10 That day

And it was that very day my destruction started, the very day I came across the one thing that could close up the destructive pit inside of me was the very day my life was taken away from me… replaced with something I would never have thought would be mine.

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Same goes for this chapter fellas, she's still talking to us

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On my way to my biology class the next day after the engineering fiasco, the most drastic thing that has ever happened to me in my life happened.

I was pulled into a corner in the hall way and the next thing I know is that I felt lips on my own… soft lips that felt so familiar and unfamiliar at the same time.

My first guess is Jacob but he isn't like this and also these lips made me melt at the way they attacked mine, the hands that roamed my body made me wanting more and made me forget the purpose of my thinking faculty.

After the kisser broke the kiss, I looked up to see the most frustrating face I could ever find on the face of this earth… ARDEN

I can't believe I felt this way with this guy

"Arden" I said with malice and not only was it directed towards him but also at me.

I can't believe I let this lying piece of pig kiss me after he embarrassed me.

"Adrian" he replied with a smile and I could swear that my stomach lurched at the sound of his voice.

So deep and throaty that it brought back the memories of the things we've done.

How could I have forgotten the sound of his voice and why did he say Adrian? Is that his name?

Something is wrong here

"What do you mean by Adrian?" I asked pushing him off me and I immediately miss his touch… I wanted him back but I couldn't drag him back

"I mean my name is Adrian and I'm guessing you already know who I am" he said smiling and bringing back memories of that night, the one buried in a dark place in my mind

Now I think I'm crazy, is he telling me that the Arden guy I confronted the other day wasn't him?

Thinking about it, the guy I confronted wasn't this tall, his lips isn't this plump and also, his eye isn't like this.

This guy in front of me has shining glassy grey eye while he… well, grey eyes too but just not like this… not this enchanting.

And also the voice, it seems as though I chose the wrong person to attack and just like a meteor shower, I felt a huge wave of embarrassment wash over my being making me blush furiously

"It's being a while since I've seen your flushed face sleeping beauty" he said with a smug smile, as if he knew exactly why I'm blushing

"And why the fuck are you here hmm?" I asked angrily,

He can't make me go through all sort of things emotionally and physically and then come back to me like nothing happened, I won't go down without a fight… not that I'm even planning on going down, my plan is to forget about him and that is exactly what I would do… right?

"Well I guess it's high time I…" he stopped midway before he looked away

"You what?" I urged him to continue

"Let's just not talk about it okay" he said trying to move closer.

I think this guy isn't getting the drill of this.

We aren't in a relationship; there is clearly nothing between us, nothing except a freaking one night stand.

And even though I still want to lock him in a kiss and make him fuck the living day light out of me, it is still nothing more than that… lust

And I'm still Olivia Milan, I don't engage myself in conversations with strangers no matter what.

"Then I'm guessing we are done here, I'm late for class and I would seriously love to catch up, bye" I said and moved to go before he held my arm in an act to stop me which I complied even though I shouldn't.

"I broke up with my girlfriend or should I say, she broke up with me" he said in a strained voice that shows he is pained by the fact that that happened, well I'm not

"And do I look like some therapists that help fix break ups or help mend broken hearts?" I asked folding my arms on my chest.

"No, that's not what I'm saying; don't get me wrong" he said looking everywhere but me

"Just… I just felt like seeing you so I came here and I saw you so I approached you" he completed and I was shocked.

'Wait a damn minute' I thought, 'how did he know I was here'

"What made you think I would be here because I do not remember exchanging things like my personal information with you or did I?" I asked while also searching my brain and I came up with nothing of such… not that my memory is that strong but then…

"I've known from the start that you are Olivia" he said with a hint of smile on his face…

Wait a minute, so he knew and he didn't even try to come up to me despite knowing me all along, despite knowing little informations about me… at least the ones that goes around about me. That hurts…

"And you even didn't try to contact me at all, despite knowing me?" I said angrily but also with a hint of hurt in my voice

I am trying my best to show that I do not really care about anything his feelings related but it was hard, my mouth seriously wants control and it's almost winning.

"Well I tried to, you just didn't see me and you looked kind of intimidating around your friends or whenever you are in the hallway or anywhere at all" well that is kind of ego boosting and almost immediately I recalled seeing him

He was there in the hallway one day staring directly at me… why didn't I know that day, and he was also the guy with the brightest smile ever I saw at the engineering hall….

It was like a fog covered my brain and now it is being dissolved into a shower of memories.

He was indeed right there in front of me and I didn't know.

I can't say how happy this is making me and immediately I felt at ease, just like when a warm water, a feeling washed over me and I immediately released the tension on my shoulders which I didn't even know was there.

"And right now I do not look intimidating?" I asked with a hint of playfulness which he immediately caught on with

"Well let's just say I couldn't wait anymore and I seriously needed to kiss you again because I was already going crazy with the thoughts of doing it" and I really could say the same thing but then, Olivia doesn't admit to things like that

"Too bad, I'm on my way to class, bye" I said again but now with a playful demeanor

Getting the message, he immediately blockef my passage way and placed his lips on mine to kiss which I immediately responded to.

"I've really missed you… this feelings" he said between kisses while I moaned into his mouth, and again I could say I felt the same.

If you ask my more rational self, I shouldn't be doing this.

I should be pushing him away, far away from me and my suddenly fragile heart but then… what the heart wants, the heart gets

"And also since you are already late for your class, there would be no harm in completely skipping it because from what I heard, you Olivia are a very punctual student, you rarely miss class" he said breaking the kiss.

I would give the credit to Mia for that achievement

"Well, I am guessing you did your self-given assignment very well then" I said with a huge smile I didn't even know I was capable of giving.

"And this is the third time I'm seeing you smile so wide… I would pay any price to always see this smile" he said and I swear I do not want him to go away anymore.

Even without us being more than this close both physically and emotionally, I already feel like I'm a part of him.

And even though I'm imagining the things I don't normally like seeing people do, like hanging around their boyfriends and being super protective, I am not feeling repulsed by the thoughts.

And I am so surprised I even thought I could have him as a boyfriend…

But all this thought went away with a flood after he uttered his next words

"You know, I still love my girlfriend and I don't think I want to be anywhere but with her…" he said sadly and simultaneously puncturing my heart.

I felt a pain that felt like a direct blow to my face in my heart… even more

So after all those talks, those kisses, those touch, feelings, he still loves his ex-girlfriend, he still wants her despite all that she has done to him

"So why are you here then?" I asked in a pained voice

"I missed you" he said as if he has stated the obvious, what does he even think I am

"Or you missed the sex" I said my voice laced with venom

"And what is the difference, I thought you don't care as long as it's sex" he said

And just like that the once closed pit opened up again but this time it's much more bigger and deeper than before.

"Let me go" I said shrugging him off and almost in tears…

What was I expecting really, a relationship with him or what?

'What exactly made me stay.' I questioned myself bitterly

And just like that the feelings I felt became a stranger to me that I couldn't even remember them

"What is wrong?" he asked showing what I would love to call genuine concern but then, I knew better

"Get out of my way" I said pushing him off me

"But…" he started saying before I ran off.

Right now the only feeling I have is sadness and pain, immense one that feels like life is being snapped out of me.

If I had known, I would have pushed him away even before he started taking, I would not have listened to him when he started talking, I would not have stayed.

Now all I have to do is watch myself destroy so not peacefully...

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