HER DECISION

I Always thought that the world was a very cruel place.

Your own family can abandon you so then what about the strangers.

So in this cruel world, I have decided to let everything go and,

Live in a world of only two.

My Child and I.

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"Are you sure about this Samara?"

"Yes Uncle, I just want to pursue music again just like my mother."

"But staying in a foreign country where you don't know anyone, even our family doesn't have any connections there. What if something bad happens there, you won't have anyone to contact."

"Aunt calm down It's not like I don't know how to take care of myself. Trust me I can take care of myself, it's not like my father cared for me the past decade."

Its been a month since I tried to commit suicide. I didn't know where else to go except for my uncle's house. My mother and her brother were very close back in the days but after marriage, they hardly talked. My uncle Dave had always doted upon me but because he hated my father we didn't meet much.

Now, After all that I have been through. I have decided to move to a new place where no one knows me or my family.

I just want to give birth to my child and live with my baby in a peaceful place where we would support and love each other.

I plan to tell my Uncle and Aunt that I will be going abroad to study music just like my mother did. About my baby, well I will cross the bridge when the time comes. I don't have time to think about that I just want to leave as soon as possible.

I have a flight booked for today night at 10 but before that my uncle asked me to join them for dinner as my cousins came back from college last night.

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"Hey! it has been a while, Sam. How are you doing?"

"Yeah, I heard Dad say that you want to go to Philadelphia to pursue music. Is that true?"

"Wahh! My little one is finally growing up."

Uncle Dave has three sons triplets. John, Lex and Xavier. They have always played with me when I was young and treated me like their little sister but as we grew up I preferred to keep to myself and we drifted apart.

What I regret the most was not contacting them. I was so drowned into my misery and self-pity that I didn't think about asking them for help. If I had I knew that they would definitely kill Enzo and destroyed my father's business. 

I was so deep into my thoughts that I didn't notice I was crying.

"Hey, You good there? What happened? Why are you crying?" John has always been a worrywart. The moment I cry like a hen guarding its chickens he goes all Gangster mom on the person who made me cry. He was 6 feet 5 inches tall with hazel coloured hair and light blue eyes, He has this soothing aura around him calming your soul.

"Was it your so-called step-sister again. I told you a hundred time that she isn't as sweet as she seems to be but you just never listen." Lex has always been the older of the group, Our reliable Big Bro. 6 feet 7 inches tall with a tanned body, black hair and green eyes. Our Big Bro has always been cold to the outsiders adding onto his charms.

"Sam just leave that stupid family and come live with us. Your father will one day realize how stupid he was to ignore you. I will protect you no matter what." Xavier was the closest to me. He has always been hot-headed had preferred to fight it out than talk. Xavier is the shortest amongst those three, 6 feet 4-inch tall with blond hair and blue eyes, always with a playful smile and sexy muscled body.

'Girls fight with their tongues while boys fight with their fists.' Is what he use to say while I would taunt him as an uncivilized savage.

Looking at these 3 hot as fu*kkk guys looking at me with those eyes filled with distress and worry I couldn't hold back my tears. I buried myself in Lex's embrace and cried my heart out.

"Shhh Its okay Samara, You are okay. Shh." Lex patted my head and back comforting me. He has always been so reliable.

"I'm sorry it's just that after my father disowned me and all my so-called friends left me I didn't know where else to go but now I just feel happy that you guys are still the same."

"Of course we are. We will always love you and never leave ya." John pulled me in his arms and assured me for a little while more.

"Okay now guys we have to go meet His highness and the Queen or else we won't be getting any food if we go late." Xavier has been calling Uncle and Aunt like that since 9th grade.

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"So when are you leaving Sam?"

"Xavier it is not good to talk while dinning."

"Pardon me, Your highness, the queen," Xavier said with the most exaggerated gesture.

Everyone burst out laughing.

"Hahaha Its fine honey Samara is leaving today so let them be." Uncle Dave appeased his angered wife.

"What you are leaving today? Why so soon? Why didn't you tell us before" With that question everyone turned to look at me.

"Well like you know I have always been good with piano and such so I thought why not pursue music instead of business, it's not like my father will pass the company to me. I just asked my piano tutor to advice me with good music institutes and I applied for the good ones who knew that they would love my skills so much that they accepted right away. It has only been 2 weeks since then and I was quite busy after that so didn't get time to tell you all."

"Well, it is a pleasant surprise, who would have thought that you still had it in you."

"Honey, do you remember Samara's first piano competition?"

"Ah yes, yes. How could I ever forget these three rascals were also there."

"Are you both talking about that time when she was wearing a baby pink gown. I remember her looking damn cute."

"She did an outstanding performance. The judges all called her a genius."

"I still remember her getting the first prize as John and Xavier crazily screamed her name."'

"Why don't you play a song for our dear. Its been a while since we last saw you play."

"Okay Aunt."

We all moved to the music room where the piano was.

I sat on the piano bench and gently lifted my hands to play.

Slow, calm and happy at first.

My peaceful and Happy Beginning.

Many images passed by in my mind.

How my Father and Mother taught me to walk.

How My father taught me to cycle.

How my parents stayed up all night because I was sick.

Just as everyone was recalling their childhood memories the song became dark filled with sadness.

My silent and dark world.

How my father ignored me and doted upon another.

How my family turned their back on me.

How my world crumbled.

As I was playing I didn't notice my tears, I didn't notice how I was sweating.

I didn't notice how crazy I looked, how my eyes were red and how the tone grew heavier and heavier.

Just when the brother was going to stop me, the music was calm again but this wasn't a peaceful calm but a calm after despair.

After going through so much pain all hope was given up.

A peaceful state before the end.

The calm before the Death.

Just when the music was gonna end light of hope appeared.

A light in the dark,

it continued to spread its light to all the corners.

The final hope to the hopeless.

A reason.

Xavier, Lex and John hugged me the moment I stood up.

"It was beautiful my dear. You really are a genius." There were tears in my Aunt's eyes and an expression of understanding.

I just smiled and thanked her.

"It was amazing Sam." Xavier still wouldn't let me go.

"Okay Xavier let her go, Her flight is in two hours." Uncle Dave said while pulling Xavier off me.

"Come on we'll drop you off, go and get ready," John said as he pulled me upstairs.

After a long time, I was happy.

I don't know if the choices are right or wrong but I will do everything in my power to give my baby a happy life.

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