20 JOSHUA POV

Our manager said that, our CEO asked us to come and see him at his office. We just came back from our Ode to you world tour so everyone was exhausted. We stopped by a cafe called 'Cafairy' because of Seungkwan's request. We stood in line to wait for our turn. When it's already our turn, Seungkwan ordered first

Suddenly, I saw a girl, running from the staff's room "Jooha, I'll go now. Tell unnie where I'm going to okay? Bye!" she hurriedly said and waved her hand at the boy, who's taking our order.

"Whats your order sir?" I came back from my senses and looked at the boy, Jooha. Ah, he's talking to Jeonghan. Jeonghan ordered and I ordered as well. We waited and when we got our order, we went inside the van. Woozi asked if we could drop by to our dorm. I sighed. I want to end this day and rest

When we got into the building, other members went to us and we started walking, where the elevator is. We stopped walking as we saw Siwoon and she's with the girl. The girl earlier from the cafe. I talked with Seungkwan and acted like I didn't notice her. I can see her in my peripheral vision, looking at me. My heart starts to skip a beat but I still tried acting cool and didn't notice her and continued talking to Seungkwan

When I can't feel her stares anymore, I looked at her and she's looking at the floor. Scoups told Siwoon that we will just go straight to our CEO's office. He just congratulate us and stuff. We went inside our vans so we can go home. I did not notice that I'm already smiling while thinking about the girl earlier... She looks cute

The next day, we came back to the building because we have meeting, regarding the next Going Seventeen episode. As we walked in the building, I found my self, looking around and searching for the girl yesterday. Maybe she's here. But we got in our meeting room and I didn't saw any hint of her. I sighed, disappointed

"Pd-nim is not here. Let's move the meeting after an hour" our manager said. We all stood up and went outside "Should we go to Bumzu Hyung?" Hoshi asked. Me, Woozi, and Hoshi went there and the others just went outside to eat.

We just stayed there to kill our time and we're too lazy to stroll around. We all looked at Jeonghan, who just came in the room. I shook my head. He's really hard-headed. We told him to rest because his shoulder hurts but he, still, came here

"Oh? I thought there's a meeting?" Jeonghan asked.

"The schedule moved. Pd-nim's still not here" Hoshi answered while tapping something on his phone

"Hyung, do you know that girl? The girl who's always with Siwoon?" Jeonghan asked Bumzu hyung. I immediately looked at him when I realized who's he talking about. The girl from yesterday!

"Yeah. She's a new trainee. Seems like CEO sees her as his daughter. He really likes Angel" he answered while scanning a folder, Woozi gave.

Angel? I smiled. Her name suits her well

"Angel? That's your nickname hyung!" Hoshi said with an amused smile

"So?" Jeonghan asked, raising an eyebrow. Hoshi shook his head and turned his gaze on his phone

"But a girl auditioned? That strange" I said. Almost all of the trainees here are boys. We still got some girls but not too many as the boy trainees

"Pledis actually invited her to auditioned last January but she got delayed since she need to arrange her papers first. She's from the Philippines" Bumzu hyung explained while tapping on his phone

She's lucky then!

"We found her video singing so we invited her. Here" Bumzu hyung said again and handed us the phone. Jeonghan got it and pressed the volume so that we can all hear it. It's an instagram video and she's singing our song 'dont listen in secret' and 'hug' just the chorus parts

"JhYoonAngelim?" Jeonghan read at her username

"Carat and Buddy" he read her bio too. I looked at them, shocked. JhYoonAngelim?

"Is she a Jeonghan biased?" Woozi asked. Maybe? because her username is JhYoonAngelim? JhYoon stands for Jeonghan Yoon

"JhYoonAngelim? Thats familliar" I said and took my phone out

"I'm right!" I exclaimed as I look at Bumzu's phone, where Angel's profile was, and to my phone

"She messaged me last December but I didn't read it because I thought she's one of those crazy fans"

The next day, we went to the building again and the CEO invited us for a dinner. We stopped in front of the cafe where we ordered before. "I'm hungry" Seungkwan said. I saw CEO and Siwoon, from the window, They went inside and I can see through the cafe's glass wall that they're talking to Angel. Angel nodded and went inside the staff's room

I saw them walking outside and Siwoon, walking towards our van with Angel "Who's she?" Seungkwan asked, looking at the window too. Siwoon opened the van's door and let Angel in. My heart starts to skip a beat and my surroundings began to slow as I saw her.

Am I inlove?

I shook my head. That's impossible! I only saw her and I don't even know her attitude and stuff. All I know is that...

She looks like an Angel....

She sat beside me since it's the only vacant seat. I tried stopping my breath as she walked in front of me. I sighed and continue breathing when she finally sat beside me

"Hi" I said and waved my hand. She also greeted me and smiled. Wow. her smile just made my day. Seungkwan and Dk started talking to her and she look nice, answering and laughing with them.

"I know all of you. I'm a fan" she said. I already expected it but I'm still shocked. How can she manage not to let out exited emotions when she's with her idols? She's not like other fans that freaked out when they saw their idols. She seemed calm

"Woah! Jinja?! Tell us our names then!" Seungkwan challenged her

"Joshua, Woozi, Hoshi, Seungkwan, Dk, Vernon, Wonwoo, Scoups, The8, Jun, Jisoo, Mingyu, Dino" She answered. I smiled as she first called me. Not even once but twice

"You told my name twice. Joshua and Jisoo" I said as they're nearly fight because Angel said she called 13 names. She's right though. But she called my real name and stage name. She forgot Jeonghan. I thought she's Jeonghan biased? How could she forgot her bias' name if she's his fan?

Is she my fan?

I felt impressed as she proudly said the basic informations and profile of Gfriend member. She looked cute, giggling as she talk about our collaboration with them last MAMA 2016

We greeted the CEO and he told us to seat. I sat beside Angel so I can talk to her. I didn't got the chance to talk to her earlier because she's busy talking to Seungkwan and Dk. I placed some meats on her plate. She's busy answering the CEO's question and she forgot that she's eating. We drank a little but I didn't know that it will lead to drinking session and we get drunk

"Hyung, Angel made us soup. You should eat it before it gets cold" I heard The8 said while shaking me. I immediately stood out of my bed and went upstairs. I read her note and I kept it on my pant's pocket. We just stayed at our dorm and around 4 pm, after we went to see Sowon as Jeonghan's request, we're already at the agency's cafe. I can hear trainees, whispering and giggling while looking at us. I sighed. It's not their first time seeing us but why do they always act like it's their first time seeing us? Why don't they be professional and calm like Angel?

After thinking of Angel, I can hear other trainees, talking bad about her. I looked at them and when they notice that I was looking at them, the 3 girls smiled and walked away like nothing happened

Are they bullying Angel?

Jeonghan and Seungkwan went to the practice room the get Woozi's mic. I still can hear other trainees, talking bad about her. They aren't whispering anymore because I can hear them.

We went back to our dorm and Jeonghan talked to me about helping Angel. I was actually thinking of it too but he talked about it first. We agreed on what to do next and we went to our dorms and rest. I laid down my bed, tired. Why would they backstab her? Does Angel knew that? Did Angel did wrong so they hate her? Why are they treating her like that?

The next day, Seungkwan woke me up because he said, we're gonna fetch Angel. I immediately went to the bathroom and got dressed up. I didn't saw her yesterday so I'm excited. Thinking that i'll see her later, makes my heart beats faster

"Angel!" Seungkwan shouted. She looked at us shocked. She went to us with her body guards. I eyed the taller guy. The way he looks at Angel earlier made me think that maybe he likes her?

I shook my head. Woah! so that means we both like her? I don't want to be rivals with a student

I knot my head as Jeonghan and the boy, Jooha, from the cafe, keep on throwing words. Jooha is so irritating. Why does he kept on meddling? Jeonghan is right, this is much more important than their promised schedule. And why does he keep on talking? We only talked to Angel and not him

I looked at Jeonghan. He seemed really irritated. I shrugged. I guess because Jooha is really irritating. I don't wanna think that maybe Jeonghan's irritated because he knew Jooha likes Angel. I don't want him to be my other rival. We're bestfriends

We got stuck in the traffic and I can feel Jeonghan's irritation. I can also hear Angel, playing with that Jooha at the back seat. Jeonghan beeped the car in annoyance. I sighed I don't really wanna think but I honestly think that he's jealous of Jooha

I'm not sure. I never seen him like this before, really irritated. Not even once because of his jealousy to V and Sowon

We walked inside the elevator. We're already here and he's still irritated "Seems like you're irritated" I said while looking at him with a teasing smile, hiding my wants to know what's really the reason is.

"Eyy maybe he's jealous" Woozi said and he looked at him, seriously. I don't want to encourage that suggestion but maybe he really is, jealous

"He's irritated because of Jooha" Dk added. I smiled bitterly. I don't want that we both end up falling for her. He's my bestfriend and I don't want to lose that friendship just because for a girl

That's what I always thought so I decided to know everything if I really have a chance. I always look and read Jeonghan's move, the way he talks and how he treats Angel. I know him too well. That's why its not hard for me to read what's on his mind. That's how I knew that he likes her. Maybe, he didn't told me, literally, But I can read him perfectly

I always wanted to be Angel's savior. The one who could make her happy, the one who could make her safe, The one that always love her...

But I know... It wasn't me...

"Yah, let's go to the river" I told Jeonghan. He quietly nodded and we walked there silently. I know that Angel is there so I wanna know everything now. So I won't assume anything about us..

"Do you like him?" I asked Angel. I just need to find out so If ever they love each other, I can move on right away.

Even though I know its hard....

"I don't like him" I sighed in relief. She don't like him so maybe I have a chance?

"I love him" she added. I looked at her, shocked. I wish I hadn't hope anything that there will be a chance for us.. Because... It hurts... I sighed in surrender.

Maybe, we're not for each other

"Well, I guess you need to talk" I faked a smile and walk out. As long as I turn around her, my tears started to fall. I didn't even got the chance to tell her how I feel. Maybe, just maybe she would change her mind

But if I will do that, there's a chance that everything will be awkward if she still chose him. SO I better keep this feelings inside me and just love her from afar. Until I'm tired and just want to move on... I opened my phone and saw my wallpaper. It's me and her... I can't tell the word 'us' because there's no 'us'. Its just me and her...

I can sacrifice anything for her...

Because she's the only girl that made me fall this hard..