12 NIGHTMARE

"Oppa, you don't have to do this. I can take care of my self" I lied to Joshua oppa. I'm sitting here at my bed while he's packing some of my clothes. Ofcourse that's a lie. I'm actually scared thinking i'm here, alone. What if someone breaks in and do the same thing to me again? It's just that I don't want to be a burden to them

"No. The last time you said that, THIS happened" he said, pertaining to what happened earlier. Thinking of it made me goosebumps. I shook my head, erasing what happened earlier

"I just don't want to be a burden" I whispered but I guess he heard because he stopped putting some of my clothes at the luggage and looked at me  "Who said you're a burden? Ofcourse you're not!" He said and continue what he's doing.  

"Let's go?" he asked. I stood up and got my school back pack while he carried my luggage. I also took my uniform, hanged in a hanger. After I locked my apartment, we got down and went inside the car where Jeonghan oppa's waiting

While we're on the way, I started spacing out again. I really can't believe THAT happened.. I don't even want to think about it, I might cry.. 

I don't want to be weak. I can't... be weak... 

Jeonghan stopped the car and we all went inside the elevator and the silence suffocate me

"I'm really okay..." I whispered but I know they all heard it since it's dead silent

"Don't lie" Jeonghan said. "Angel... it's okay... We're here" Joshua oppa said, caressing my back. I just looked at him and smiled. The elevator opened at the 8th floor. When we went inside the dorm, All of the members stood up upon seeing me. They all went to me and hugged me

"Are you okay?" Seungkwan oppa asked, nearly to cry. I fakely smiled to hide my pain "Ofcourse oppa, don't need to worry"

"Let's all watch some movies so we can chill!" Mingyu oppa said excited, easing the heavy atmosphere. Everyone agreed and we went to sat down at the sofa, some of them sat down at the floor. I sat down beside Joshua oppa. The movie started and we are all focused. In the middle, I can feel my eyes, getting heavy. I'm usually bored whenever I watch movies and ended up sleeping. I leaned my head on Joshua oppa's shoulder. He wrapped his arm around me and he started caressing my shoulder so I ended up sleeping.....

I woke up when I felt my body being lifted up but I chose not to open my eyes. Seconds later, I can feel a soft bed at my back so I became comfortable and slept immediately

"Help!" I shouted while running away from a man. He catched me and pushed me down the bushes. "No.. pleasee.." my tears started to fall as he take off my clothes and started kissing my neck... I can't do anything but to cry...  I looked up and saw Jeonghan, watching me getting raped by this man, emotionless. I tried reaching his hand but he stepped back wards "Please don't leave... I'm scared.... I'm scared being alone... Stay.. Please" my tears started to fall again as I saw him walking away.

"ANGEL!" I heard a loud voice while shaking me.. I opened my eyes and I can feel my tears. I really cried? I looked at Jeonghan who's standing beside me while holding my hand. It was just a nightmare

My tears felled again so I drag him to sit down and hugged him "Don't leave... I'm scared" I whispered, trying to control my sobs. He caress my back and said "Shh don't think over much. We won't leave you"

"Can you stay here to sleep? I really can't" I pleaded. He's still caressing my back so I kinda calmed. I felt him nodded so I lay down again and close my eyes. He started caressing my hair that made me comfortable and started singing too. His sweet voice calmed my raging heart.