In The Edge of Sanity

When I opened my eyes, it felt like I was dropped from the edge of a cliff, splashing into the oceans. My body was heavy, and I couldn't move.

My mind was in scramble, nothing seemed to make sense and for a moment I felt insane.

Where am I?

I should be

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"It's a girl."

A male voice brought me back from insanity, my eyes shifted to look at a black haired bearded man holding my whole body with his arm. His eyes were blank and hollow, as if he wasn't alive.

"Good, we can use it."

A menacing looking lady with lavender hair and crimson eyes came into my line of sight, her dark face looking at me as if I'm a trash.

"Put it in a room next to Camulos's. Leave it be." The lady commanded a maid on the edge of the room to take me.

Gently, the emotionless maid took me in her arm, and then slowly but steadily left this room.

The cold arm calmed me from panicking, but dread filled me as I realized that I was reincarnated.

~~

I don't know how long I've been here. Time seems to go weirdly, it seemed like I haven't seen that maid who put me here for years, and in the back of my mind I realized how weird of a baby I am to not need any sustenances.

It was so cold, and there is nothing that can distract me from my thought.

The voices slowly pulled me back into the darkness, I felt myself falter. It was blaming me for killing them, saying that I was the cause of every bad things.

Then I heard the door creaks, my eyes shifted quickly to the newcomer, trying to distract myself in any way possible.

It's a young boy, fluffy hair black as midnight, eyes red like blood. His face is pale, covered with barely visible freckles. Its obvious that he has a western lineage, but his slightly slanted eyes showed a little asian heritage.

His emotionless eyes scanned me from my head to toes, it wasn't cold like that maid nor evil like that lady. Suddenly his hand touched my cheeks gently, his warmth spreading throughout my body.

That second he touched, the darkness that lingered in the back of my mind diminished. After all those dread, coldness, and anxiety, I felt warmth.

My eyes teared up, but I didn't let the tears fall. My small chubby hand trembling as I use every strength I had to touch the big hand that envelope me with this feeling.

The boy eyes ever so slightly widen with confusion before pity flashed in his eyes.

That moment ended so fast, and he quickly left the room, and I felt desperate to see him again.

I need to see him again.

~~~

I was a year old when I found out who he is, Camulos the son of the couple who adopted me.

From what I heard, his parents or our parents are Duchess Ebony Reins and Duke Raven Reins, a high ranking noble in our country.

He's a quiet, cold and emotionless boy with talent of fighting and martial arts. He was given the title of "Commander Prodigy" for his leadership and fighting skills. His magic is not far behind from his fighting skill, a blood manipulation magic.

From what I can see he rarely talk and meet with his parents or people, always by himself, training or reading books.

Our parents (his) put a lot of expectations on him, always telling him what to do and giving him the cold shoulder all the time.

It was heartbreaking to see a young boy who should have been loved by his family, not receiving any love.

Out of a little sympathy and more of desperation of warmth in that cold house, I tried to keep myself close to him.

Since I was able to walk out of that room, I always followed him or try to find him.

We never talked, but I usually just sit quietly near him, dozing off and staring at nothing.

At first he keep gazing at me with a little confusion, but now he just let me be.

I don't know how to talk to him, or make a conversation with him. In the past I was a lazy introvert who'd rather be by myself.

One day, I courageously call him out of no where.

"N-Nii"

I've never tried to talk with my new body, so my voice came out stuttering.

His eyes shifted from his book, widening in surprise. Silence reigned between us, and I brave myself for the second time.

"Nii-Nii."

His whole body stiffen as if not knowing what to do, but his eyes soften at me.

His hand moved slowly to my head and the patting me gently.

It was the second contact between us that firmed my oath to forever protect this little guy.