12 Denial

Trena's pov

I asked, "Why?"

He said, "First of all If anyone could find out about this there would be so many problems that I can't handle. And secondly, I don't think it's a stable feeling. You have had this temporary feeling since you are in your adolescence period. I think you just need some time now. When the right time will arrive, you'll understand what I want to tell you now."

I exclaimed with sorrow, "What! You don't believe me? Why?"

He said, "It's not like that. You're still not in a certain situation yet. When you'll have the ability to find your fated mate which is decided by our moon goddess then you'll immediately forget me. I mean when you can shifting you'll be able to find yours. So wait until you're at a certain age. I mean just wait for few weeks and find your own one."

My heart has been broken from this kind of word after this whole time. I have waited so long to get this answer. This is a really brutal answer for me.

I said, "I'm that miserable that I can't even express my true feelings toward someone whom I love."

He told me, "No, you're not."

While sobbing, I said, "You're really cruel to me now. I didn't expect this answer from you. But I'm really sorry to make you be like that."

He wants to convince me so he said, " Don't cry. Also, don't be sorry. I'm the one who should be sorry for making you cry like this. But I have no choice left. It's all for your own good. I believe that you'll definitely find yours by time. Then you'll be able to forget about me."

I become so much furious and said, "I don't want or need to find anyone. Why don't you trust me that I really love you?"

He said, "I hope you'll understand one day."

I rush to the car while saying, " You are the one who's never gonna understand me. So I wanna go home now."

He said while following me, " Hey Trena. Don't be sad like this. Today you're confessing your feeling to me even though I can't accept them now. But I understand you and also your feeling. But sometimes you have accepted the reality. So listen to me carefully I'll talk to your brother about it. Before that, you should stop thinking of me like that way and don't mention it to anyone not even to your aunt as I told you. Ok"

I looked down and said, "Ok"

Then we get into the car. While we're in the car, he said to me, "Don't worry about it. If he agrees and you can't find your fated mate then there'll be no problem for me to accept you as my mate even though it's rare to not have a fated mate for an omega. But you've to wait for this few weeks until you find yours. I'll do my best along with your brother to found your fated mate with you. If you find yours then I'll go my own way as I always go and you'll go to yours. This a promise from me to you."

I nodded as I accept his suggestion but from the deepest side of my heart couldn't agree with him. I rush to home at the second when we got home for not facing him because he refused me. I straightly went to my room and shut the door with an unwillingly slumming sound, for not allow anyone to my room.

But from the slumming of my door and my rushing to the room, aunt come up and asked me from the outside of the room, "Did something happen dear?"

I told her with a sorrow-filled voice, "Nothing happen to me, so please let me be alone now."

As she goes down to her room I clearly heard her footstep and feel much relief that she didn't insist to tell her what happened today.

I was crying and thinking, "When I already give my heart to one, how can I give it another. Why didn't he understand my feelings?

Ilhan's pov

While coming back to my home, I was kinda off-minded because of what Trena told me earlier.

I asked myself, "Am I too rude to her?"

Then I shook my head and said to myself, "No, I was doing the right things. It's good for her. At first, I've to tell all of this to Travis and find out her mate."

When I reach my workplace to see if everything's ok between them, I see all lights are off. So I went back to my home. Before that, I was peeping inside the room to see if I can find Travis. I've to tell him what's going on with his sister. I saw Lennox sleeping and Travis was sitting at a tiny distance from her, staring at her face. When I open the door, he's wiping his tears. Then he rushes to me for telling me something.

He told me with a heartbroken face, "Ilhan please leave me alone for some time."

I start wondering that Instead of telling me how's going with his sister with a cheerful face, he telling me that with a gloomy face. Why he's so gloomy?

Because of my worries for him, I insisted on him, "but I've something to tell you that's why I come in."

He refused me and tell me, "I'm not feeling well now. You can go now, we will talk about it tomorrow."

So by his gloominess, I try to understand why he's crying and I leave from there with my worries as he insists me to do.