2 Adventures of a fetus

I don't seem to have any control over what clearly feels like my hands, but strangely I can move my leg, yes singular not plural,for some strange reason my legs seem bound into one and have more range of motion than any leg has any right to.

This is beyond strange because I may not be abe to see or hear much but I can still feel my hands and they clearly are primate in structure with five fingers, wrist, elbow and shoulder joints.

This is scary, I don't want to be born deformed ,I don't know if I will be born in a culture like Spartans where they throw deformed babies off the cliffs. but I don't panic just yet I don't really know my species just yet so this can really be common for all I know.

As I calm my state of mind I start to meditate as there is really nothing else to do. I can't make any sound in here but I still try to make a humming sound with what body function I can controll. I don't here any sound but I can feel the vibrations going through me and the cocoon.

After several cycles of sleep and humming in meditation, I can feel the feedback from my cocoon shell and it seems I am inside a womb. I know no mammals with my anatomy of single leg and 2 hands and all my fears return. I have nothing against the disabled but I refuse to be one. I try to struggle to separate my legs as I try to pull them apart to be 2 separate legs but to no success.I cry inside without any tears as I try to calm myself.i gather myself and continue to meditate and create vibrations from my throat and mouth to feel more feedback and get more information. I sleep and meditate on several cycles till I can feel more area around me and if I'm interpreting this vibration feedback right then my mother is bipedal. I cry some more in knowledge that I am deformed. I still remember taking samadhi and consider euthanasia again but through my vibration I can feel the love of my mother for me. I let that love empower my meditation as I meditate on willing my body to split my leg into two. it fells impossible but I really have nothing else to do.

After a few cycles of meditation and sleep I gather enough energy to struggle again. I repeat this process of gathering energy at ceter of my bound single leg as a visualisation for splitting it and keep struggling till I fall asleep. Repeat failures only make my need to have two legs more profound till it reaches a stage where I can finally visualise 2 legs bound together rather than feeling a single leg with no distinction. This encourages me even further as I keep this cycle of meditate, struggle and sleep till I feel like I'm not making any progress again. This time failure to progress further after experiencing some success makes me angry and frustrated. I decided to make an attempt with much more energy forgoing struggle for some cycles and just meditating and sleeping to gather energy and willpower to make an even more effort full struggle. This time I'm angry when I don't see any progress, 'I am the ruler of my body, and it will obey' as these thoughts pass through me I find myself spending much more energy than I have, even taking a lot from my mother through shear willpower finally I feel my legs split as I lose consciousness.

My consciousness returned to me as I feel the stinging pain on my back, my pained cry comes out as a baby cry as I struggle to breath. Breathing feels much more weirder than I remembered, much more heavier. I contemplate this while still crying until I realise that I am breathing water instead of air. Dammit I am still do tired, I'll think on this later, as I still need some sleep