14 second chance

I went to meet Samar to his place. I went and sat opposite him. there was an awkward silence between us for sometime... and then I finally broke the silence "what do you want? u called me right? what do you have to say?" he then replied with a soft voice "I am sorry Pooja, I am sorry for whatever I did I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but I really love you..I didn't know what had happened to me that time...I shouldn't have said all those things to you, you didn't deserve any of it, I am sorry...i just couldn't control myself, I couldn't control my anger. I got angry because I thought u didn't trust me and that's why you asked me about Prerna and my relationship...I didn't cheat you Pooja, Prerna and me are just friends nothing more than that...I love you please forgive me and give me a chance I promise I will make it up to you" after saying this,he got from his place and walked to me and kissed me fiercely....it was like he was impatient to kiss me but i still couldn't forget what he said, I pushed him away from me...I said to him " Samar please no....i need some time... whatever you did I still couldn't forget all of that... you insulted me, crushed my self respect I can't just give in and at this point a kiss won't solve anything neither will it justify what you did and please don't come close to me I need some time, I know you regret everything you did but saying sorry isn't enough...it doesn't change what you did" hearing this he came more close to me to kiss me again...this time I couldn't push him because no matter how stubborn i was but the fact that I loved him didn't let me go hard on him...so this time I couldn't fight him...

YEAH I was totally blind in love my stubbornness didn't work with him he was more stubborn than I was, at that time this is what I thought but it was not true he wasn't stubborn but he just used my emotions..he knew if he becomes a bit emotional he can get me which was true...I was an emotional person and to my loved ones I was the sweetest and I used to forgive easily...he knew this and so it was easy for him to come back in my life. Today when I think about this I just laugh at myself...how can I be so easy to fool but I am happy he came into my life atleast now I know how to handle these things and not to be a fool again and not to be vulnerable to my emotions too much.