1 Chaotic dreams

"Gulp!"

I can't breathe, I can't think straight, I feel like I am sinking.

How many times have been here, the familiarity, the comfort, the madness a place filled with negative emotions, a place filled with countless questions but none could be given simply because I cannot understand.

I gaze upon the world that is before me, everything here is unreal, but if I have learned anything this past sixteen years since I have come to this place during nightfall.

Then that would be, to just accept what is before me, sticky walls of the flesh of many humans morph into pain expressions.

That is the very soil I lay upon, their faces conjoint into one of fear and misery, but yet I don't think this is wrong, it's beautiful so, so beautiful, is it wrong that I see this scene of someone being tortured for no reason so beautiful.

I don't think so, from the very moment I was born into this world I have seen and experienced things no one can imagine, every night I have horrible but beautiful nightmares that plague my soul?

But I don't mind, the horror that always curses me is beautiful, pain, joy, fear, and happiness what is the difference, the answer to that, is the very fact that there is none, to begin with.

Emotions are powerful things, beautiful as well, to me no emotions are wrong, I don't know why but I have always felt this way, this is my nature and I have come to terms with that.

But yet, I'm in love with the emotions, not the people or objects that give them, is this wrong, of course, it isn't wrong, the heart wants, what the heart wants.

An immense feeling that I cannot help, this place that is filled with unholy aspects of creation which is like a never-ending sea of madness is my second home, why I know this, well imagine being born different.

One minute you're with the humans, yea humans no offense but sometimes I just don't feel human, there are times that I feel superior to them, but yet their times I also time I envy them, but I have come in terms with my inner self, I am human and that alright.

Humanity is a beautiful creature with the vilest of nature, for example, the urge to mate and pleasure oneself is a feeling one cannot fight against, and the urge to eat and drink when we are thirsty and hungry is something we cannot do without as well.

I'm sinking, but yet I have already reached the bottom, unreality is reality, and reality is unreality, one coin with separate faces, but the purpose of the coin is the same.

What I am seeing is the very embodiment of madness, because everything in this world is incomprehensible, dark, evil, and vile, from your sense of direction to the very water that is flooding my lungs.

The liquid is pitch black, it is like being in a never-ending sea, the abyss is what I'm calling this place, a monster the size of planets, floating in this sea of darkness.

Speaking to me of their wicked tails, some covet chaos others covet misery, and all of them want nothing but madness and fear to leak into this world, everything that is here is like an embodiment of something corrupted.

They whisper into my ears, but yet I do not hear a single word, if anything it just sounds like horrendous noises that I cannot explain.

But I do not need to explain, there is no point for it in the first place, I know exactly what it wants by feeling its emotions alone, I feel threatened but yet not afraid.

I look at the beast before me this time it's nothing but a giant blob for a head, with trillions of eyes and mouth, arms and feet sticking out of it.

While it had nothing but one giant tentacle for its lower body.

I gaze upon it, I already know what it's going to do to me, it's going to eat me, and set me free from this world, in short, I'm starting to wake up from my dream a pitty I want to be in this world a little more.

But when the dream is about to finish, I am always eaten by something, this time it is this thing, what it might be, God knows it beyond me, but it does look cute, only if the outside worlds have these things as a pet, I would get one.

The great beast proceed to open its mouth as I open my arm as if was preparing to give a bear hug, the smile on my increased as I said.

"How beautiful."

Crunch!!!

Instantly I was eaten in one gulp, I began to fall into the beast's stomach, as total darkness embrace me, how long have I been falling even I don't know, but it was fun this is fun, this is beautiful.

Am I insane to think so? Maybe I am.

Do I care what others think? Well not really, if anything it entertains me nonetheless.

Was I afraid? Honestly, what is there to be afraid of.

I accept all emotions love is beautiful, sadness is poetic, fear is impactful, hate is creative, happiness is an illusion, and anger is entertaining.

And as I fall lower and lower I began to see a light, of course, I fall with great speed, and when I reach the light all I could hear was a beeping sound.

--Nexios Fpov--

Beep! Beep! Beep!

The sound of my alarm began to ring off, instantly I began to rise from my bed, I look down below me as I saw many rats were crawling all over.

It was only natural, to be honest, my bed was nothing but a simple sheet lying flat on the ground, I grab one of the rats as I bring it closer to my face.

I gaze passionately at it, the rat looked at me with pleading eyes, honestly, it was crying, why was this animal crying, such an adorable creature with a lovely beating heart was crying, was it afraid of me, does it think I'm going to eat it, how entertaining

"Hehehehehehehehe... Don't be afraid little guys I'm just, petting you, you know you should run away when seeing dangerous people, I know I am a nice guy, but next time try not to get caught ok."

But the rat beg to differ, it was not because this thing was a nice guy, no upon looking at this smiling monster's eye that was voided of all emotions, it began to feel fear so potent even death became meanless.

But as soon as it was released, it followed its instinct and wasted no time it ran away, and one thing was for sure it's never coming back to this place again.

I watch as it ran away, I smile at this, I just help yet another unfortunate soul, all life has meaning and has a defining end.

But I didn't waste any time I began to get up from my bed and stretch a little, right after I said.

"So today the day haaa... Hehe, what a good day to be alive, honestly, I can finally escape this place if I win and complete my dream, of course, I only stayed here because I like messing with the people here, as their reaction sustains me, although the treatment from my abusive foster family is getting worse, hmmm... do they still blame me for elder sister Mimiko death, hahaha... How fascinating but nope that girl digs her own grave."

But just as I was saying this, I began to hear the sound of someone walking toward me, I gaze towards the Iron door that was blocking me from getting out.

You see my family place me in a cell day and night, for the last three years, both my food and water is limited and, the care and love I once had was stripped away.

In this room, there is no light, only one sheet on the ground, and also a toilet along with a dog door which they slide my food in when it's time to eat.

Ever since Mimiko died, this family had never been the same, their beautiful smiles and laughter that flourish loudly when they were happy are now replaced by scorn and disgust for me, not like I care, to be honest, their hate for me was a new experience.

I was getting bored seeing nothing but smiles and happiness all the time, so when new emotions of hate, disgust, and fear start to overtake them, I smiled for a new experience, human life is short so is it wrong to enjoy what you like.

By calculating, a human only has a life span of 80 years, some of the lucky few can even go beyond that.

Such a little time to be alive, and I have lived for sixteen years, and never seen the world.

But now I desire only to see what lies at the origin of dungeons, I want to see what is at the top, they beckon me, who and what I don't know but the adventure would be interesting nonetheless.

So I gazed at the door, as I began to hear the locks outside starting to be unlocked, and when I look I saw two people before me, a butler that was 6'8 he wore a standard butler attire and was at least in his 60s

He was completely ball making his dark skin easy to see, which match his deep burning yellow eyes.

This man was Martas and the other man beside him was at least 6'1 he wore something a noble would wear, as his long sleeve gold shirt was tucked in black working pants, he had on black boots and a red jacket over him.

His skin was clear and his eyes were a deep green, while his hair was average black that reach his neck, and he had gold rings on each of his fingers, the man gave me a pain look mixed with hate in it.

He began to look into my eyes, but the way he was trembling, was evident that his fear of me has not been overcome.

This man named Elijah Emunanella Vorden, a very well-known architect, he also very kind, but he has his bad side, I am evident to this statement, after all, this man I called father has locked me up in this place.

I smile at him as I said.

"It's nice to see that your doing good father, what brings you to my humble cell, have you already missed me."

But as I said that his breathing began to get heavier, and rigid, why well the answer is beyond me, but people who look into my eyes long enough began to get this way for some reason.

But just when he was about to run away our butler, walk towards me and place something over my eyes, a black blindfold.

I could still see clearly but my father suddenly regain his composure as he calm down and finally talk.

"Nexios the time has come, please follow me so you can properly be trialed, I can't promise you anything, but the worst-case scenario is death."