1 Lucy!

Lucy was sitting up in the side of the bridge crying out all her problems and distress. 

She looked up to the heaven but instead she saw the moon shone so bright up in the sky.

It was like mocking her!

Lucy looked down at the water, it was like inviting her to jump again.

How many times did she tried to end up her pitiful life by jumping off in this stupid bridge?

Five?

Ten?

ahhh. .She even lost count of it! someone would actually fish her out and woke up in the hospital bed the next day.

She cried again.

" Why you don't want me to die?"

She sobs heartily.

"I'm fucking tired, don't you know?" 

She was pointing up in the sky like crazy.

"Why you don't want to accept me? Just let me die please!"

"No one wants me! My boyfriend for eight damned years just conned me, he took all my money. .and my stupid boss just fired me. .look at me!" She's banging her chest. 

"Look at me I'm just a beggar" 

And besides of being a beggar she was now a fugitive, wanted for a crime she did not even commit.

She was already convicted even before she could prove herself innocent. This is how cruel the society is, people with powers will step those who are weak.

And those stupid authorities, for the sake of their names they have to get someone who could be a scapegoat regardless whether innocent or not.

She also remembered the frowned on the doctor's face in the hospital where they brought her every time they fished her out in the river.

"If you still dare to come back next time, I will lock you up in Asylum!" 

The thought of it made her shiver.

 "I would rather die than being locked up in there! That's another way of being in prison, what's the difference?"

She sobbed again.

"Where should I go, Should I dig my own grave?"

She was already tired of running but the horrible thought of it made her scared. 

"Miss. .what are you doing here?" 

He suddenly heard someone spoke. He's drunk, a stink of alcohol was all over him. The man burps as he was trying hard not to throw up.

"Its none of your business. . Go away!" She said angrily.

"Whaaat. ." He could barely speak properly. " I came. . Here you. .you know why?"

"I don't want to know its none of my business!" 

She snorts. Talking to him it such manners make her think that she's the one who's really drunk.

"I come here. .to end. .to end" burp. .burp. . "End my rife!"

He said in a drunken voice only one year old could understand. She frowned, this bridge is really famous for people who want to end their pitiful life.

Lucy saw him bent over the bridge. She gives a discreet laughed.

"He's crazy!" 

She shook her head when she remembered.

"I'm just as crazy as he is, anyway!"

"Whire. .yer er. ." 

He forced all the alcohol in his mouth until he choked and almost throw up.

"Ye want to. ." Burp. "To jump?" 

She looked at him, Confusedly.

"Rets. .jumped together" 

He smiled at her. He's handsome. .his eyes are full of loneliness. .

His face. .

"Oh, wait! Why does he seem so familiar?"

Did I see him somewhere? That's impossible! She immediately dismissed her thought, why would I associate myself with his kind?

"What a wasted ass!"

He suddenly grabbed her hands.

"What the heck are you doing?"

When she looked at him, she realized that he's already sitting one scale away from her. 

"Its. .lonely to be arone. .you come with me!"

"What. ?? You're crazzzyyyyyyy!" 

She was struck in horror but it was too late for her to react and panicked as he dragged her along with him and jump off. 

Lucy's scream echoed in the deep of the night. 

"You said you want to die?" 

Her inner thoughts asked. 

"Yes!" 

She closed her eyes tightly.

"I'm really going to die this time?"

She heard a steps walking back and forth and a soft whisper, She slowly open her eyes. Everything is white, she thought she finally died and by some luck she went to heaven.

She smiled happily at the thought of it, her brows wrinkled when she felt someone staring at her.

Lucy suddenly open her eyes only to be frightened by a doctor.

 "I did not die?" 

"Unfortunately not!" 

The doctor gives a sour gazed into her. 

"I'm going to locked you up in the asylum if you dare to come back!"

The voice of that doctor echoed in her head that gives her a goosebumps. she shook her head wildly to dismissed her scary thoughts.

"Your boyfriend is also alive!"

"Boyfriend. ?"

She snapp and asked confusedly. 

"Oh that bastard!" She said angrily when she remembered. "If I will see him again, Im going to make sure, he won't see the sun anymore!" 

She gritted her teeth and crumpled the bed sheets tightly.

She was discharged or shall we say thrown out of the hospital when she refused to leave, she stayed there for three days and already use all kinds of "aches" just to stay a little longer but the doctor insists that she's healthy and threatened her to send in a psychiatric ward instead.

Lucy walked out in the hospital without a choice. The temperature outside was so damn cold that makes her feet cramps.

She saw a park and sits in the swing. The wind blows and the snow begun to fall. She stood up with a wretch heart and went home.

Her home is one tiny room, it is decent enough to a poor like her. She cried again, she lay down in her bed with her tummy growling. She drinks a glass of water on her side table, instead.

It only took five minutes before her visions become doubled and finally doze off.

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