1 Not Good Enough

You were a popular individual. Your parents were top heroes and you were now in the spotlight to become a top hero. Therefore, you got into U.A. with a plethora of recommendations. You were often compared to Shouto Todoroki because of your raw power and ability. By being the opposite gender, it was natural to get "shipped" with him by the class.

It was also rumored that his father, Flame Hero Endeavor, approved of you. It wasn't said explicitly but in events during the Sports Festival, he implied that you and his son would do great things together.

Your quirk was called "Aura". You can channel your emotions and aura (along with others' emotion and aura" to create armor and super-powered punches, kicks, etc. You were definitely a fighter. You were the only girl that had gone through training before attending school.

Just like Shouto, your father had trained you in mastering your quirk but he was a lot nicer than Enji. You really did come from a good home. In class 1-A, you made tons of friends with the exception of Mineta. The little guy made you feel really uneasy and it didn't help that he was always trying to look up your skirt.

Your best friend was, of course, Shouto. You both shared the same burden of being put on a pedestal for greatness. Bonding came naturally. During some of your conversations during any sort of recess such as lunch or to dorms, Shouto would tell you that your classmate, Katsuki Bakugo, would stare at you a lot and would try to show off and be fancy with his quirk.

You had thought it was a coincidence because you knew Bakugo-Kun to always show off. It was just apart of him to act like he's better than everyone else. How could someone like him be attracted to you?

Katsuki liking you back gave you a glimmer of hope on the inside. A crush liking you back was something you felt only happened in movies and cheesy romance novels. You had only exchanged a few words with him but you observed a lot of his personality from being in the 1-A friends' circle.

His quirk seemed generic at first but you saw the way he handled himself. He was definitely pro material. Not only was he talented, his raging always made you giggle and laugh. You didn't know why but what's funny is funny.

He was kinda cute as well. His spiked hair and red eyes were to die for. It was so easy to imagine yourself with him while you were in private. Sometimes, you would daydream, looking out the window, thinking about Bakugo. Your imagination ran wild. Having him confess to you when you were alone. It was blissful.

The reality was that your father and Shouto's father would compromise on an arranged marriage if you couldn't find a boyfriend your father approved of. You hoped that maybe things could change. Shouto didn't mind though, of course, he would never tell you. He had an attraction to you of his own right but he knew that you could never truly return his feelings.

On the other side, Bakugo was plotting. He had been for a long time. He had to tell you how he really felt. You were too close to "icy-hot" and the "Shouto-(y/n)" ship didn't fly with him. He tried his best not to show his anger for Mina's teasing because he'd indirectly confess before he felt ready.

Kirishima gave Bakugo some tips on how he could confess. His first idea was to visit her dorm at night and leave a letter. Bakugo declined.

The second idea was to tell you in person after classes had finished. He declined.

The third idea was to take you out on the weekend and do it then. He also said no.

So, how was he supposed to do it? That was just the tip of the iceberg. He was out of luck on what to do. No idea suited his style. Until one night in the dorms.

Mina and Momo put together plans for game night. It was an off-day and you guys spent the day doing indoor activities. At the end of the night, everyone was tired and talking amongst themselves. Bakugo wasn't talking to anyone. He was just watching you.

Icy-hot was trying so hard to flirt with you and from what it looked like, you were going for it. The way you laughed at what he was saying, the whispering, the casual arm touching, and contact. Not to mention, you didn't have so ordinary pajamas on. After the game night, you were going to poke around for a little, so instead of skimpy pajamas, you were wearing a beautiful cherry blossom kimono. It ended at your thighs so you were able to show off your thigh-highs. You took inspiration from Kimetsu No Yaiba. The female Hashiras were so pretty to you.

The two of you were dating. You had to be. Even the class thought you were dating. Why were the two of you so close? Why did you have to touch him? Your thighs were touching. Was he not impressive enough? Was Bakugo not good enough for you? Why were you giggling so hard? Surely, Shouto wasn't that funny.

These questions just ate at him. He didn't even realize how much time had been passing. It was about 2 am. Normally, Bakugo would have gone to bed around 8 pm. This was very unlike him. Was he really ruining his perfect sleep schedule over you? Luckily, Shouto informed you that he was getting sleepy and would take it in before you. You were sleepy as well but had decided to stay in the living space. You wanted to take some snacks in your room before bed.

When one does it, the rest are soon to follow. One by one, everyone had scattered until it was just you and Bakugo. He was too attractive, you could never look him in the face while alone.

You yawned. "Ara~ Baku-chan. I'm extremely tired. I'll be off to bed, now." You stood up, adjusting the length of your skirt. Bakugo had only grunted in response until you turned away.

"Why Icy-hot?" He was also standing now. You didn't quite catch what he said. "Hm?" You tilted your head, smiling warmly at him. He hated that. He hated how smug you were sometimes.

"You heard me. Why Icy-hot?" He questioned harshly. From watching you, he noticed all of the smallest things. He suspects that you do, indeed, have feelings for Shouto and he's doing no good job of covering it up either.

"Why? Like, what? Is Icy-hot supposed to be Shouto?" You asked. "Well, that's clever, I supposed. Are you asking why I chose him to be my best friend? It's a bit...personal." You giggled at your own rambling.

"No-" Katsuki blurted out, cutting himself off at the sound of his uneven voice volume. "I know you're dating icy-hot, okay. I don't know what you see in him but..." his mouth was dry. Was he really going to confess to you right now?

"Me and Shouto?" You repeated, wondering what else would come out of his mouth. "We aren't dating. That's absurd, Baku-"

"Cut the crap, (y/n)! You can stop lying to me now. I don't know if you wanna fucking protect my feelings or what. I never asked you to do that shit. All this time, I would do so much for you and you never even gave me a thought. At the sports festival, I made sure to beat that Icy-hot freak so that I could give you a chance. I took that stupid internship with Best Jeanist so that I could impress you. Anytime you wanted extras at lunch, I gave them to you. On the train, I would give up my seat for you." Katsuki put a hand on his head to silence himself.

What the fuck was he saying?

You did notice that Katsuki would have your back, but you just felt like he was being nice. I mean, you were THE (y/n) (l/n), Aura Guardian, and daughter of two notable heroes. Who wouldn't do nice things for you? But you failed to notice that random nice gestures weren't Katsuki Bakugo's style.

"Bakugo-Kun, what are you trying to say? I don't understand." You frowned at the ruined atmosphere. Why was he so angry? You always thanked him.

"I...I FUCKING LIKE YOU, OKAY?" Bakugo shouted, surely the others heard. Who wouldn't have? His raise in octaves pierced your sensitive ears. No one has ever yelled at you like that, nor anything that nice.

"Y-You like me?" A dusted pink tint covered your cheeks. Maybe crushes liking you back wasn't something that just happened in movies?

"Yeah, I fucking said it. I like you and all you do is ogle over a dumbass like half and half! What the fuck does he do for you that I haven't done ten times over?"

You took in this information, piece by piece. His emotions, the words he was saying. It was just... a lot.

"I-I like you too." You said, nervously. Your voice was significantly quieter than this. "Everyone does nice things for me, so when you were doing favors for me, I just thought it was you having my ba-"

"Shut up!"

You were stood there, startled like a deer in headlights. "You think I believe that crap? I'm not good enough for you. I'm not good enough for anybody. I got captured by villains, fucking, twice, I failed the licensing exam and needed to do it over, I put an end to All Might. I just fuck everything up!"

"No, Katsuki, you don't..fuck...everything up." You cringed at yourself for using such foul language. "You don't have to blame yourself for All Might, he knew what he was getting into. You don't even have to blame yourself for being captured. Nothing is your fault." You reassured him, moving closer. "I'm deeply sorry for ignoring you. It was just hard for me to believe that you would like someone like me. Legitimately. I don't have a boyfriend because I've always run onto partners who just see me as an asset." You explained.

You really didn't expect to open up to him.

'Well, you're fucking not. You're a lot more but that doesn't explain why you been all over that freak. What the fuck does he have that I don't? HUH?"

He raised his voice again, causing you to back off a bit. Now, he was realizing that he was pushing you away. You returned his feeling but why was he still angry?

Was he upset that you were clueless? You had a good reason but he was still angry.

"Shouto isn't a freak! We're just friends and he knows that. We just share a similar history and when I came here, he was familiar to me. No one can understand having everything you want and still being unhappy. My father is friends with his father. They have the same way of thinking. I was kept away from my siblings, my mother, and any friends I made to just train and master my skill. I felt to e-empty." You whispered, your eyes were glossy from holding back tears.

Shouto was the only one who understood.

"You can trust me, idiot!"

Now it was your turn to get angry. "And how was I supposed to know? You do all of these nice things but you barely say anything to me. You could just be another person trying to get close and use my name for leverage." You spat, but your voice was still quiet. You could never ruin your vocal cords with meaningless screaming. Not now, anyway.

"I-" Now Katuski was out of things to say. You had good reason to not associate with him. You had every right to be with Shouto instead of him. You guys were just... made for each other, ya know? Quirk marriage babies just seem to get along swell.

Was that just their thing? If they're made right then they get all the sympathy points? Attractive, untouchable, powerful, tragic backstory and is just better than everyone. It fucking sucked that he couldn't relate to you or comfort you in any way. He just fucked things up and a possible relation with you was beginning to be one of them.

"Don't say anything." You used the long sleeves of your kimono to dry the tears before they could spill out of your eyes. You told yourself that you would never soil your perfect skin with salty angel tears.

"I'm sorry for getting emotional. This isn't about me. You were just upset that I didn't acknowledge you the way you did me. I did appreciate you very much. I can say that now that I know how you truly feel, I can make a decision." You informed him.

"What? What the hell are you talking about?" Katsuki asked. By this time, you could hear birds chirping and the sun beginning to rise with the black of night turning dark blue.

"My father told me that he would marry me off to Shouto if I couldn't find a partner he approved of. I was hoping that maybe I could give us a try." You muttered with a smile, playing with loose strands of your hair. You never asked anyone out but this felt good. It gave you a rush of excitement.

Katsuki's eyes widened. Were you really...?

"Ah, shit, I really gotta get some sleep. I'm not thinking straight." He told you before swiftly walking by. He even made sure not to brush you when you went by. He hasn't been up this late before. Surely, he was dreaming. He had to be.

"Baku-chan." You called, reaching out for him but your arm fell short. It was better to let him sleep off the anger. You forgot about your snacks and went to bed. That was so emotionally exhausting. You had so many mixed feelings.

Bakugo confessed to you but also kinda rejected you? Well, he didn't say no but there was no 'yes' as well.

You just decided to get to your room and sleep for the night. Maybe you both were just tired.

In the morning, Mina came to wake you up as usual while Momo made breakfast with Ochaco and Toru. You were asked to help but you weren't too experienced in things such as cooking and cleaning. It was usually done for you, but you gave it a try.

The boys were doing morning stretches so you didn't see Katsuki at all. Honestly, it made you nervous. You had been cutting fruit when the boys came back to eat before class. No one showed you how to but you were kinda figuring it out. You cut enough for everyone when you came to the conclusion you wanted more so when breakfast was being served, you went to cut yourself some more when someone had entered the kitchen.

It was Katsuki. He was returning his dishes to the sink. At the sight of you, he was visibly moved and didn't speak first. You figured that you should be nice until the awkwardness went away.

"Good Morning!" You greeted him cheerfully, raising the knife instinctively. "Would you like some more fruit? It's fresh and seems to be quite alright." You said, referring to the sweetness.

"Shut up." That was all he said. "Oh-" You raised your eyebrows and cut yourself off when you had processed what he had said. "You're cutting it wrong." He added. "Who the fuck holds a knife like that? You're gonna cut your damn fingers off."

He put his dish in the sink and went over to your side of the table, taking the knife from you and swiftly dicing the pineapple you were dicing before.

"Oh, thank you." You said quietly, blushing from the embarrassment of needing him for such a simple task. You took some ate in silence while he stood there, a bit dumbfounded.

Why the fuck were you blushing? And why did you look so cute? He fucking hated it.

"About last night..." You swallow what you were eating and looked down. "I'm sorry for pushing my feelings onto you like that. You were pouring your heart out to be and I was being insensitive." You sighed.

Why were you the one apologizing? To him, you asked him out and he was too emotionally immature to realize what he was really getting angry about. Katsuki dropped the knife on the table. As you spoke to him about how sorry you were, his eyes traveled from yours to your lips.

This was it. He could fix his mistake. Why do you have to apologize for how he acted? Your voice was like white noise when he moved in to roughly press his lips to yours. Your lips were sweet just like the pineapple you had. He loved it so much. He grabbed your face by your chin and squeezed lightly as he went deeper.

Wait? Was Katsuki Bakugo really kissing you right now? How did this happen? Why?

You placed your hands on his chest, pushing lightly and signaling him to stop. He moved away and was surprised by what happened next.

"Katsuki!" You cried out, signaling for the others to come to investigate your scream. "Shit!" Katsuki yelled, jumping away from you with a huge blush on his face.

'the fuck did he just do?

Toru reveals herself, and Mina had also come out of the woodwork. "Wow! He actually did it!" she cheered. Kiri came into the kitchen too, giving Katsuki a thumbs up. "I knew you had it in you, man."

"You guys knew Katsuki would kiss me?" You cried, trying to hide the red in your face. "Well, no. We didn't think he would kiss you, but I've never seen Bakugo eat so fast after you went into the kitchen. Clearly, it was to get some alone time with you." Mina explained. You glanced at Katsuki, his face turning a deeper shade of red when your eyes fell on him.

"GODDAMIT!!" He yelled out. "STAY OUT OF MY DAMN BUSINESS!!" He yelled at the others.

Shoto was in the other room, enjoying his breakfast with a smirk on his face. He knew acting close to you would get under his skin.

After a bit of teasing from your friends and yelling from Katsuki, everyone cleared out and did their own thing. That left you alone with Katsuki again. You felt so disconnected from him. The kiss said he liked you but then pulling away signified otherwise.

"Why did you kiss me, Katsuki?" You asked, eating the leftover fruit from the cutting board. There was a brief moment of silence between you two before he answered.

"I fucking like you, okay?"

This made you gasp. It was making sense now.

'I...I FUCKING LIKE YOU, OKAY?'

He was just bad at returning the feelings. You smiled at him and gave him a big hug. You could his men's body wash through his shirt mixed with a tiny bit of sweat from morning exercise. Or maybe the sweat was from being so nervous around you. Who knows.

Katsuki just grunted in response, thinking of how he could replicate without seeming desperate. The boy was a bit touched starved. The only contact he got from a girl was when his mom would smack him.

"If you wanted to get to know me, you could have just asked. I told you last night. I like you too, Katsuki. It was just hard for me to tell you that you felt the same. I was being dumb." You admitted, snuggling into his chest a bit more.

This made Katsuki frown. "You were being dumb, idiot. It's not like I made it easy for you. I just didn't want to tell you how I felt when you and icy-hot were all buddy-buddy. Then I would've been the idiot."

You giggled. "Maybe you are the idiot for worrying so much about him." You could hear a quiet 'tck' come from Katsuki at the irony of you calling him an idiot.

After that, the school day was normal. You were tired from staying up so late, so Katsuki insisted that you spend the evening in his door to 'make sure you don't go late-night snacking' and ruin your sleep schedule with your bad eating habits.

His room was neat and cooler than you thought it was. Knowing him, you thought it would be messy, hot, and bothering but it seems like he was brought up in a good household. It made him attractive. He was skilled in cooking and keeping up a basic room. Definitely husband material, but maybe it was a little too early to be thinking about that?

"Did you bring something to sleep in?" He asked, firmly but politer than usual. You nodded. "Yeah, I did."

He replied with a grunt. "I need to shower so just wait here or whatever." He instructed before disappearing into his bathroom. You used this as a time to get changed, being too awkward to change in front of him.

While the shower was going on, you let your eyes wander around the room. He had a few All Might things it was very minimal. He was clearly a fan. This only made excitement grow inside of you. You would really be cuddling with Katsuki! At least, you hoped it would get that far.

When some time pasted, Katsuki came out of the bathroom, dry and dressed with the exception of warm water droplets around his neck. All he wore was solid black joggers and he looked good.

"'The hell you lookin' at?" You commented, using his towel to get the remaining water. "You." You answered, teasing him. "You look good!" You added, giggling as well.

A cloud of light pink dust covered his cheeks. "Shut up..." He replied but it wasn't as harsh as he would usually say it. You patted the empty spot in bed next to you, telling him that it was okay to sleep together. He complied and you immediately scooted closer to him and laid down.

"You're very kind for letting me sleep here. But there is no need to regulate my late-night eating habits. I think you just want me here." You squinted your eyes at him, letting him know you were onto his ideas.

The two of you were so close...you could kiss him. When he laid next to you, he was ever closer. He faced you as well. You tried to be smooth and steal a kiss, inching closer and closer...

Were you really doing it? Were you really going to kiss Katsuki first?

This is all Katsuki had dreamed of in the past 4 months.

You peppered his face with kisses, but it was clear you were in a sleepy state. Your body was giving out on you.

"Fucking sleep, idiot." Katsuki spat with a huge blush on his face. He was still trying to be a tough guy. You said nothing and giggled, drifting off to sleep.

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