1 My life as it is now

It takes no more than a life to catch a wimp.

I don't know how I should start so I just said whatever crossed my mind...

Let me introduce myself, you can call me Rhenox, I am a 17 year old boy. I am kind of introvert. Don't go well with people and act awkwardly with them. I just say whatever cross my mind so It seems that I am rude to people.

I am afraid of all kinds of animals (maybe not mosquitos and fishs when they are in an aquarium..lol) due to an traumatic event that I had with a dog being young.

I am afraid of hurting people. Is it love? Or just a lack of affection? Sometimes I wonder.

And with girls I fall easily in love so I am very very shy. It's kind of awkward when I speak with them. And I'm afraid that or it's my dic* that takes control of me, or just I don't know enough of the person so I project what I want her to be on her. Just a vulgar fantasy.

Lately my quality of life was at the pure bottom. I went to sleep at 4, not eating much, not much exercising, being extremely bad at school, falling all my exams, not having any peculiar talent, no things I was good at or motivated. Not reading much, not going outside, and the worst of all... Having the kind of life where It's comfortable enough to not act and lay in bed all day without real motivation.

If I was smoking and drinking, I would have a full house.

But after watching a stupid series and going to sleep again at 4 am. IT'S ENOUGH! I want to live, not to cower in fear waiting for my death. I need to find back what's lost and pushes me forward in all situations... MY ANGER!

I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I love photography, writing story although I am shitty at drawing and writing. I used to love manga because it was an escape from my daily life but lately, the quality has been so poor that it just saddens me. But I want to help people, I still hope that humanity is worth saving. But to achieve my master plan, a new system of education that will grant a second chance to everybody that grasps it, no matter of it's intelligence, doesn't need to memorise pages and do useless stuff. He will experience a job first hand that will let him decide if it likes it or not.

Everybody can join, people who have a faculty and never could get a job even with studies, people that want to improve their life, people that want to ESCAPE their situation, people who came straight out of jail, homeless people, anyone who wants to have fun directly and still helping the society. Here, people no matter which social class they are from or bacground, they are treated as the same, they just have different stories that I encourage to tell so we can learn from each other mistakes.

But for this, I need money! And a lot on top of that... But not just that, I need to be important, well-known.

So let's make a bet.

The "me" currently writing these words will make a bet with everyone, the world, order, DESTINY !

After publishing this chapter, my words will be onnline and nothing in the entire univers could take them back. So it's now or never, I could never turn back down like in a fantasy story and still have the nice foolish girl with huge ti** in the end. It's real life motherfu****. It's jump or die, one chance, one opportunity. I can ever come back on my choice. Failure is my only motherfu***** option, failure is NOT.

In best case scenarios: I want to prove that even if your life is not worth living, don't have any form of talent. Are abused by everyone on a daily basis. You can still succeed if you don't give up.

Worst case scenario: I will fail and be an eternal bottom. People will forget me.

I have nothing to lose that I didn't arleady lose.

I just have a story to tell. No matter if I make bad or good choices. I need to do what's needed. I just hope I will not lie in the process. But... Well...everybody that went at least one day outside their houses knows the answer.

Listen to the man who wants to improve his realistic life in the real world where when you smile, fish comes from sky to slap you and you can be sure that a nazi will be behind the tree behind you to fu** you in your moments of weakness.

"life is a bit** and for the majority of people, puberty is the moment when you lose your virginity."

---Chapters will be released when I have things to tell and will be on updates on my choices to improve my life. - - - -