4 Rough Tide

(flashback)

You're an attractive point.

Soh-ho never thought about how it would make me feel if he slept with another.

He drowned me in his affection, enough for it to actually curse me.

At least this is what I thought of it as, a curse.

Maybe it was just a change of form, I'm still growing anyways.

Though I knew this wasn't normal.

I asked him what he thought of me and why he didn't think twice.

He lifted his head and had a look of relief.

I wasn't enough.

I wasn't sufficient for love.

It drowned me, and I paid the price for being gullible.

He might not have known how much it hurt me.

He will never know.

Death works in chilling ways.

I walked until I couldn't anymore.

The waves felt warm.

They curved around my legs, my waist, my chest, and then there was nothing but floating tears.

It was calm.

It was slow.

It was dark.

It was an embrace that was unknown and accepting.

Moments in my life never went as easy as this.

Giving up, it was way too easy.

That day was a day where life threw it back at me.

Death let go of me and life is teaching me a lesson.

I should have never looked at you.

I should have kept to myself.

It was stupid.

It always is.

(flashback ends)