18 Just A Realisation

Today I had a strange experience on my way to college. With old strength and enthusiasm into the depths of the ocean of my memory after so many days in college, I found many people eager to ship me with other boys of my college.

Recently, I have found myself talking about relationships which I had wanted to avoid the most. Today Stephen was sitting beside me in the train when Allen took a snap of mine and his, eager to ship and named us "#potatoesforever".

I mean like, Seriously! What the heck! I really hate myself getting involved in such troubles. Especially troublesome relationships. In Fact they were teasing me with such talks which bothered me a lot...

I exchanged my seat with Allen and sat beside Lacy. Not only today. For many days I have been noticing that people are asking if I have any bf or not.

Oh! Just come on. Please don't waste time asking me such stupid questions already.. It really feels weird all of a sudden.

I was finally relieved when I reached college.

Poor Lacy was extremely ill. She had caught a common cold.

Our First class was Mathematics -My favourite class. Followed by Basic electrical classes. I just caught my head when I couldn't understand what he tried to teach today. Ugh! terrible feeling. The indescribable feeling when you are all ears yet you couldn't understand a thing. Lacy's health deteriorated further because of his way of making us understand the complexity of switches..

Luckily, the physics class arrived. I was all ears by that time but Lacy caught a fever. Her mental and physical constitution was so much disturbed that she could hardly write anything.

I whispered softly, tilting my head a bit towards her, " Take a rest for the time being, don't write anything. I will write it for you. "

She was so sick that she couldn't even speak clearly.

Finally, the break time had arrived. Lacy lost interest in having her lunch. I urged her to have some amount, only then she finally ate a little.

After that the most regretted class- The class where I need to stay with Sky.. and Haruto of course.

But to my surprise, it was fun to have him around. He knows quite well to pull pranks and annoy people. But not the way that would harm people.

He was actually acting out like our electrical professor and I acted out like a Physics professor when we had finished our writings.

I found another side of him- a funny side which makes people laugh. I wonder if there is any sorrow in his life which he couldn't share. Because most of the time I realise that I speak out to him about me - about what happened at the station, at home.

But I hardly hear or get to know anything about him. Although he speaks about him sometimes, it's on a very rare occasion. His identity and nature is mostly a secret to all.

I had realised that he didn't eat anything during his lunch time.

Earlier, I would scold him to have his tiffin or tell him to have my tiffin. Out of fear of having mine and spreading rumours, he would go to the canteen to have his fill. I knew him very well, so I had an excuse regarding giving him my tiffin. But now I don't know why his food habits are irregular. Sometimes he brings his tiffin and most of the time not. It really concerns me even more than keeping any form of relationship with him.

It's just a realisation..

But I have no intention of moving forward with him…