1 Our Past

"I will always serve you Martha-sama even if it costs my life, even if we were reincarnated or reborn i will always pledge my self to you and you only"

I have always been in love with him. However, this man Roberto, he comes from a different class than me i am a princess and he's a slave, not only that i can't marry this man but i can never confess to him. He only thinks me of his master and nothing else, my only hope is that he can find a girl that will treasure him but will i be able to accept that? will i be able to see them both together without my heart in pain? maybe not i really am a selfish person, now im getting escorted by Robert to the wedding room. I look back at him and hoped that we could stand side by side holding hands. After we're in the wedding room, i saw a lot of people waiting for me in here, yes they were waiting for me to see me get married, finally Roberto escorted me to the prince and when we were walking i felt the feeling of regret i felt that i can't say it but i dont want to make a fool of my kingdom so i bit my tounge and after i got escorted to the priest

"Today, We are gathered here in the site of god and in the face of this congregration for their marriage. God reminds us, that at the beggining the Creator made us male and female, and said, for this cause a man dhall leave his father and mother and shall cleave to his wife; and two shall become one flesh. God loved us, and created us to live others. Our lives find completion only as we love anf are lived in return. Together, we can become whar we could never be seperately. Marriage is of God let us pray, after they prayed the pastor continued his speach. Please join hands, I ask you each now, to repeat the marriage vows"

"I, Julius the 4th , take thee Martha to be my wedded Wife, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God's holy ordinance; and thereto I plight thee my troth.

No i, dont want to but i cant run away from this i cant make my kingdoom a fool, but my heart is for another man, my heart is for him, for Robert alone

"I-i-i, Martha, take thee Julius the 4th to be my wedded Husband, to have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part, according to God's holy ordinance; and thereto I plight thee my troth."

i really cant stay true to my self, i looked into Robert hoping that his face filled in despair or even sadness but no he smiled, then, as Julius places the ring on my finger, he says the following

"With this ring i thee wed with my body i thee worship, and with all my worldly goods i thee endow: in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. Amen." Julius said it proudly

"Bless, O Lord the Giving of these. rings that they who wear them, may live in your peace and your favor all the days of their life; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen" said the pastor

"this ring is my sacred gift to to you, A symbol of my Love, A sign from that from this day forward and always, My love will surround you, With this ring i thee wed." said Julius

"Eternal God Creator and preserver, send thy blessing upon these servants of yours, this man and this woman, whom we bless in thy Name; that they, living faithfully together, may surely perform and keep the vow and covenant between them as symbolized by these rings as a token and pledge, and may ever remain in love and peace together and live according to the laws. Amen. Together they Julius and Martha have pledged their faithfulness, each to the other, and have declared their love by giving and receiving Rings and by joining hands, I now, by the authority commited unto me as a minister and a priest, declare that Julius and Martha are husband and wife according to the ordinance of God, May the peace and the unconditional love of God surround you and remain with you and forevermore. Amen. You may seal your vows with a kiss" the pastor said to us

I turned back to see Robert one last time before we have to seperate, i only saw his smile, his smile was wide he really looks happy for me, and because of that i have to be happy for him too, i turned to Julius

"you really look beautiful" he said to me

"lets get this over with shall we?" i smiled at him

we kissed and after a week i have to say goodbye to Robert, and this kingdom, before i go, i waited for Robert in my room, then a few minutes have passed and i heard a knock outside my door

"Martha-sama are you here? you must go the carriage is waiting for you, and of course as you said i would be escorting you there" it was Robert he was waiting for me

"yes, Robert i have to talk to you about something, you may come in" i said to him

he then opened the door and proceed to stand beside the door "yes, princess what is the problem, tell me anything and i will fix it instantly"

The problem is i dont want to get married with her and get married with you, yeah that will never happen unless...

"Roberto when you ever get reincarnated please search for me i will be waiting for you"

"yes, i am yours master" he kneeled down to me

"we will reunite, and be one"

"yes, master"

I finally got escorted by him to the carriage. After im in the carriage, I look at him once more and thought, That he really does view me as a master and nothing more.

After i moved to the new kingdom, i was treated badly by my husband i was abused, i was scared, i was constantly in despair, i couldn't even get out of the castle, everyday i would spend my time thinking about him. Roberto, i wonder what if we came from the same class what would happen? what if we were married, would i be happy? would he be happy? probably not but that's fine because of him i can still get through the tough things in this castle, in this locked room. I can get through all the pain that Julius gave me. After that i felt sleepy and warm. So i went to bed and Slept.