"I love you"
Said the girl in front of me.
The beautiful girl that I've know for a long time.
The kindest girl I've ever known, her face is stern, nervous and shy, but even so, she faces me Bravely.
In that moment it was as if time had stopped.
My body wouldn't move, not even to breath.
My eyes shift to her beautiful face but my mind goes numb.
There's something I'm afraid of.
Something darker than the bottom of the ocean
Something I won't face head on.
The silence swallows the both of us, even the sound of wind is sound clearly.
Her face shifts to sadness as the light disappears.
And still, I don't know what to do.
And then, the words come out.
The words I shouldn't have said.
The words that I would regret for all of time.
At that moment she was shook.
The saddest I've ever seen her.
And at just one glance, my heart shattered.
The pain is too much…
Then she turns away, suddenly running away, tears streaming down her face.
I hate myself.
I hate myself.
I want to stop her but my body won't move.
I walk home, a sadness hanging over me, full of emptiness.
In my room I can't stop thinking about it.
Then, at my limit, I hit my head against the wall as hard and as fast as possible.
Then I let out a silent scream.
I regret those words.
I regret hurting her feelings.
I'm so fucked up.
I'm so sorry that I hurt your feelings.
I can't face you again.
From now on I'll never meet you again.
We will just be strangers.
The close relationship that we had for such a long time, in ruins.