Sadness

One day Auntie told us the truth. that he's adopted. Auntie's sister has a boy but she's no more. so Auntie took the child with her at the age of 9 months. Now he's all grown up man. he's 20 n I'm 19 and I don't like to work out I'm like panda who always wants to sleep n just watch k- drama who always wears baggy clothes like I have 0 chances of him liking me back.

it's been 6 months n still I have no hope. I've got a job n I was so busy so I didn't even get a change to see him n this makes me feel so so sad 😢. After few months i leave the job n started freelancing work. But now he's working. sometimes I miss him so much I didn't even have his picture n he's not on social media.

Day be Dayy feelings are getting stronger n stronger but I have not guts to take any moves but I can't live without him too it's too hard for me

Now he's looking for a new job so I get to see him sometimes. I went to his house I wanted aloe vera he opened the door with a smile I smiled back n ask him for aloe vera n he quickly go to his plant to gete one his sleeveless black tshirt makes him look more hot n when he flex his hand to cut the aloe omg I forgot to breathe And I started looking here n there to divert my mind . It's really hard to control myself sometimes.