17 Believe.

Caution : this chapter contains some adult scene.

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It was Harry. he was in the picture, Alive. why did kai hide this from me and who's body did I saw in the basement. I was sure it was Harry as it's face were similar. I was so messed up with thoughts that I didn't realised that kai was out and walking towards me. when I came to me senses I immediately deleted the photo in which harry was behind. I was scared and confused. there were several thoughts going on inside my shitty head. do harry also had a twins or something, but as far as I know he shared everything with me and I know everything about his family so it's impossible that he had any twins.

I wanted to know why kai kept it hidden that harry was alive. I thought that it was his plan cause after all he is a mafia lord but I didn't wanted to judge him so soon. I was ashamed of myself and felt guilty and disgusting about the fact that I moved on from Harry so soon, the person I loved my whole life and accepted kai's proposal. I felt like a gold-digger.

I didn't realised that kai was standing infront of me staring will I was spacing out in my own world.

" The emptiness within you will disappear once you admit it to yourself that you are empty " kai said in a warm but deep, emotional voice.

I didn't knew how he came upto a conclusion just by reading my face. his words were peairsing me like a needle in my heart. I wanted to deny that fact but afterall I knowed that I was empty, from inside. his words were meaningful but empty themselve. he knew that I was not his and was not going to be, but he wanted me for himself.

" why do you like me so much and why do you think I am empty. " Arya in a smooth voice and fakely smiling towards kai.

kai with his hand on Arya's cheeks.

" other than your tanned skintone, black eyes and long hairs, small height, pretty but sexy face and body with those plumy lips there is something I like more, your confidence, courage, talent, voice, character, personality, boldness, silly, cheerful, caring, loving. I can go on and on."

I gave him a awkward smile. I wanted to believe him, he felt like someone I can trust. my mind told me not but again I trusted on my heart and told myself that lets see what happens, we will face it together.

" you know what sometimes I feel like you are tricking me but I can't help myself to fall deeper and deeper for you. please never ever hide anything from me that can harm our relationship " Arya with a cold but caring tone.

kai started coming towards me and was too close to my face. I could sense his breath and warm body. his hands were cold and were slowly graping my neck.

kai came near my ear and whispered with a soft voice " Can I kiss you ? "

I looked at him with a smile and he gently kissed me in the cold night. we could her eachother breath heavily, we were both in a heat. we were so carried away with the moment that we didn't realised how long it had been. his kissing was intense and he was using his tongue, It felt really weird but satisfactory. his hands were slowly entering my skirt. as we were going to sleep so I didn't weared bra and any safety pants under my skirt. I was barely wearing a small pink underwear. he was in his bath coat and I think he was naked other than the bathcoat. it was pretty intense and I was already turned on as it was my first time getting touched by a man like this. his kiss was getting intense and intense in every second. his hands were touching me and it felt really strange. I was losing myself and I think I had lost my mind in the very moment. he was kissing me on my neck, giving me hickeys all over my neck and collar bone. I was actually mourning though he didn't did anything but barely just touching. he suddenly pushed me and I falled on the bed.

" I'm really sorry, I think we shouldn't continue this. I was just too carried away with the moment and heat. I'm really very very sorry. I think you should sleep in your own room for today. ". kai with a very feared and dead face.

he looked strange. I understand that we were both carried away with the moment but this reaction was totally unexpected. he was faceless and confused. it felt like he remembered something from his past that made him do this.

I left the room by saying him that " it's okay, good night ". he said nothing but was staring intensely to the ground. I left the room with regret and teary eyes. I wanted to apologize but I ended saying nothing, maybe cause I was to scared or maybe i thought it was right for me to leave. but I ended up crying cause I couldn't comfort when he needed me, just like harry needed me.

I decided to go on investigating his stuff when we reach home and decide whether kai was hiding things from me or it was a coincidence or misunderstanding...

I slept in the bed staring from the window. thinking that maybe it was just me, the problem. But I still believe in Kai.