6 Tension

You feel like you want to

Throw up. Why?

Like the pleasant smell

Of the food you eat

Is really just trash.

You feel like trash.

Like you're trash.

And it's not true, you

Know it. Really.

You've done many

Awesome things,

Yesterday and today

And even tomorrow

You will. So why are you

This tired of being

Always happy and kind,

Always doing and trying?

Isn't it beautiful to be

Always good at it,

Whatever it is?

But those who lack

Seem to have so much fun,

Hating the people

They love deep in the heart,

And superficially talking

And thinking, all the day.

But you feel like

You're gonna explode,

Because your thoughts are

In a jar, they bounce run freely

But it became full, and started

To crack. The thoughts were

Merciless, I dare say.

And with nobody to share them,

How can you survive

The weight of your

Own consciousness?