1 My second love

Hey guys Am Neha the author of this small book. This is the first time am writing a book on my own life tragedy which is one of the best part of life and even the darkest pages of life. So let's begin, I hope you guys like it

CHAPTER:1

I DIDN'T LIKE HIM

I HAVE HEARD PEOPLE SAY YOU DON'T USUALLY FALL IN SECOND LOVE ITS VERY DIFFICULT TO LOVE SECOND TIME, I HAD NO IDEA I WOULD BE THE ONE FACING IT. AFTER MY FIRST LOVE DITCHED ME 4 TIMES I'D NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD EVEN DARE TO LIKE SOMEONE, I WAS SCARED. I WAS CLOSE TO ONLY ONE PERSON IN THE WORLD AND THAT WAS MY BEST FRIEND WHOM I COULD TRUST WITHOUT EVEN THINKING. HE OBVIOUSLY KNEW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. ONE I MET HIS BEST FRIEND BY FLUK, HE INTRODUCED ME TO HIM ACTUALLY HE WANTED HIM TO MEET HIS CRUSH BUT THEN I MET HIM I REALLY DIDN'T LIKE HIM AT ALL I DIDN'T EVEN KNEW HIM BUT HIS FIRST IMPRESSION WAS REALLY BAD FOR ME. AFTER THAT I NEVER SEEN HIM AGAIN. I WAS IN 9 STANDARD ME AND MY BEST FRIEND YASH WERE IN SAME CLASSES ANS YASH'S BEST FRIEND ANAY JOINED OUT CLASSES IN BETWEEN THE 9 WE WERE JUST FRIENDS. I SPOKE TO HIM AS HE WAS YASH'S BEST FRIEND I HAD TO . HE WAS IN SOME OTHER BATCH SO WE DIDN'T SPEAK MUCH . ONE DAY WHEN I MET HIM AFTER CLASSES I JUST FELL ON THE GROUND IN FRONT OF HIM . IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING FOR ME .I STILL REMEMBER YASH ASKING ME WHETHER I WOULD LIKE TO DATE HIM. AFTER THAT INCIDENT WE RARELY SPOKE. YEAR PASSED ANS WE WERE IN 10. WE STARTED SPEAKING AGAIN AND EVENTUALLY................

CHAPTER:2

GOOD FRIENDS

EVENTUALLY WE BECOME GOOD FRIENDS AS WE WERE IN THE SAME BATCH. I STARTED SHARING THINGS WITH HIM (YA I THOUGHT HE WAS NOT THAT BAD HOW I THOUGHT). SLOWLY-SLOWLY EVEN HE STARTED TO OPEN UP. WE STARTED TO SOT TOGETHER. NOT BEST FRIENDS BUT WE WERE GOOD FRIENDS. MONTHS PASSED IT AND WE WERE BEST FRIENDS. I HAD HEARD HE WAS NOT NICE HE WAS A PLAYBOY AND STUFF BUT I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING BECAUSE HE WAS GOOD TO ME AND HE DID NOTHING TO ME. WHEN HE STARTED SHARING THINGS WITH ME HE TOLD ME HIS SECRETS THEN I CAME TO KNOW WHY PEOPLE USE TO SPOIL HIS NAME BECAUSE HE USE TO DO STUFF'S WHICH HE SHOULDN'T. HE WAS BIG FLIRT WHICH I DIDN'T KNEW. ONE DAY I WAS REALLY UPSET IN CLASSES AND I GUESS I WAS CRYING , YASH MY CALMING ME DOWN BUT I WASN'T COMPLETELY CONVINCED. THAT DAY HE WSS SITTING BEHIND ME AND HE STARTED MAKING ME LAUGH ANS I DID LAUGH . AND THAT COMPLETELY CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE TOWARDS HIM

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THE DAY HE STARTED FLIRTING

THAT DAY I STILL REMEMBER TO MAKE ME LAUGH HE STARTED FLIRTING WITH ME . HE BECAME TOUCHY. I STILL REMEMBER HE WAS DATING IN THE SUMMER. THAT TOUCH REALLY GOT ME ATTRACTED TOWARDS HIM , HE IS SO SEDUCTIVE. I REALIZED WHY GIRLS FALL FOR HIM. NOW EVERYDAY HE USE TO FLIRT. I USE TO STOP HIM BUT EVENTUALLY IT WAS TAKING ME CLOSER TO HIM BUT HE WAS DATING . I DIDN'T KNEW WHAT WAS WRONG WITH ME BUT SOMEWHERE OR THE OTHER AFTER MY FIRST LOVE I DIDN'T KNEW I WOULD FEEL SO DIFFERENTLY FOR SOMEONE ELSE. HIS FLIRTING INCREASED DAY BY DAY. YES I WSS CRUSHING ON HIM. I REALLY DIDN'T KNEW WAS IT ATTRACTION, WAS IT CRUSH, WAS IT LOVE BUT IN TOTAL I KNEW I WAS HAPPY AND COULDN'T STAY WITHOUT HIM.

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I EVENTUALLY TOLD HIM INDIRECTLY

LATER I STARTED GETTING CRAZY FOR HIM. ONE DAY HE CAME AND HE SAID HE BROKE UP LAST NIGHT. I WAS SO HAPPY (INSIDE IN MY HEART I WAS LIKE YIPPEEE). I CALMED HIM AND SAID ITS OKAY IT WAS JUST ATTRACTION NOT YOUR LOVE HE AGREED. HE STARTED REALIZING THAT I WAS CRUSHING ON HIM. I MYSELF REALIZED THST IT WASN'T ATTRACTION IT WAS LIKE, IT WAS CRUSH. I STARTED TRUSTING HIM. I NEVER OPENED UP AND TOLD HIM DIRECTLY BUT YA HE COULD FEEL I GUESS. WE WERE THINKING TO DATE INDIRECTLY BUT ONE DAY HE CAME AND HE SAID HE WAS DATING SOMEONE. I LOST ALL HOPES AND I THOUGHT WAS K LIVING IN A FAIRY TALE . AND LATER HE SAID HE WAS LITTLE SERIOUS ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP. I WAS UPSET BUT DIDN'T SHOW HIM , OBVIOUSLY I COULDN'T . I THOUGHT AT LEAST HE IS STABLE WITH SOMEONE. BUT HE USED TO FLIRT AND THAT LIKE CRUSH WAS INCREASING DAY BY DAY . I TOLD HIM FIRMLY TO STOP IT AND TOLD HIM CLEARLY I WAS GETTING ATTRACTED TO HIM. HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING AND CONTINUED IT AGAIN . I WARNED HIM, HE ACTUALLY WANTED TO HEAR FROM MY MOUTH THOSE THREE MAGICAL WORDS. I DIDN'T BECAUSE I WASN'T SURR EXACTLY WHAT I WAS FEELING.AND I REALIZED WHAT IT WAS......

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LOVE WAS IN THE AIR

ONE DAY I WAS IN CLASSES, I HAD BEEN CALLED BY THE HEADS OF THE CLASSES , THEY WERE SO ANGRY AT ME I WAS PUT INTO TROUBLE BECAUSE OF MY FRIEND BECAUSE OF HER MISTAKE WAS INTK TROUBLE, THEY YELLED AT ME. MY FAVORITE SIR SCOLDED ME SO MUCH. I HAD NEVER CRIED SO MUCB HOW MUCH I CRIED THAT DAY . I WAS EMBARRASSED BECAUSE EVERYONE HAD SEEN ME IN THE OFFICE THAT I WAS GETTING SCOLDED. THEY FINALLY LEFT ME AFTER TWO HOURS MY BEST FRIEND YASH CAME AND TOOK ME TO CLASS ANS MADE ME SIT BETWEEN HIM AND ANAY I PUT MY HEAD DOWN ON THE LAST BENCH I WAS CRYING CONSTANTLY. I COULDN'T HELD UP MY HEAD. ANAY TOOK MY HAD AND HOLD IT TIGHT EVEN YASH DID I HAD TWO PILLARS OF MINE AT BOTH THE SIDES. ANAY DIDN'T LEAVE MY HAND EVEN FOA A SECOND. HE UNDERSTOOD ME THAT I WAS NOT WRONG. I WIPED MY TEARS . AND FINALLY AFTER 2 HOUR THERE WAS BREAK HE BOUGHT ME WATER. I WAS FAINTING BECAUSE I HAD CRIED ALOT AND DIDN'T EAT ANYTHING. I WAS NOT READY TO EAT ANYTHING I WAS HURT. HE AND YASH LITERALLY FED ME LIKE A SMALL CHILD THEY HAD BOUGHT SOME GLUCOSE CHOCOLATE. YASH HOLDED MY NOSE AND ANAY FED ME LIKE A CHILD. I WSS INTO TEARS . IN THE WHOLE LECTURE I TREATED ME LIKE A SMALL BABY. IN THE BREAK HE LITERALLY KISSED ME AS THE LIGHTS WERE OFF. I WAS SHOCKED, HE SMILED AT ME. ACTUALLY I FELT BETTER. WHILE LEAVING HOME HE HUGGED ME GAVE ME A FOREHEAD KISS AND TOLD ME TO GO HOME STRAIGHT. THAT WAS THE DAY WHEN I REALIZED IT WASN'T LIKE OR CRUSH ANYMORE IT WAS LOVE. I STARTED LOVING HIM. HE WAS ALL OVER MY MIND.

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FIRE SPARKS BETWEEN

IT WAS SAME BORING DAY HE CAME UP TO ME AND SAID YOU KNOW WHAT I BROKE UP. I ASKED HIM WHY HE SAID I WAS DATING THAT GIRL FOR A REASON, WE ALL WANTED OUR FRIEND TO BE AWAY FROM HER SO I DID THAT. THAT DAY HE TOLD ME ALL THE TRUTH WHAT WRONG HE DID ALL THESE DAYS , HE TOLD ME EVERYTHING. I FELT REALLY NICE AND FELT SPECIAL. HE TOLD ME I AM GIVING UP ON ALL THESE THINGS AND NOT GOING BACK TO ANY OF HIS EX'S. I WAS QUITE HAPPY. HE STARTED FLIRTING WITH ME AGAIN AND LOVE WAS SPARKLING BETWEEN US . HE KNEW I HAD STARTED LOVING HIM HE COULD SEE IN MY EYES BUT I NEVER CONFESSED IT. ONE DAY AS WE WERE WALKING HE PULLED ME CLOSER AND SAID DO YOU KNOW WHY HAVEN'T I PROPOSED YOU YET, ITS BECAUSE I HAVE THOUGHT SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR US . I DON'T WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE JUST FEW MONTHS ITSM SHOULD LAST FOREVER. GETTING A GIRL WHO IS OF SAME CASTE(YES WE BOTH ARE OF SAME CASTE)SO BEAUTIFUL, CARING, LOVING I WOULDN'T GET EVER MY DAD LIKES YOU SO MUCH YOUR MUM LIKES ME SO MUCH. HE SAID ALL YOU HAVE TO GIVE IS YOUR TIME. I WAS REALLY HAPPY AND I SAID BYE AND WENT HOME.

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WAS IT A NIGHTMARE?

HE TEXTED ME ONE NIGHT AND SAID NEHA I HAVE TO TELL YOU SOMETHING MEET ME TOMORROW AFTER CLASSES. I WAS SXAREO, ANXIOUS. I COULDN'T SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT. FINALLY THE NEXT DAY WHEN I WENT CLASSES, AFTER WE LFET FROM CLASSES WE WERE WALKING HE TOLD ME HE WAS BACK WITH HIS FIRST EX . I WASN'T SHOCKED THIS TIME I ACTUALLY HAD THAT FEELING HE WAS GOING TO SAY SOMETHING LIKE THIS. I SAID GOOD THEN AND HE SAID HE WAS QUITE SERIOUS ABOUT HER. I LOST ALL HOPES BECAUSE THIS WSS THE THIRD TIME WHEN SOMEONE WAS AGAIN BETWEEN US . THIS TIME I LOST HIM I THOUGHT

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STAY AWAY

I STARTED MAINTAINING DISTANCE WITH HIM BECAUSE HE USE TO STILL FLIRT WHICH WAS EVENTUALLY MAKING ME FALL FOR HIM HARDER. I TOLD HIM DON'T DO THAT ITS WRONG YOUR DATING SOMEONE AND THAT TOO YOUR KINDA SERIOUS AND I DON'T WANNA COME BETWEEN YOU GUYS. AT LEAST DON'T LEAVE HER BE HAPPY. I IGNORED HIM FOR 2 MONTHS. ONE DAY HE SUDDENLY CALLED ME AND SAID MEET ME I WANNA TALK TO YOU. I WAS EXCITED BUT NERVOUS TOO. I WENT OUTSIDE HIS SCHOOL NEXT DAY HE CALLED ME AND ASKED WHY YOU IGNORING ME. I SAID I WANT TO I CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH YOU ANYMORE. HE JUST SAID TWO WORDS WHICH SHUT MY MOUTH. HE SAID DON'T LEAVE ME I CANNOT STAY WITHOUT YOU. I SAID CLEARLY I CAN'T STAY WIHT YOU ANYMORE BECAUSE IF I DO I WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU "AGAIN". HE BLUSHED AND I WALKED STRAIGHT. HE WAS GOING TO PROPOSE ME BUT HE DIDN'T BECAUSE HE HAD SOME OTHER PLAN. HE TEXTED ME THAT EVENING AND TOLD ME NEHA I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT I WANNA KISS YOU WANNA FEEL YOU. I WANNA HOLD AND SEE HOW IT FEELA .I SAID IT WAS KINDA HOOKING UP AND I HATED HOOKING UP BECAUSE I KNEW THEN I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO FORGET HIM FOR SURE. I SAID NO HE BECAME ANGRY AND HE SAID YOUR RIGHT I'LL BE HAPPY WITH MY GIRLFRIEND

CHAPTER:9

ALL STARTED OVER AGAIN

IT WAS CHRISTMAS AND HE TEXTED ME AND SAID HE BROKE UP AND FOR A REASON BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T TRUST HIM . AND NOW HIS EX REGRETS BUT HE WOULDN'T FORGIVE HER. AND HE SAID NOW MY ONLY GOALS IS TO SCORE GOOD MARKS IN 10 AND DATE ME AFTER OUR BOARDS I WAS SHOCK LIKE WAS I DREAMING. I WAS FALLING FOR HIM AGAIN. OUR PRELIMS STARTED EVEN THOUGH WE WERE IN DIFFERENT SCHOOL OUR SCHOOL WAS NEAR BY. I USE TO MEET ME AFTER EVERY PAPER OUTSIDE HIS SCHOOL EVEN HE USE TO WE USE TO TEASE EACH OTHER. HE USE TO PULL MY LEG FLIRT WITH ME. WAS LIKE EVERYTHING IS GOING SO PERFECT. ON THE LAST DAY OF PAPER I TOLD WENT TO MEET HIM BUT HE DIDN'T COME AND EVERYONE WAS THERE. HE CLIMBED HIS SCHOOL WINDOW AND SCREAMED LOUDLY TO ME THAT I'LL BE THERE IN 15 MINUTES. EVERYONE WERE LIKE AWWWW NEHA HE LITERALLY DID IT FOR YOU. I WAS BLUSHING. I KNEW I WAS IN LOVE COMPLETELY. IN CLASSES HE USE TO FLIRT OPENLY. EVERYONE USE TO TEASE US FROM BEING OF THE 10 BECAUSE OUR RELATION WAS VERY DIFFERENT IT CANNOT BE DESCRIBED. THERE WAS NO NAME FOR OUT RELATION. EVERYONE LIKES AS COUPLES EVEN OUR HEAD USE TO TEASE US. HE STARTED TELLING EVERYONE I WAS HIS FUTURE GIRLFRIEND I WAS HAPPY.

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STILL LIVING IN A DREAM

ONE DAY MY FRIEND CAME UP TO ME AND SAID ANAY WANTS TO TALK TO YOU AND THAT TO SHE WAS SMILING I WAS EXCITED. AFTER THE CLASSES I SAID HI , HE DIDN'T SAY HI AS HE USUALLY USE TO SAY. HE WASN'T THAT ANAY WHAT HE IS EVERYDAY. HE ACTUALLY WANTED TO SPEAK TO MT FRIEND AND EVEN SOME OTHERS ALSO. THERE IS A GIRL CALLED VEDA IN OUR CLASSES SHE WAS FLIRTING WITH ME BUT SHE CAME TO KNEW I LIKE ANAY THAT DAY EVEN SHE WAS THERE. HE SENT ME AND HER IN FRONT AND TOLD MY OTHER FRIENDS THAT HE NEVER FELT FOR ME HE NEVER LIKED ME HE WILL NEVER DATE IN FUTURE ALSO. I WAS SHOCKED WHEN MY FRIEND CAME AND TOLD ME ALL THIS . I WAS INTO COMPLETE SHOCKED INSTEAD OF TELLING ME HE TOLD EVERYONE ELSE I WAS LOOKING LIKE AN EMOTIONAL FOOL IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY. THAT NIGHT I CRIED AND THOUGHT WHY DID HE EVEN TELL ME ALL THOSE THINGS. AND HE ALSO SAID HE WOULD MAINTAIN DISTANCE. I HAD DECIDED I MYSELF WILL MAINTAIN DISTANCE. I TEXTED HIM AND TOLD HIM I WOULD DO IT BECAUSE I HAD DONE TI BEFORE IT WOULD BE EASY FOR ME. I WAS BROKEN. I WAS THIS TIME MORE OF ANGRY. EVENTUALLY I BROKE.

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THIRD WHEELING

IT WAS OUR CLASSES OPEN HOUSE HE CAME HE GREETED ME BUT I IGNORED IT. HE UNDERSTOOD I WAS SERIOUS ABOUT MY DECISION. WHEN I WAS ALONE IN A CLASS WITH A TEACHER EVEN I ENTERED THAT CLASS FOR THE PAPER I WAD JUST STANDING AND VEDA ENTERED EVERYONE COUGHED AND HIS HEAD WAS DOWN. I UNDERSTOOD FOURTH TIME A THIRD PERSON HAD ENTERED OUT LIFE BECAUSE OF HER WE WERE DRIFTED. I COMPLETELY BROKE FRIENDSHIP WITH HIM. I KNEW THIS WAS THE END. EVEN HE KNEW I HATED HIM NOW. INDIRECTLY HE USE TO SPEAK BUT I USE TI SPEAK BACK RUDELY. HE WAS DOING ALL THOSE THINGS THAT HE USED TO DO WITH ME. HE USED TO WALK WITH HER ALONE . HE USED TO FLIRT WITH HER NOE . AND HE HAD TOLD EVERYONE OFFICIALLY THAT HE WAS GOING OT DATE HER AFTER THE BOARDS. I HAD NO WORDS TO SAY . I DIDN'T GIVE UP BUT AFTER FEW WEEKS I JUST GAVE UP .I COULDN'T FIND A WAY HE WAS ALL HIS.

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THE END

IT WAS OFFICIALLY THE LAST DAY OF OUR CLASSES WE WOULD NEVER HAVE CLASSES AFTER THAT. I HAD DECIDED TO SAY VYE TO EVERYONE VERY SWEETLY. I DIDN'T WANTED TO BE BAD OR ANGRY AT ANYONE SO I DECIDED I WILL SAY LAST GOODBYE TO ANAY AFTER OUT PAPER I TOOK HIM TO A CLASS AND TOLD HIM SEE ITS LAST DAY AND I DON'T WANT TO BE RUDE TO ANYONE SO THIS IS THE LAST TIME I'LL BE TALKING TO YOU AND MAYBE THE LAST TIME SEEING YOU . ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR BOARDS THANKS FOR EVERYTHING THAT YOU DID TO ME . YOUR ONE OF THE BEST PART OF MY LIFE. AND STOP FLIRTING NOW BE HAPPY WITH VEDA KEEP HER HAPPY AT LEAST. WISH ME SO LUCK AND TEARS WERE FILLED IN MY EYES. HE SAID SORRY AND SAID HE WOULD MISS FLIRTING WITH ME THAT HIT ME SO HARD AND I JUST WALKED OUT I CRIED BUT CONTROLLED AND THAT WAS THE END WITH HIM.

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WAS IT A BEST OR A BAD END?

WE ALL DECIDED TO GO YASH HOUSE BECAUSE IT WAS OUR LAST DAY A WE SHOULD HAVE A GET TOGETHER AT YASH HOUSE SO WE WERE NINE OF US AND WENT HIS HOUSE WE WERE IN HIS BEDROOM . I HAD THOUGHT LETS GIVE IT A NEW BEGINNING AND FORGET ANAY EVEN THOUGH HE AND VEDA WERE ALSO THERE IN FRONT OF ME BUT IT DIDN'T BOTHER ME. WE DECIDED TO PLAY 21 (TRUTH OR DARE). WE STARTES PLAYING IT WAS SO FUN WE ENJOYED. THEN WE DECIDED THAT WE HAD LESS TIME SO LETS EVERYONE DO ONE DARE AND THEN ITS OVER. SO VEDA GOT A DARE TO KISS ANAY SHE DID EVEN I THOUGHT THEY WILL SAY ANAY TO KISS VEDA. BUT THEY SAID HIM TO KISS ME I WAS FREEZED I DIDN'T SAY A WORD BECAUSE TODAY WAS NOT THE DAG THAT SHOULD HAPPEN BECAUSE FEW HOURS AGO I JUST COMPLETELY CUTTED OFF FROM HIM HE DIDN'T AGREE BECAUSE VEDA WAS THERE HE SAID HE WONT THEN I TOLD YASH DON'T DO EVEN VEDA WILL GET DISTURBED AND EVEN I. SO THEN HE SAID NO BUT ONE OF OUR FRIEND WAS NOT READY . HE SAID HE WON'T PLAY FURTHER AND WOULD LEAVE SO EVENTUALLY ANAY AGREED THE DARE. HE CAME TO ME TOOK MY FACE KISSED ME ON MY BOTH THE SIDE OF CHEECKS AND THE FOREHEAD AND WHEN HE KISSED THE FOREHEAD AND LOOKED AT ME I WAS STUNNED TEARS WERE THERE IN MY EYES THERE WAS AN EYE CONTACT BETWEEN US AND HE WENT BACK TO VEDA. I WENT OUT OF THE BEDROOM AND CRIED. WHILE GOING HOME I WAS JUST THINKING THAT. AS I WENT HOME I CRIED LIKE I DIDN'T EVER BEFORE . IT WAS HEARTBREAKING THIS WAS NOT THE ENDING FOR ME. AFTER THAT IT IS GOING THE SAME IN TWO DAYS I HAVE MY BOARDS. I STILL FEEL HE WILL BE BACK I DON'T KNOW WHY OR WE WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.

THE END❤️

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