Sorry, not sorry

I remember he said "goodbye"

I remember the feelling of losin him for another women that didnt even care for him, just the money was in her mind. He said to me "your big ass Bitch" when he left me, for that women...

I woke up with a shok a tear down my face and could almost not breath. I looked beside me and there was the boy in my nightmare. He is just slepping there like he always do. I could still feel the leftovers of fear in my throat.

Minutes after, the alarm went off it was time to get up going, like everyday. He was already up and getting dressed, he looked at me with his tired eyes "shouldnt u be making breakfast" he said like it was my job to do.. But all I could say was "yes, sorry I just had a nightmare" he rolled his eyes "hurry up" he said like a devel. I put on my clothing fast and hurried down to the kitchen to make his breakfast. He came down and sat where his paper was, I served his bacon and eggs and before I had sat down he left for work without a word... Like usually.

I cleaned up after him, with tears down my face. Hours after cleaning I get a Phone call.. I look at my phone it was my fiance I picked up the call and without any hesotation he said "I dont love u, you look old and fat, you cant cook you are the worst girlfriend ever and I am breaking up with you" "wha.." my voice broke I could almost not talk then he said "we aint getting married I am gonna get all my things later and I want the ring back" he then hang up... I felt useless. I looked at my hand where the ring was. "I knew you had been cheatin but still I stayed. I knew you didnt love me anymore but still I tried to work it out. I clean the house everyday and when you come home you will mess the hole house up.. But still I stayed" Hours later he was here to get his things. I didnt say a word to him after he was done packing his things he said "sorry I couldnt love you more, but it was your fault" "oh.. Sorry.." he looked at me like I should say something. But all I could say was "sorry, that I am not sorry"