3 Chapter 2: REALITY

Nicole's pov

" Three years later"

Reliving my life isn't something I'm fond of, more like constant nightmares and seeing the people and things I so desperately try to forget but still can't I mean HOW.

That was my thought as I sat up in my makeshift bed but still my bed to me in reality it was just a worn-out twin bed. You might be wondering why is she sleeping on that. wasn't she rich and all? Well, let's not forget the place I call my room and new how the attic of the pack house yeah pretty small but will do and the answer to your earlier question on why I sleep on a makeshift bed or worn out twin dirty bed and why I live in the pack house attic is because I have become an omega, not just any omega but the lowest yeah I don't know if it's a thing but this pack made sure it's a thing so now I find myself here and we'll that all happened when I started recovering there years ago after their deaths and after my 15th birthday.

FLASHBACK to after their deaths:

Opened my eyes and shut them right back with full force because of the bright blinding light, Gently opening my eyes again g slowly adjusting to my environment, hearing a beeping sound I failed to notice the first time, I looked to my right side and saw a heart monitor then realized I had an oxygen mask on that's when I started to panic and tried taking the darn thing off but no the IV in my hand just had to stop but also the bandage and the fact that it just registered to me that I'm in a hospital but I can't find my family anywhere, that's when it all came rushing back to me I'm an orphan now they all left me, they died right in front of me, why couldn't they just take me with them, why did I have to be the only survivor, why was the only one saved huh? Why did Nicolas have to push me away? Just why? Those were the questions running through my head but luckily for me before I went deep into thinking and cursing myself for being saved Lucia my best friend walked in and behind her stood my uncle who is my father's only brother, and his wife/mate and my beloved cousins James, chole, and sean seeing them I felt so relieved and slightly happy that (my only family left ) I still had a family that loved me but something within me was not sitting well but I just shoved it off.

Looking up at them I gave them a small smile moving my head slightly to the side motioning for them to have a sit. After sitting my uncle's wife/mate spoke "Nicole dear you'll be discharged today ok and you'll be moving into the packhouse with us and everyone else ok". Luckily for me, the doctor and a nurse came in before I could answer because I didn't know what or how to answer her even though it was just a statement and not a question.

Walking up to me the doctor smiled gently at me and started examining me while the nurse started writing on a clipboard I didn't even notice she had with her after the doctor who I got to know he's name is doctor smith Michael the pack doctor, he asked the nurse to take off the oxygen mask from my face as I stared at my emotionless uncle, chole and James who were looking like they were both forced here while sean my younger cousin was busying himself by playing the game on his iPad and my dearest aunty was looking at anything but me.

Staring at doctor smith who's busy explaining my oh-so-very convenient situation and how to take care of me as I am still healing from fresh wounds

I was brought some clothes to change into and my sweet dearest best friend helped me not so gently, after that we walked to meet my family ( uncle Bardon, and caroline, chole, James, and sean) in the waiting area. we left the hospital to the pack house on our way there the car was almost dead silent I mean if not for the sounds of sean's game noise but it's not so the low-humming sound you would have thought it was a graveyard.

Getting to the packhouse everyone left the car leaving me to fend for myself, getting down from the car I can already feel the harsh glares from the other pack members facing down I walked into the packhouse ignoring everyone that crossed my part because of the harsh glare that was filled with hatred, I looked for the room with my name tag on it as it'd been a while since I came here, I walked through different hallways (yes you heard me I said hallways because I just went through 2flight of stairs ) passing by the alphas office, the beta's office my father's office in the packhouse ), alphas family bedrooms, my late brother's old rooms here going straight to my room in the pack house,

I went inside seeing chole was already in there going through my stuff in the room picking and putting my things into boxes while I just stood there frozen and confused as ever, wondering what she was doing here as she was supposed to be in her room or anywhere else as she's a warriors daughter she's supposed to be downstairs right which is where her room is on the 2nd floor. I was so lost in my thoughts I didn't notice chole standing right in front of me until she spoke "HUH, sorry I wasn't paying attention" I said looking at her, while she just stared at me with utmost disgust while she spoke again" I said you see these things they're all mine now whatever I like in here I'm taking it all, its all mine now you disgusting murderer get lost this isn't your room anymore ok, I can't stand your filthy sorry ass self" I just stood there still rooted to my spot I know I and chole don't get along including me and her brother James, but how could she do this to me we were still family right?"Are you just going to stand there? moving it will you, you live in the attic now loser" she yelled while dragging me towards the opened door then stopped and turned to look at me then spoke "you see dear cousin you're all alone now you don't know what's coming for you now you poor little thing tsk tsk" A lone tear fell from my eyes while I just turned and walked away.

I got to the attic upstairs it was on the very last floor which only had a dark hallway, I open the rusty door I made that cracking noise the attic was likely a store room it was small and dusty, I walked in and saw an old beat-up sofa I sat on it and looked around me and started crying wondering how my life changed so fast. I don't know what howling I cried for but I could tell it was late as everywhere was now dead silent by the time I woke up from the nap I didn't know I took I was already panting so hard from my very first nightmare session, it just felt so real, I saw them I saw it all happen and I could do anything, they were calling my name telling me to run to save yourself. Fresh batch of tears flowed down my cheeks, I cried more and more unable to control myself, I missed them so very much I wish they were here, I'd never felt so alone before.

Guessing from the low rustling sound coming from outside it was already morning 'wow how long did I cry for ' I stood up and left the room and went downstairs for breakfast but instead I was dragged to the training ground outside the packhouse where I notice a lot of people have gathered and the person holding me harshly was my cousin, James who now threw me on the floor like I'm dirt, I notice the alpha and luna on a podium when they seemed to have noticed me the alpha motioned for James to put me on stage and then he spoke" Good morning my dear pack members as you can see over here stands our late beta's daughter who took my best friend and he's family away from us, we have concluded to give the beta position to his brother our head warrior Bardon McAdams and beta female to Bardons wife caroline McAdams and Nicole has been stripped down to an omega position .now please welcome our new beta to the stage" As he spoke I felt myself starting to tear up again ,he motioned for James to take me off the stage so I couldn't even here a thing my uncle was saying as the new beta

[Fast forward to the bulling part cos I'm tired and sleepy]

I was going up to my new room after taking care of the kitchen 'yeah am surprised they didn't let me mourn or rest till I'm all healed up' anyway I felt someone pull me back from my hair while I whimpered coming face to face with chole and her friend's kylie and Bianca and surprisingly Lucia my own best friend " well would you look at that its the murderer, I can't believe they still let you live you should be dead like every single person who murderers people' chole said and scoffed," she doesn't even deliver to be an omega what a psychopath I mean c'mon who kills their own family " kylie said looked at me with disgust 'I guess that's the new look then' I thought while tears were forming in my eyes while I begged it not to fall, they all laughed while just pushed me and walked away. Running to my room with tears falling from my eyes and pack members snickering at me. I remember crying myself to sleep that night fully knowing this was just the start of my bullying, how could people be so cruel?

Being dragged to the cellar by my emotionless uncle whos now the beta, people watched as I struggled to get free from his holding as no one wanted to have to disturb him or have anything to do with me as this want the first time he's doing this. Getting to the cellar he threw me one of them and picked a whip from the table I didn't notice and started to hit me with it and started to yell as he hit me with it"you're just a low life now, a murderer, you took my only family left, you deserve to die, your worthless, a whore, when I ask you to do something you do it and you do it correctly ok, now what are you?" I was crying from the pain of the whip so I couldn't answer even if I tried to .so he asked again this time holding my jaw roughly with his hand "I asked you a question and if I with words ok do I make myself clear" he asked with a cold voice and emotionless expression, "yes sir "I whimpered ''what are you? you little brat answer me" he yelled while going to take a knife from the table "I am a murder I killed my family, I took your brother away from you, I never to die, I'm worthless, I'm a whore" I said even though I didn't want to but that has already been imprinted in my mind now, he cut my upper arm with the knife while I screamed in pain and blacked out the cause of the pain.