10 Let's talk
MIMIKO POV:
I told my son to talk to me tonight in our room.
I'm kind of nervous... I don't know how to explain 'that' to him.
What should I do!? what should I say!? How can I get out of this!? I hate this situation!!!
All I wanted in my whole life is to have a husband, children, a happy life and family! Why!? why did it turn out like this!?
I know... I know I'm not ready to say this to him yet but... I don't want this to continue or make this situation even worse!!! so, even if I'm not ready... I'll talk to him.
But... but how? how can I tell him without him being angry, or hating me, or being disappointed to his mother? ugh... I'm being paranoid just think of all this!!!
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it's afternoon now... I have to cook for our dinner...
Everytime seeing him so happy... everytime seeing him smiling... ju-just seeing all of this... my son... ugh, now is not the time to cry! you should act normal ok!?
"Mom do you need help cooking?" he said smiling to me.
just seeing how great he is as a son, being a mother to someone who is a failure like me!?
I can't... I ca-...
"Mom?"
"Ohh... no need dear... it's fine..."
"ok mom! if you need me, just call me ok?"
I just smiled to tell him ok.
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we all ate our dinner and I'm now waiting to my bedroom sitting on my bed. The bed that we used to do that... I still can't believe it! my son fingered her mother to death unknowingly!
His mother that he looked up to! The mother that he said he wanted to marry someday... is an immoral mother!
but, I will make this right! right here right now!
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Here he is! all smiling to me running towards me and now hugging me like I was his teddy bear! This... this is just the thing I wanted! all of us smiling together!
"Mom? are you ok?" he said worriedly.
" I- I'm fine dear." I said as I gave him a kiss on his forehead while brushing his hair using my fingers.
"can I sleep here now mom? I don't want sister staring at me while sleeping! it's creepy." he said with a pleading face.
"I guess but we need to talk first."
"what is it mom?" he said with a confused look.
I gestured him to sit beside me and he did so.
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After some silence he hugged me and gave me a peck on my lips!
"Wha -what d-do you think your doing!?" I said as I pushed him off.
"a-are you angry to me mom!?" he said as tears is dropping to his cheeks. I think I pushed him off too hard.
"Why did you kissed me on my lips it's wrong!" I said still worried if I pushed him too hard.
" Yui always kisses me on my lips, and sister said that I should only kiss someone that I'm going to marry... Is that why your angry mom!? because you don't want to marry me!?" he said crying. but, he is doing his best effort not to cry.
"N-" I've been interapted.
"I thought you are going to marry me now because the other night you kissed me on my lips too long!?" he said now his eyes are so red.
"that's not it..." I was worried that sakura might hear us.
"Then why!?" he said, he is tears are now getting less.
"It's just that... I'm feeling guilty of what we did the other night!" I said. I'm going to do this now! straightforward! no beating around the bush!
"Why? *sniff* *sniff*" he said as he now stopped crying.
*sigh* I'm relieved he stopped crying. I don't want to see him cry.
"About what we did the other night... i-its the thing that only 'lovers' do, ok?" I said as I pulled him to me and gave him a hug. "we can't do it and we shouldn't." I said while rubbing his hair to lighten his emotions...
"But... but, someday we are going to be lovers right!?" he said looking up to me expecting me to say yes.
"hmm... dear, there are things you should know on your own ok? if you are on you're right age and if you still tell me that you are marrying me... Then ok." I said... though I'm not serious about it. I just want to ease his feelings and tell him we shouldn't do it anymore.
"Wh- how long mom?"
"You are now 6 yrs old... 26 yrs more until you can decide ok?" I said and gave him a smile.
" but for now... you should stay like my son innocent and cute little son ok? you should not rush you life for this things. You should enjoy it ok?" I said as I gave him a peck on his cheeks and forehead.
"ok..." he said and he gave me a peck on my lips. I was a little shocked of his actions and when he saw this he said, "just a kiss on your lips mom... just to make sure you'll be my wife someday..." he said smiling at me.
I just agreed to it. It's just a kiss on our lips, nothing more... it's just to ease his feelings...
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"I love you mom..." he said and gave me another kiss.
"I love you too..." I said and just gave him a smile.
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we just cuddled to each other that night. He is hugging me so tight that he just don't want to let me go. But... I know someday you'll go away too... just like your father... he left me without a word.
But, atleast all my worries are for now gone and explained to him about it. And that is what matters for now.
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