33 Chapter 32: My Everything

Fiona's POV

I didn't know what should I feel when I saw the woman I never saw for a very long period of time.

I stopped from walking and gone silent when I saw here standing at near the entrance door of my apartment.

After all these years that I've been trying to hide from everyone, they still kept on finding me on track. I never wanted to meet her especially now that I am being contented and happy the way how I live my life. She's the reason why I experienced all of this hardships that supposed to be I wasn't.

All the memories flashback through my mind as I saw her face clearly, walking towards my direction and I saw my most hated expression on her face.

If someone saw her then maybe they'll interpret that she looked pitiful and should give her help but I know that behind this kind of expression has the darkest personality you couldn't imagine.

"What are you doing here?" I asked. Trying myself to keep calm even though I felt that my voice were shaking.

"Fiona. How are you? Are you fine-"

"Just get to the point already. What do you want?" I asked calmly. I have to stop myself or else I may do something inappropriate.

"Can I borrow money? My daughter is in the hospital and she is sick. I don't know where to get money." The woman in front of me said, pleading.

"Then you can't get something from me because both of us had no money." I said and just walked away already. I walked so fast that I never cared where will my feet bring me. I don't know and I cannot count all the tears the escaped my eyes already.

I just kept and walking that I never realized that I already surpassed the front door of my apartment. I don't know where to go or maybe I'll just let myself get hit by a car in order to forget and let gone all the hatred and rage that I feel right now.

"Fiona. Hey, Fiona. Wait!" I heard Rojen shouted and ran towards me to stop me from walking.

He faced me to him and I saw how worried he is. I can see in his eyes the care and comfort that I needed and I just realized that I leaned myself on him and cried out loud.

"Cry it out loud or the pain will stay inside you." He whispered.

I started to cry in front of him and I just let him wrap me on his arms while I'm holding his chest. I felt so down and I really don't know what to do. All the memories that I forgotten came back in just a glimpse of time.

"Shh. Just cry it out. I know you need it." He said.

After about a couple of minutes, I stopped crying and get my hands off of him. I wiped my tears and just stay still.

I'm still shaking and getting fresh air to breath. I felt like my whole world got ruined again.

The time I thought she can't affect me anymore was just been my assumptions, 'cause when I saw her again, everything went on a flashback. This only shows that I haven't moved on yet on what she did to me.

"May I ask Fion who is that woman?" Rojen asked. I can sense a hint of worry on his voice.

It took seconds before I answered him. I was hesitant but he was the only one I had right now and I can't lie to him.

"She's my mother." I replied.

Shock registered on his face as he heard the word that he never expect that will come out of my mouth.

"But... But I thought you don't know who your mother is or you never met her in your whole life." He said with confusion.

"I don't know her. She's just my mother by blood but I don't consider her like one." I replied. My voice are still shaking but I'm trying my best to keep calm.

"I understand. Let's get out of here first. I have something to show you." Rojen said.

Confuse, but I just followed him.

We walked for about a couple of minutes until I cannot see any house anymore but just tall trees and green grass.

"Where are we going?" I asked with curiousity.

"Just follow me." He looked at me and smiled. I just nodded and touched his arms.

He stopped from walking and looked at his arms with cofusion.

"What? Anything wrong?" I asked.

"No." He said and continued walking forward.

I can hear the different sounds of nature and the cold breeze of the wind touches my skin which makes me feel calm.

He stopped and then stepped back until I just felt that he covered my eyes using both of his hands and guided me to walked forward.

"Hey. Where are we?" I asked. I felt a little bit excited, especially now that Rojen is here with me.

"Keep walking. I know you'll like this. We're near." He said.

We just kept on walking until I heard him counted to 3 and get his hands off of my eyes.

I covered my eyes a little because of the light that reflected through it. As I got used on the light, I saw how beautiful the place where Rojen brought me.

We are at the top of the hill for about hundred of meters in height. But when we are walking, I never felt that we are climbing already.

"This place is so beautiful." I whispered.

"Yeah."

"How did you know this place? I've been living here for how many years already but I never knew there would be a place such like this." I said, still looking at the beautiful scene in front of me.

I can see from here all the buildings, even the tallest one and all the cars that is on the street. It was so beautiful that from here, I can see the the other side of the mountain and the volcano that was been living for a thousand years.

"You liked it?" I heard Rojen asked.

"I loved it." I said. I never noticed the tear that escaped my right eye while appreciating the scene in front of us.

"I discovered this when I was still there from above. I told myself that once I got to step here on earth again, I'll go to this place. Until I met you, and got to know you, I never changed my plans but I wanted to bring you here. I know Fion that this wouldn't take all the hardships and sufferings that you felt ever since you've were born but I did this to help you ease the pain. I'm thinking this will help you feel calm." He said.

I just found myself hugging him already and cried out loud again. But this time, it's tears of joy. Because I never expect that I will have someone like Rojen to come into my life. I never expect that I can have someone to fill the empty space in my heart again. He makes me realized that he's my everything.

"Thank you." I whispered.