One More Line In My Life

Hey I'm Nizar Age 19. Nothing New My life Still Going to Dark Tunnel And I don't know even If he has deadline, some of you will think that it's good to be sad but it's not actually nothing can come easly at least not in the real world we're running out of time and no one really give a sh.. about it cause we don't want really to get up and try again like we don't have the motivation anymore. Everything happens to us for reason you wake up in the morning and you don't feel that happiness like before cause you're not child anymore you realize that when you wake up and you don't find your mum prepare for you the breakfast or the worst when you actually getting use of your mum existing but one day you find it passed away that's actually the most darkest and sadest day of your life cause the only one who actually love and cares about you more than herself is your mother. You trying to look at the bright side but you can't find it cause you don't have that hand who grab you from darkness to light. I've been through alot of pain because of love and the fact of the love is blind is actually right when you fall in love of someone you don't see his negativity and that makes you so weak I tried it before you fall in love of someone for years and than you find out she didn't even look at you like a friend that will make your heart breaks so bad but the best thing that God gives us a gift of forgetting and that makes you always have a chance to get up and try again cause the things you was looking at it like a valuable things you found it after time isn't actually. You get bullied when you show that you're heartbroken you get bullied everyday when you show that you're weak they call you asshole and tiny head and many names and you get back to home to find out that your dad is always fighting you That's when you feel that your last man standing for you from your army isn't with you anymore he makes you feel useless you try to deny that fact but you can't cause no one by your side to prove that you're right. I've been through all of this and I was so skinny and I always called the pen and than I put in my mind to change and I tried so hard to change,to be stronger,better, I trained on the gym for 4 years and I really changed. When you find the motivation and something helps you to forget your pain than you can't leave it. I wake up everyday at 4am to work and than I go to the gym. When you get to use that routine you find yourself better and more healthy to face the bad things that happen in your life. Life is like the war if you don't have a weapon you die if you stopped fighting you will die that's the fact of life and we should accept it and learn from our mistakes so everyone who read my story I want you to know that you're not useless, everyone has a part of this life everyone has a role you need just to get up and work cause no one gonna help you, you're the hero of your own story. Peace