe,looking the poem on the poster she just read written by Fumiko for her.She still couldn't believe Fumiko would do all of this for her or even thought about doing all of this for her in the first place.Especially knowing that Fumiko isn't a big fan of romantic gestures,whether it be planning them or having them thrown for her.

Aiyana understood that Fumiko was a more pragmatic person than she was romantic person and never really understood the appeal of a lot of romantic things.Fumiko liked small,subtle acts of affection from her friends and family,but that never surprised Aiyana too much given Fumiko's personality.She has always been a reserved,introverted,and low-key person unless she is hanging with her friends or she is very perturbed about something.

While thinking about how and why Fumiko's homecoming proposal shocked her,Aiyana realized she made an assumption about the context of Fumiko's homecoming proposal.A assumption that could really blur the lines between their relationship with each other.

"Maybe I shouldn't have assumed this was necessarily a romantic gesture,she could've meant the word "date" platonically."Aiyana thought to herself,not understanding the context or intent on Fumiko's part.Aiyana decided she shouldn't think too hard about it because at the end of the day,she was going to be hanging with her best friend doing something they both want to do together more than anything.Just the two of them alone together,a dream come true if you asked her.

"Eh,it doesn't really matter...I still want to go to the homecoming dance with her."Aiyana said to herself,closing her eyes and shrugging her shoulders.Content or no context,it's not like Aiyana would regret anything hanging out with her best friend.Besides,Aiyana was comfortable with her sexuality...she didn't need anyone telling how to feel about it.

Straight,Lesbian,Bisexual...only she could define who she was and Aiyana was vindicated knowing she had that freedom.

Aiyana turned to face Fumiko again after getting lost in her thoughts,wanting regain her focus.She wanted to tell Fumiko how she felt about everything she did just to ask her to the homecoming dance.Aiyana knew what she wanted to say,but she felt a little weird saying it aloud.She didn't want Fumiko to think she was weird or overly eager about all of this,if that was even possible in this situation.

Nevertheless,she was going to say it anyways and just hope for the best.

"You're amazing...you know that?"Aiyana said,looking at Fumiko with her softened eyes.Aiyana felt her heart beat out of nervousness and she started to regret what she had said.She waited a few seconds for Fumiko's response,but her anxiety made the time feel longer.

Fumiko's eyes widened a bit and she blushed,her cheeks turning a shade of bubblegum pink.She felt all warm and tingly inside,which felt very nice yet unknown to her.Fumiko smiled softly and a small "hmm" sound,forming a verbal response in her head before doing anything else.

"You are amazing,Aiyana."Fumiko responded,smiling softly at Aiyana and giving Aiyana's thigh a small squeeze.Fumiko quickly removed her hand from Aiyana's thigh and placed it in her lap,worried she had gotten too engrossed in the moment.She wanted to apologize,but she thought that make things very awkward.

Aiyana was shocked,but she wasn't upset and she definitely wasn't weirded out by Fumiko's touch.Whatever it meant,she wanted Fumiko to know it was okay and maybe that was meant to happen.Aiyana placed her hand over Fumiko's hand and gave it a slight squeeze,gesturing that she didn't mind what had just happened.

In fact,Aiyana actually liked it because Fumiko was rarely physically affectionate with her.Unless,Aiyana initiated affectionate gestures like hugging or other simple touches.

Fumiko looked down at Aiyana's hand that was still resting on her own hand and was genuinely surprised."She's reciprocating my embarrassing gesture by holding my hand?"Fumiko thought,still looking at Aiyana's hand on top of hers.

Managing to stay cool under pressure,Fumiko looked up into Aiyana's eyes and smiled at her.She met with Aiyana's big,dark brown vortex shaped eyes staring back into her eyes.Aiyana also returned Fumiko's smile with one of her own,hoping this would make her feelings clear.She wanted to be by Fumiko's side no matter what and that's where she wanted to stay.

She took her hand off of Fumiko's hand and placed it on her cheek.Her cheeks felt really warm again,but she couldn't tell what it was from.

Was she getting cold sitting outside?Maybe.

Was the wind brushing against her cheeks in an uncomfortable way?Possibly.

Was she feeling uncharacteristically nervous around Fumiko from a minute ago? Not something she took the time to dwell on,but maybe that could be a reason.

But,why would she feel nervous around Fumiko? She's her best friend and that hasn't changed,so that didn't really add up to Aiyana.

She felt a lot of things about Fumiko,but why would warm and nervous be two of them? She didn't understand the sudden hot flash sensations she felt earlier tonight and a minute ago,but that could be chalked up to anything from Aiyana's perspective.

"I don't have time to think about this right now..."Aiyana thought,crossing her arms and looking at the bush next to the steps she was sitting on.Then,it dawned on Aiyana.She could distract herself by talking to Fumiko about the homecoming dance.Hopefully,that would take her mind off of things a bit.

"So,what kind of dress do you want me to wear and what color should the dress be?"Aiyana asked Fumiko,even though she probably already knew the answer.

"A floor-length,golden yellow gown would be the best."Fumiko responded,practically having blueprints of their homecoming attire ingrained in her mind."So,we could be the sun and moon together."Fumiko added,voice drifting off out of slight embarrassment.

She was very excited about going to the homecoming dance with Aiyana,but she didn't want it to show in fear of embarrassment.

"You're gonna wear a white gown?"Aiyana asked,slightly in shocked.

"Yes,I think it will be a very classy and elegant look."Fumiko said,matter-of-factly.

"Not to mention beautiful."Aiyana said practically in awe,glancing at the ground while trying to imagine Fumiko in her homecoming gown.

"I'm sure your gown will look beautiful on you,too."Fumiko responded,smiling and touching Aiyana's shoulder in assurance.

Aiyana rested her hand firmly yet gently on the hand Fumiko has using to touch her shoulder,letting her touch on Fumiko's hand linger for a few seconds before taking it away.

"It depends on what shade of golden yellow the dress is,the right dress will look great against my skin!"Aiyana exclaimed,referring to how certain shades of yellow and golden yellow colors look good on black people.

"I also plan on wearing on a silver and white pearl hair clip to match the moon aesthetic I'm going for."Fumiko said,thinking the accessories would make all the difference in her homecoming outfit.

"Then,I'll wear a gold sunflower headband or two gold butterfly hair clips to match the sun aesthetic."Aiyana responded,not having decided on which hair accessory she will wear with her gown yet.

"Let's keep any other modifications we add to our homecoming aesthetics a surprise for homecoming night,I want the rest of the details to remain a mystery for the imagination for the both of us."Fumiko said,hoping to surprise and surprised by Aiyana on the actual night of homecoming.

"But,that's 4 days from now!"Aiyana exclaimed,feeling like the days leading up to homecoming would be a drag.

"I know,but the days will go by faster since we have homecoming to think about."Fumiko explained,still wanting the rest to be a surprise.

"We'll just have to wait and see,I guess."Aiyana replied,knowing that's all she could do until homecoming night.

"I should probably go home now...unless there's anything else you need to talk about?"Fumiko informed Aiyana while she stood up,getting ready to walk back to her mansion.

Aiyana stood up and walked towards Fumiko,having a few more things she wanted to say.She grabbed Fumiko around her midsection and hugged her tightly before she spoke.After doing that,she looked Fumiko in the eyes to signify the importance of her words.

"Be safe on your way home and keep my jacket for the time being."Aiyana said,still hugging Fumiko.When Aiyana said that,Fumiko hugged her back almost as tightly as she was hugging her."I will,I promise...just make sure you go inside shortly after because it's getting late and cold outside."Fumiko responded,wanting Aiyana to be safe as well...even if she couldn't watch over her.

Aiyana released Fumiko from her hold,turning back around to go back inside.Once she got back to the stairs,she picked up the poster Fumiko made for her and was about to go back inside."Goodnight,Fumiko!"Aiyana called from her front door before stepping into her house and waiting for a response from Fumiko.

"Goodnight,Aiyana!"Fumiko called back from the driveway,looking back at Aiyana.With the night basically ending for them,Aiyana closed the door and went inside right after that.Fumiko took out her mini remote controller & turn off the lights on the driveway and the top of the roof above Aiyana's front door.

She put the mini remote control back in her mini purse and walked back to her mansion,more ecstatic than she could have dreamed to have be after tonight.Everything was looking bright for Fumiko and she felt like she could already see the figurative lights beaming down around her.The homecoming dance,her relationship with Aiyana,and even the literal lights around her as she walked down the street were all indication signs of the bright future ahead of her.

She was finally finding the confidence within herself to show more of her innermost desires to Aiyana,even if it was a little embarrassing at times.The affectionate touching,the delivery of compliments,etc.Aiyana seemed to really like it when she just let herself be more open about her feelings and desires towards her.Fumiko didn't know that she would be so understanding about everything that happened tonight,which made her feelings of embarrassment and shame even stronger.

Especially since Fumiko has an extremely hard time being her true self around other people in fear of abandonment if they don't like the real her.Or if they can't handle the real her since Fumiko knows she can be a lot to deal with in her most vulnerable moments.That's why she only has a few close friends who truly know her,understand her,and accept her for who she truly is.Not everyone would do that if they saw who she truly was and how broken she was on the inside.

Aiyana is one of the only few people who can accept and handle Fumiko at her worst.She has made it abundantly clear that she won't abandon Fumiko,even if it means getting indirectly hurt by her for staying.Aiyana always tries her best to comfort in any way possible Fumiko when she is hurting,an action that placates Fumiko's emotional triggers.

Sometimes,Fumiko wonders if she even deserves the affection and attention Aiyana gives her.That's why Fumiko wanted to give Aiyana everything she possibly could,so she never feels taken for granted or underappreciated.Fumiko wants to give Aiyana everything she has ever given her for always being there and never giving up on her.

Affection,Attention,Comfort,Happiness,and Love were all the things Fumiko wanted to give to Aiyana...if she is lucky enough to be able give all of that to Aiyana one day in the way she wants to.

"Thank you for being in my life and never giving up on me,Aiyana...you're a very special part of my world."Fumiko thought,not wanting that to ever change.

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