Chapter one- a year ago

I never thought my life could drastically change in a few months but boy was I wrong I went from nothing to something so quickly that it made my head spin. A year ago things where so different to now it's like a memory but a memory that is not easily forgotten in some ways it was just a glimpse of how beauty defines us in this world and how you are nothing without it.

***** one year ago*****

"KENZIE"

I open my eyes lying there fully aware that if I don't get up now I will be late for school but I didn't care. school was the last place I wanted to be but unfortunately there's a law that I am forced to attend the hell hole 5 days a week..

"KENZ I swear to god if you don't get your ass down stairs in the next five minuets I'm leaving without you"

Kane never shouts so I know he's angry, It's kind of torture that My twin brother is the most loved and popular guy in the school but no it's not torture for me it's torture for him having the most disliked person in the school as his sister and all though he won't say it it's true. Not that anyone has really noticed we are twins it was erased from people's memory as soon as I became irrelevant and he became popular.

"Kane give me 5 minuets calm down"

"Kenz you know I'm chill but I had to be in school 5 minuets ago Ben recons he's taking back football captain and wants a rematch for next semester.. and I cannot let that happen"

" wow what a tragedy" i say sarcastically rolling my eyes at him.

"Yeah yeah whatever just hurry up" he says leaving my room

I throw some clothes on and put my hair into a ponytail, and i stop and look at myself in the mirror let me tell you something about myself, I am not no pretty skinny average teenage girl I'm the opposite I'm not very pretty I'm very plain and the reason no one likes me is because I'm over weight with glasses and I know girls say that all the time but no really I'm fat. I gotta say I've got a lot of things I want to achieve during high school and a lot of it to actually happen it requires me to be skinny and pretty.

I quickly grab my books and put them in my school bag and head down stairs.

"Finally like"

"Kane If you persuaded mum and dad to let me take my test again you wouldn't have to drive me to school" I say making my way to Kane's car

"Mckenzie you have took your test three times now and crashed your car before even passing i think we have passed persuasion working"

" not my fault that wall was there"

"Sometimes I wonder where we got you from, by the way we are picking up Ben"

"Ben.. are you being serious"

"Listen I know you two don't get along but just don't egg him on it's to early for A headache"

"Okay then.." I say making a gun with my hand and pretend shooting myself..

I get in the car and thoughts go to my head about what I am going to face as soon as I walk through the school doors into hell. I used to be a very care free un offended person until things suddenly got to me and now I feel trapped every time I walk into school I feel like the tiniest fish in a massive pond of hate and my family have tried with me in the past in various ways which I will not get into, and Kane he tries to stop it but theirs only so much that can be done and it never stops.

"Are you okay you look upset"

"I'm fine" I lied I was not fine but I don't want Kane to focus on me when he has bigger things he needs to focus on

"Mckenzie you know I know when you are lying listen you need to tell me what is going on okay I know high school sucks but me mum and dad need to know this things I don't want what happened to happen again listen a week and it will all Be over"

I know I should be happy that summer is in a week and I will have 11 weeks without school but summer involves me sitting on my own in my room doing nothing for 11 weeks so yeah pretty boring.

"I know kane"

*ping*

*one new text message from mum*

"Who is it"

"It's mum"

*mckenzie can you tell me which colour fabric you like best the cerise pink or the hot pink*

"What's the difference" Kane says confused

"That's a conversation not meant for a boy they are totally different colours and I prefer the cerise pink"

"I will never understand you and mum to be honest"

My mum Audrey rose Carson is a famous fashion designer she is the most bold and bubbly person I have ever met and it reflects on her clothing lines. I have her love for fashion and she tries to involve me as much as possible In her work as I want to take over as my future career. And although she won't say it she wishes she had a skinny pretty daughter to model and dress up like a doll.

We pull up to bens house and ever since we where 12 me and Ben have hated each-other It all started over him accidentally breaking the breaks my bike and not telling me and there was a hill we used to ride down and well hill+no breaks= disaster and yeah we haven't liked each other since he tried to kill me. It's now snarky comments to each other death stares and arguments but he is for some reason Kane's best friend and they have been since no age so sometimes I have to not be a total Bitch and remember that.

I see Ben approaching the car as I think of something to say that will piss him of.

"Ready to get your ass kicked Carson" Ben says cockily

"You wish Ben you said that last time and I beat your ass"

"I can assure you it won't happen again"

"Hi Benjamin" I say knowing he hates his full name

He looks at me as if to say shut the fuck up and says

"hi mong"

"Wow Benjamin you need to work on your insults mong.. really"

"Babe I don't have an insult bad enough to call you there's no such word in the English language"

"Will you two shut up I could do without this at 8 in the morning"

Me and Ben roll our eyes at each other and I decide to shut up and enjoy my last few minuets until going to school. We pull up and Ben and Kane get out shouting over to their football friends, I wait a few seconds and get out.

"kenzie I'll see you later okay.."

"Okay bye.." and then I was left on my own I slowly walk towards the doors looking up at them I sigh and head inside.

I start walking down the hallway and conversations turned into whispers as they did everyday.. I walked to my locker which was so beautifully placed by the popular bitches corner and try my hardest not to get noticed before heading to class.

"Look who it is it's fatty kenzie" I look up to see Lauren she is the schools satan a proper full of herself Bitch we used to be really good friends in middle school but with her popularity and my lack of popularity we are now not. She once made the marching band following me round all day and you know in old cartoons when Orchestra bands would play when elephants walked I will say no more.

"Hi Lauren thanks for gracing me with your presence now leave"

"No I think I'll stay... you know what the best part of high school is that I can get whoever I want boys like Kane and you can't even get a friend"

"Well considering Kane is my Brother and that is a bit weird I really couldn't give a shit" I say I smile and Walked off

Sometimes I am proud with what I come out with to stand up for myself but other times I will run of crying and feel like a total coward.

I walk to my home room with everyone staring at me and giggling what the hell is everyone's problem I roll my eyes and walk to my desk I look around and sit down. As soon as I sit down the chair breaks and My ass went through the seat, I look around and see everyone laughing and a few people recording.

"Fatty kenzie broke the chair" someone shouts

I've never felt so small I felt the walls closing in I felt like I was suffocating drowning I tried to get my breathing under control before I got up and ran out of the room. I wish I was invisible I wish I could leave without anyone knowing I existed but it's impossible as much as I am irrelevant I am not invisible this school and everyone in it is trying to blend in be normal but it means putting anyone different down and I don't fit in I'm different I'm not Normal and I can't deal with the constant resentment from everyone I see.

I try not to let it get to me because if I do I will fall into darkness that is difficult for me to get out of if I had someone who understands me to be with all the time I think I would be able to get through school a bit easier I guess what I'm trying to say is I need a friend.

But who would want to be friends with me.

I run down the hall and hide in the toilets before I can even make in inside the stall I fall to the ground and cry I sit there wondering why me why have I been forced to live this life I just want to be left alone to live my life and in those few moments is when Everything changed for me, I realised that I can change everything and in those few moments I was given something to do so.

"Mckenzie?"

I look up and I'm shocked to find the answers to all my problems...