1 Prologue 1: Exhaling The Last Breathe

"No pain anymore! No sensation apart from drowsiness!"

That was the last thing I felt when I exhaled my last breathe, as my eyes closed down with a blurry vision.

Even at the last moment of my life, I can't believe I was dying just like that.

Without experiencing the thrill of a youngster, without experiencing the Oldage or severe disease and most of all without experiencing the love.

Well, talking about love, I did fall for one. But it wasn't mutual. And so here I am...

I fell in love with someone I shouldn't have and my only retribution was D.E.A.T.H.

Only now I'm realising how naive and childish I was being! I held onto my stupid obsession for so long that I ignored the only person who loved me... for who I am.

Now I wish that if only... I can get another chance... If only I get one.... I'll cherish that guy to the end of earth. I can't promise to fall in love with him that instant, but I'll make sure that he stays safe and healthy.

I don't want that idiot to get sick again or becoming miserable... because of me.

Because of my stubbornness... my unwillingness to admit defeat.... my ego.... and my stupidity.

Why? Why am I realizing this now? Why at the end of my life? After everything had already happened?

Deren... I'm so Sorry. Because of me, you lost your sanity. I shouldn't have ever used you to satisfy my ego. I shouldn't have!

I should have left you go.... or at least my obsession on that person...

It was just that I grew obsessive over him when he was the only one who stood by my side when I needed someone after my mother's death.

"Even if you feel that no one wants you, remember that I'll never fall in that 'no one'. I'll always be there for you to protect you and love you, Jenny."

Those sweet words were said by him to me when he was consoling me. That time those words were so soothing to me... But those same words became a dark beast inside of me, luring me to fall in love with that guy and making me commit all sorts of things to get his attention.

Only now... at my death bed, I regretted it.... so much!

My obsession separated me away from that guy... But also gave me Deren who cherished me, loved me and supported me with anything that he could do with.

But still... at the age of 21... I'm breathing my last.... even though... even though I don't want to end everything like this.

Oh God, please forgive me. Just this once... Please.

Please let me redo everything.... Please.

I don't want to... die with regrets.

But in reply, I felt nothing but got enveloped in endless darkness. I felt like I was falling from somewhere high... and for quite some time.

And then... which seemed like millions of years, my falling back finally touched something, as my fall ended.