Saranghae

Han Sofia POV,

I have made up my mind, I can't live while my father had to lose his life because of my carelessness. Yeobo, I'm sorry...

I sobbed and closed my eyes, I stepped my foot towards the end of the fence...

"I wouldn't do it if I were you...", said a male voice from behind me

I opened my eyes and quickly turned my face to him.

"Your problem will not be solved if you do this, you will only create new problems and make the people who love you suffer more," he said again

"Uncle....", I mumbled between my sobs

He stubbed out his cigarette and walked over to me.

"Trust me, I've experienced it...", said Uncle Lee holding out his hand to me

I gripped my hospital gown tightly, hesitating to take his hand.

"Believe me... it hurts so much to be left by the one you love in this way...", he said looking at me with sad eyes

I lowered my face as I stared at the heavy traffic below. The faces of Yoongi, my grandmother, my mother and my father-in-law flashed through my mind.

"Please Sofia..." he said softly, holding his hand closer to me

"But everything happened because of me... I can't live like this...", I sobbed with trembling body

"You're not thinking straight right now, Sofia...", said uncle Lee, shifting closer to me without lowering his hand

"Are you sure this is what your parents wanted? ...think about it...", said uncle Lee taking my hand slowly

I sobbed louder and swiftly, uncle Lee pulled me away from the edge of the fence. I buried myself in Uncle Lee's arms, sobbing uncontrollably. While he just patted my back, letting me release all the mixed emotions inside me.

"Sit down, come on, sit down ...", he said softly as he led me to sit on a long chair that he had been sitting on

"Gomawo", I muttered as I accepted the handkerchief he offered

"Why are you doing this, Sofia? I know you're much better than this...", he said, a hint of disappointment in his voice

"Mianhae ... I, I don't know what to do. The accident happened because of me ... my father died because of me ...", I sobbed

"Have you regained your memory?", he asked while turning my body towards him

"Ye, uncle. Ye... I've memorized everything", I replied in a choked voice

"Jinjja?", he whispered still gripping my arm

I nodded, then without saying anything he hugged me tightly as if it was the first time he had met me.

"Thank goodness… thank goodness…", he mumbled over and over

"I don't know what you remember about the accident, I just want you to know that everyone who loves you is relieved that you survived the accident, Sofia," he said softly as he let go of her hug

"Mianhae...", I answered quietly between my tears

"Sofia!! That's her!! Oh my God, Sofia!!", my mother-in-law screamed

I turned my face and saw her running towards me in a hurry, her face filled with tears. Then there were 3 hospital security officers and 2 nurses who ran behind her.

"Oemma ... mianhae ... jinjja mianhae", I sobbed while hugging her

"Sshh, gweanchana, gwanchana ... thank God you weren't hurt ...", answered my mother-in-law between her tears

Then they led me back downstairs to the room I was in. My grandmother limped over to me and hugged me tightly. I repeatedly mumbled apologies to them with a trembling body.

The doctor and two nurses put the IV in and checked my condition. I feel so messed up right now. I felt so much guilt in my heart. Not only to my parents but also to the people who love me today.

"I think I should give her a sedative. I'm afraid her condition will get worse if she continues like this", said the doctor who treated me to my mother-in-law and grandmother

"Do your best, Doctor", replied my grandmother as she continued to gently rub my hand

"Hajima", I sobbed. "Please don't...", I pleaded between my tears

Meanwhile, the female doctor injected something into my IV.

"Sofia, calm down... what's going on, Sofia... stop crying, please", begged my mother-in-law while wiping the tears that kept falling down my cheeks

"Mianhae ... jinjja mianhae ... oemma, mianhae ...", I said in a hoarse voice

"Sobi! Sobi ...", Yoongi called while opening my bedroom door loudly

His face was red and he was panting. When our eyes met, he immediately ran over to my bed and hugged me tightly.

"Yeobo, mianhae. It's all my fault, my father died because of me. I can't live like this, yeobo... he died because of me....", I cried again loudly when I hugged him

"No ... no, Sobi. Everything that happened is not entirely your fault. Sshhh ... calm down. We will find out what happened. Stay with me, I don't want to lose you ... please...", he said in a choked voice while hugging me tightly

"Yeobo ... yeobo ...", I mumbled continuously between my sobs as sleepiness suddenly creeps up my body

"Shh ... calm down, calm down. We will find out everything. I promise, Sofia ... hold on ... please", he said in a hoarse voice holding back tears

"Mianhae ... jinjja mianhae ... appa mianhae .. oemma ...", I mumbled wildly when sleepiness took over my consciousness

"Relax ... they love you, Sobi. You are their precious daughter ...", Yoongi said quietly while continuously stroking my head

"Yeobo... mianhae... my fault... I...", my voice is getting weaker and weaker

I heard faint sobs all around me. Why is everyone crying? Did I make them cry? I'm sorry forgive me for everything ...

So comfortable, this fragrance, this warmth...

Then I heard Yoongi whisper in my ear, "Hold on Sobi... I love you..." before I finally gave in to sleepiness and fell asleep in my husband's arms

5 hours later,

I heard faint movement around me. I moved my body a little and tried to open my eyes, but failed. I feel like I've been asleep for a long time but I still feel sleepy.

"Yoongi~aah, I'm going home now. Are you sure you don't want me to accompany you?", Yoongi's mother's voice was heard in the distance

"Ye, oemma. Gwaenchana", he answered slowly

"Tomorrow I and your dad will be back here early in the morning. I'm worried that she will do something crazy again if we don't take care of her or accompany her. Oh my God, luckily Mr. Lee found her, or she will ...", said my mother-in-law in a choked voice

"Oemma, don't worry, I will always be by her side. You can go home... You should take a rest too", Yoongi replied

"Arasso. You too, Yoongi~aah. I'm leaving now", my mother-in-law said

And then, the door slowly opened and closed. I moved my head a little. And I felt a hand gripping mine gently.

I slowly opened my eyes, I saw a faint shadow of someone. I blinked a few times trying to see more clearly. The room was dim, there was only one light near the bathroom, all the curtains in this room were tightly closed. The air conditioner sounded quite loud in my ears. I think I've been asleep for quite a while, for it seems that by now the sun has completely set.

"Sobi?", Yoongi called softly

I focused my gaze on the figure of the man sitting next to me.

"Water...", I muttered weakly

"Huh? Water? Do you want a drink? Wait a minute", he replied

Then he took a glass of water that was on the dining table.

"You want to wake up?", he asked again

"Yes", I answered slowly

Then Yoongi pressed a button, I felt my upper body start to move up until finally the bed I was sleeping on stopped moving in a sitting position.

"Drink it slowly," he said, giving a glass of water into my mouth

I drank in a few gulps, sighing happily as the water ran down my dry throat

"How are you? Does it feel much better?", Yoongi asked after placing the glass on the bedside table

"Yes", I answered weakly

"Thank goodness...", he answered while smiling at me

"Yeobo mianhae...", my words were interrupted by Yoongi

"Shh... gwaenchana. Jinjja, gwaenchana. I understand you must be devastated right now", Yoongi said softly while rubbing my head affectionately

"Yeobo... I remember you...", I mumbled softly, I felt my eyes getting wet

He sighed and smiled, then kissed the back of my hand.

"So you have remembered everything? Thank goodness...", he replied while showing me his gummy smile

"Yeah, but...", I stammered

"Is there something you want to say?", he asked in a low and deep voice

"Ye...but please don't hate me after I tell you everything...", I whispered, a tear slowly falling down my cheek

"Ani, I can't possibly hate you, Sobi", he answered while wiping my tears with his thumb

Then I told what happened during the accident 13 years ago. I had to stop a few times because I started crying again. But Yoongi patiently calmed me down and listened to my story to the end without saying anything.

"If I didn't do it, I'm sure that my father would still alive, Yeobo", I sobbed

"Everything has happened, Sobi. Nothing will change if you say like that, don't blame yourself too much," Yoongi said quietly

"I'm re-investigating the accident case. I found an oddity. I don't think the accident was entirely your fault," he said again

"What do you mean?", I asked choked up

"I still have to confirm it, Sobi. I can't say right now. So please, don't think about it too much, okay?", he said as he put my hand on his cheek

"Sorry to bother you, Yeobo. Thank you. You're still the same as before... always listening to me", I said while caressing his cheek

"Retelling a trauma is a way of healing. By telling it you begin to accept the situation and gradually you will begin to forgive yourself. Never hesitate to tell me anything, Sobi. I will always listen to you and support you", he said while looking at me with a gaze full of love

"I… are you…", I didn't continue, too afraid that what I had heard earlier was wrong

"Wae?", he asked

"Ani, gwaenchana...", I answered swallowing my saliva

"Promise me, Sobi, that you will always be with me. Don't ever do something stupid like that again, arasso? I don't want to lose you", he whispered as he laid his head on the bed and looked at me

"Ye... mianhae", I whispered

Then he smiled and kissed me gently and told me to go back to sleep.

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The next day, my day was very busy. I went through some medical checkups. The Doctors want to know clearly how I am today after what I experienced yesterday. Plus after I told her that I had regained my memory, a Neurologist also started examining my brain again.

I could only breathe a sigh of relief and rest after almost noon. My mother and fathers-in-law have returned home, while my grandmother has also returned to the hotel. So right now I'm only accompanied by Yoongi and uncle Lee.

"Get some rest, your afternoon snack has just arrived. Wow it looks delicious....", Yoongi said while bringing a tray filled with afternoon snacks in front of me

"I'm not hungry, yeobo", I replied while looking reluctantly at the tray of snacks

"Eat, just a little. You must be tired, right?" he said as he handed me a fork

I looked at the tray in front of me, there was a glass of orange juice, a piece of apple pie, a bowl of nuts, and a banana. Reluctantly I picked up an almond and ate it.

"Aigoo ... you have to eat a lot, Sobi. Do I need to feed you?", said Yoongi while taking a plate of pies

Then he began to feed me while asking how the examination I had been doing. But suddenly his cell phone rang, he picked it up while frowning.

"Yeobosseyo, PD nim?", he said in a serious voice

"I'm still in Daegu. Uh? Now? Umm ye I will join in 5 minutes. Arasso ... ani, gwaenchana. Ye, kamsahamnida", he said then hung up the phone

"Wae?", I asked after swallowing my pie

"Bang PD nim wants to talk about something urgent about our concert. He has already contacted the other members. We will have a zoom meeting in 5 minutes. I will call outside so as not to disturb you. Is it okay if I go outside for a while?", he asked

"Gwaenchana", I replied with a smile

Then he stood up, took the AirPods from his bag, and kissed my forehead.

"I'll ask Uncle Lee to take care of you. Finish your pie, okay?", he said and walked out

Not long after, uncle Lee came in and greeted me.

"Annyeong, uncle Lee. Sorry to bother you", I said asking him to sit on the chair that was previously occupied by Yoongi

"Gwaenchana. How are you, Sofia?", he asked

"I'm much better, uncle", I replied while poking at the pie I had eaten

Silence for a while.

"Uncle, kamsahamnida. Thank you for helping me, yesterday I... I was upset and as you said, I wasn't thinking clearly at that time", I said while lowering my face

"Gwaenchana... I'm glad you didn't do it", he replied smiling kindly

"Ummm... sorry, can I ask you something, uncle?", I asked hesitantly still poking my pie

"You want to ask about what I said yesterday?", he asked

"Uh? Ye... Is it for real or are you just saying it to make me cancel my intentions?", I asked slowly looking at her carefully

We stared at each other for a long time, as if he was considering the answer.

"If you don't want to answer that's okay, uncle... I just...", I said quickly before he cut me off

"She is my daughter", he replied

"Eh? Sorry??", I asked confused while furrowing my forehead

"My daughter, Lee Mina, she committed suicide when she was your age", he said again while lowering his face

"Oh my God... forgive me, uncle. I'm sorry, uncle, I shouldn't have asked that... mianhae I must have made you sad", I said looking at him with regret

"Gwaenchana. Honestly, I was very surprised when I saw you climbing the guardrail yesterday. The memory of my daughter suddenly flashed. And I decided that I had to stop you right then and there," he said flatly

"Thank you uncle", I muttered, lowering my face

"Mina is my only daughter, she is a beautiful, smart girl, but she is very quiet. She never shows her feelings to me or her mother. She always acts that everything is fine ... even though it's not ...", he said bitterly

"Mina falls in love with a man she has known since childhood. She has hidden her feelings for him for a long time. Even when he goes to the military and works outside the city, Mina is always waiting for him, hoping that one day she will have the courage to confess her love", he said again with a sad face

"And when the man finally came back, Mina decided to confess her love ... however, the man turned out to only think of her as a sister all this time, nothing more. He even said that he had found the woman he loved and planned to marry her", continued uncle Lee with a trembling voice

"Uncle, you don't have to tell me...", I said trying to stop him

"Ani... I have to tell you, so you understand that if you encounter problems or you feel your life is not easy, you have to believe that many people around you love you very much and are happy to help you. So don't ever be narrow-minded and decide to end your life again. My daughter ... didn't realize it. She never told us about her life or her problems. Ah, no … when I think about it now, it seems we were the ones who never asked how her life was because we were too busy working. So she felt lonely and decided to end her life", said uncle Lee with teary eyes

"Uncle...", I muttered while holding his hand

My wife and I only found out about this after she died, she left a letter before she committed suicide. We are very saddened by her death and to this day I can never forget it", he wiped his tears

"Uncle, I'm so sorry... I'm sorry", I sobbed, getting lost in the story

He then looked at me and smiled a little, I could see the wrinkles on his tired face. He looks very different now. Usually, he is a man who is alert, intelligent, dignified, and always looks perfect in the suit he wears every day. But this time I can see the fragile and human side of him.

"When I saw you yesterday, I felt that I had to do something. You're still young Sofia, you have a long life to go. So don't ever give up on whatever problems stand in your way. Live for yourself and the people you love, arasso?", he said emotionally

"Yes, uncle. Kamsahamnida", I said hugging him

I don't know what I have to say to comfort him, because I almost made the people I love suffer like this.

"Sobi, I'm back!", Yoongi said entering my room

He raised his eyebrows to see me and uncle Lee who hastily wiped our tears.

"Am I disturbing you? I'll be waiting outside...", Yoongi's words were cut off by Uncle Lee

"Ani, ani. Gwaenchana. Come in... you're the one who should be here", he smiled at Yoongi

"Sofia ssi, remember what I said earlier. I will wait outside. Take a rest", said Uncle Lee

He stood up from his chair and nodded at me then left the room. Yoongi looked at me questioningly and walked slowly towards me.

"What's wrong? Did something happen? Why are you crying?", he asked

Then I told him what we just talked about. Yoongi was very shocked to know this, just like me earlier.

"Gosh", "Oh my God", "Aigoo", he repeated over and over when he heard my story about Uncle Lee's daughter.

After having dinner and taking the medicine given by the nurse, he climbed into bed with me and told me what he had talked about with Bang PD and the other members earlier.

We lay face to face. I looked into his face, his smile, his laugh ... and instantly I felt a feeling well up in my chest. Oh my God, I love him so much, I thought. Does he feel the same as me? Had he said that to me yesterday? I think I heard it, but I'm not sure, maybe it was just my imagination because at that time I was almost unconscious.

Yoongi kept talking, his eyes sparkling… I cupped his face with both hands. He frowned and stopped talking.

"Yeobo, Saranghae..", I said slowly

He gaped and fell silent. Then suddenly he brought his face closer and kissed me. A soft and long kiss.

"Nado. Saranghae, Sobi..", he muttered while looking at me lovingly

My chest was filled with mixed feelings. Is it true? Is it true what I just heard? Does he love me too?

I smiled, half sobbing and half chuckling, too overwhelmed by the sudden surge of happiness. Then he kissed me again and we hugged, spending the rest of the night alone in the dimly lit room.

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