I watch Andrew as he disappears behind the closing door of the elevator, looking at his feet to avoid meeting my eyes.
I'm still standing motionless trying to process in my head what just happened. A part of me wants to run after him and explain everything to him and beg him to stay, but another part in me wants to remain still and don't move or spell a word.
For the first time in my life the voices in my head give me a break, my mind is quiet for a minute but still messed up though. I guess my demons are waiting for me to make a reaction, that's why they're silent.
They're watching me, studying me and they can't wait to see what my decision is. But they're wrong.
I got them, for real. Because I'm in no place to make a decision about this, I don't even know what's going to happen from now on. Andrew didn't tell me what's he thinking about.
What the fuck should I do now?