Like Him

[From the past]

My view of Kuya Lucian suddenly changed since he walked me home that night. I know that my feelings for him didn't start there. I know that only confirmed the admiration I feel for him.

Over the days, Kuya Lucian and I became closer because of Luciana. Because of that, my heart started feeling strange about Kuya Lucian.

Every time Kuya Lucian is around, my heart beats faster. My day is complete every time I see him, and I must look presentable before meeting him. I want to be more beautiful in front of him. Be attractive in his eyes. Maybe he will notice me too.

That's how it started.

I think I already have a crush on him, so I can't accept it! My mind can't fully take that I have like Kuya Lucian! I promised myself I won't fall for the Griffins because they are like a family to me.

I told myself I shouldn't be in love with the Griffin, especially since Kuya Lucian is my best friend's brother.

How could fate play at me like this?

And worst is, I know Kuya Lucian will never like me because he sees me as his little sister. I know I shouldn't fall for him because he is a playboy. But who wouldn't if he is so caring and sweet?

Oh no! I have a dilemma which I should follow. Is it my mind telling me to stop liking Kuya Lucian, or my heart says there's no wrong in falling in love with him?

I let out a deep sigh.

It's not really hard to like Kuya Lucian. He has all the qualities you look for in a man. Handsome, wealthy, intelligent, kind, and with good manners.

Others liked Kuya Lucian because of his good looks, handsome and wealth, or because they were intelligent and good at sports. Others are because of his sense of humor and heart-warming smiles.

But in my case, I liked him not because of those traits. Maybe we can also say that it was just another reason, but what I wanted the most about him was being a loving son, brother, and cousin. Being responsible, polite, sweet, gentlemanly, and considerate. I liked everything about his traits that melted my heart.

The days passed. We have been busier because of the upcoming moving up. Months from now, we will be freshmen in college. The five of us have already decided to enter the university at the school where the older Griffins studied. Because that school is well-known for bringing out the best in students.

I can't go to Luciana often because many projects need to be finished and activities that need to be passed since its finals. I can only go to them every Saturday so that we can bond.

I also couldn't help feeling sad because Lucian had school even on Saturdays. That's the only time I can see him longer, so it makes me a bit upset that I haven't been able to see him because he has school.

Yes. I am not calling Lucian Kuya anymore. I know it is strange, but I cannot help it. These days, you cannot call the man you love Kuya or older brother since you want him to notice you as a woman, not as his sister.

While we were celebrating our graduation from Senior High School, I realized even more that I really had a crush on Kuya Lucian.

He gave the four of us, which is me, Carla, Denise, Luisa, and including Luciana, a gift. I couldn't help but hug Kuya Lucian when he gave me an expensive watch. Not because it was costly, but because it was the first gift I received from him when I realized I liked him.