101 102. Feel me

Lucius bent down so he could see the look in her eyes. She tried to smile but he could tell that she was offended. He raised her chin up to meet his eyes.." I think I have lived long enough. Kill me if that would please you. Only you have that power you may as well use it."

Monica could not explain how she felt when he said that. She forced a smile on her face when what she really wanted to do was cry. For the first time someone made her feel irreplaceable.

"Tell me, have you ever been in love Monica?"

She breathed in sighing softly. "You know I've felt love before." She sighed. "His name was Tyler."

"I had two boyfriends before him but then I did nothing but Kiss them and pecked them and childish things like that you know. I've never been one to believe in love but with Tyler it was different he understood me and he loved me for me.

"I didn't have to pretend to be nice or to be who I am not when I was with him. He was my safe haven, a place I could be me as me. I had a passion for him and our relationship was the best I've ever had but one day he just left. We didn't fight we didn't quarrel he just left."

"I heard he went to his grandfather's town to take care of him because he had called terribly sick at that period. But he never came back. I called his family continuously for days but they didn't answer.

"It was his mother that finally found the grace to answer my call after five days. However when she did, it was to tell me he had been buried. She apologized for everything. I visit his grave every month and still yet I do not believe that he has been buried. It hurt so much before but then I started to get over it."

"That month was my worse the next week my Best friend Clarissa disappeared and my life became a mess. No family, no real friend, no lover. I used to hate my parents you know for dying and living me behind. Cancer killed them both and I, I have feared for a long time that it will kill me too."

"I stopped hating them though and started hating myself instead that way I won't feel bad about the fact that no one loved me since I didn't even love myself." She finished.

A tears fell down her cheeks and he wiped them away with his thumb. He pulled her up and made her sit on his laps. Then tucking her hair behind he embraced her.

"You have me now. I'm your home and you are stuck with me for eternity." Lucius smiled. He kissed her forehead lingering for long before he pulled back again and covered her in his arms.

He hated that she had suffered so much and swore to do all in his power to make her happy. If only he had found her earlier but it wasn't too late to make amends. He just needed to find a way to deal with Jessica once and for all.